I am getting married to Joe. Finally after a three month engagement, we are getting married. It took me a few minuets to decide who all to invite and yes, Ethan was on the list. I had all of my family and his family, people from back at college and people from home. All of our close friends were invited and the girls in my bible study group. I knew that as soon as I sent an invitation out to Joe's parents his mom would fly out here to help with the wedding. She was an amazing woman. And once she met my mother there would barely be anything left for me to do with my wedding. It was to be in another two months. We couldn't wait to be married, but I want Deborah to be a little older than three months if I have to leave her behind with family or Anita. Joe was as in love with Deborah as he was with me and she was perfect. Which was amazing since as soon as Ethan had found out I was pregnant from rape he'd been so distant…

Joe was in class right now and Deborah was sleeping in her basinet, so I was writing as many addresses as I possibly coulee in the given time. Mom had printed out all of the invitations and I was only allowed to write the addresses on the envelopes. It gave me something to do other than work out with my trainer. In order to fit into my dream wedding dress I had to lose all of the baby weight that I had gained in my pregnancy with Deborah. Joe had a friend of a friend who was a personal trainer so I was working with her to get in shape for my wedding. And I couldn't complain since it was fun getting to know her and her triplets. She was a Christian mother and a personal trainer. Within moments of meeting her she was on my hero list. Joe found that humorous.

I sat up and stretched, then checked on Deborah to make sure she was still breathing. I was just a bit paranoid about SID's. Maybe in a couple years when she was older, Joe and I would have our own baby to keep her company. I smiled thinking of the many little ones running around our house. Joe had picked out a wonderful home nearby that we would move into as soon as we were married. Both of our parents had pitched in and helped us by the house, especially Joe's parents. They were contributing to us as much as possible. They didn't know that we were getting married yet, but they helped to buy the house as soon as Joe asked them to.

I walked into the kitchen and poured myself a glass of water. I took a sip and set the cup down onto the counter. I walked into my room and laid out an outfit for lunch. Then I went back into the kitchen and brought my glass of water out into the front room and set it on the desk beside the stack of envelopes. I had a pre-packed diaper bag by the basinet and the stroller was folded up by the door ready to go. Sometimes I took Deborah out in her stroller with me when I went jogging in the morning. I was always stopped by one of Joe's or my friends wanting to take a quick peek at Deborah. She had so many friends her already and she was barely three months old. It helped that I could relate to a lot of the other girls and young mothers on campus.

I sat back down on the desk chair and began to write Ethan's address on the next envelope.