Your trip to the hospital was.. fascinating. You just watched the blonde girl talk to those children using those hand gestures you couldn't understand but you wish you could. You wish that you somehow knew what she was telling to those children. You were somehow amazed by her, you wonder how come she could smile so brightly when life has given her nothing but a sickness she'll carry forever. Her blue eyes sparkling with delight like she never had any problems in life.
You wish you could just be like her. Even though your life has been going to the way you planned, you're still not happy. It's like there's still a missing piece, like someone you could share all of your accomplishments with. It's been years since you last dated anyone because when you were little you know without feelings it was so much better cause when there are feeling involved , it could fuck you up, big time.
You love being alone but sometimes it makes you sad and think for a moment what would it be like to have someone waiting for you at home, someone who would hold you in their arms when you go to sleep, someone who would take care of you when you're sick. The last time you were in a relationship was a mess, you didn't even remember the guy's name.
You've been in several blind dates but none of those guys you met were the one. You found out later on you weren't attracted to guys , and you think of those times when you were in a blind date you would check out on the waitress' ass. You came out to your parents and they were ok with it but they weren't still used on this kind of thing and when you became famous your PR said that being who you are could ruin your reputation, everything you worked hard for. So you tried to hide for who you are, until now.
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It's early morning when you woke up, you saw your dad ready to go to the hospital and you hesitated for a minute to ask him if you could go.
Your dad was about to open the door when you cleared your throat and your dad turned around to look at you with one of his eyebrow raised.
You know you still couldn't use your voice, you've been taking those medicines the doctor gave you but it seems like none of them were working.
You opened your mouth then you closed it, trying to find a way to ask him. Then you grab your phone from your jeans pocket and typed out a message.
You help up the phone in front of him as he squints his eyes to read the small texts.
"You want to go?" he asks
You nod as you fumble the hem of your shirt. You didn't know why you wanted to go, you just want to.
"Ok then" he says as he opens the door
You both got out of the house and heads towards the car. You drive towards the hospital in a comfortable silence. You were just staring off into space when the car came into an abrupt stop and you realized you were already there.
You got out of the car and you see some people staring at you. You just smiled awkwardly at them, when your father got out of the car you followed him inside. The nurses and doctors you pass by greeted the both of you and one time when you glanced to one of the male nurse who's behind you, you saw him checking out your ass with a huge grin on his face. You roll your eyes and if you could only speak you could have lashed him out with your harsh words.
When you got to your dad's office you just sat by on one of the chairs, you got bored in an instant and now you're wishing you hadn't come , there was nothing in stored in here for you anyways, you couldn't help him since you're not a doctor of some sort. You took at your phone , put on your headphones and just started playing.
Your dad mentioned about going to the ER and you just nod. You were busy playing tap tap revenge 4 , it's a little bit childish for you but you love the game. You and your little brother would sometimes compete and you always won, and you would tease him about it for hours.
You were busy tapping on your phone , the music loudly blasting to your headphones because you didn't hear a knock. You were so focused on your game when you haven't realize someone else's is in the room with you.
You're about to beat your high score when you suddenly looked up and saw someone crouched down on your level , her face a few inches away from yours, her blue eyes shining and has this smile on her face again.
You gasp in surprise and you look down your phone and you lost. You groaned and you look back at her, you wanted to be angry at her for creeping at you like that and for making you lose but somehow you just didn't mind.
It's the same blonde girl from yesterday, you remember her name as Brittany. She starts to straighten up and she gives you an apologetic smile. You want to say something at her but you couldn't quite form some words in your mind and besides you're not allowed to speak.
You opened your mouth then you close it. Her gaze is fixed on you and you could see her body vibrating, she's giggling but there's no sound. You smile at her slightly amused.
You want to ask her what's so funny but you don't wanna risk your voice getting damage more. You started tapping a message on your form.
You showed it to her and she smiled.
What's so funny?
She just shrugs, then you both turn to look at the door when you heard a knock. You saw it was your dad, Brittany flashed a smile at him and your dad motioned her to come to him.
Your dad showed Brittany something that looks like a phone but has straps on the back. You look at Brittany and you saw her beam wit happiness.
Brittany grabs the thing and put it on her wrist. She starts to type on it then after a few you seconds you heard robot like voice saying 'Thank you'
You look at them quizzically, asking for an explanation on what the hell is that and your dad went over to you. He grabs the same thing in the pocket of his lab coat.
"This is a device that me and my friends have been working on to help the mutes to speak..instead of using those hand gestures so that everybody could understand them" your father explains
You just nod and you saw Brittany smiling at you.
"I'm giving you this device so that you don't have to type out everything you want to say on your phone" your father handed the device to you and it looks like some ordinary touch screen phone, you strapped it on your right wrist since your more comfortable typing on your left since you're a lefty.
You started to type to test it Thanks a robot like voice said that same one just like Brittany's.
"I'm gonna leave you guys now, I have to go see a patient" your father left the room leaving you and Brittany alone.
Brittany started typing again on the device , you pocketed your phone since you won't be needing it anymore then you heard the robot voice again
I'm Brittany S. Pierce by the way
You started to type too to reply to what she said
Santana Lopez
She smiled widely and starts tapping again
Yeah I know the whole world practically knows you, you're really pretty in person
You feel your blood rush to your cheeks and you can't help but wonder if you're actually blushing. You bow your head so you'll be able to hide your reddening cheeks. A lot of people compliments you but none of them ever made you blush.
Thanks, so do you
You typed not even thinking about what you said. When those words came out , your eyes started t widen realizing what you just said. You never compliment anyone, never in your whole life but you thought she really is pretty and she deserves to know that.
Wow, Santana Lopez complimenting me, can't this day get any better
Brittany typed out. You look at her and she's grinning like a school girl who just got asked out by her crush.
Don't worry I'm not some crazed fan, I just really love your voice especially when your singing, I've been wanting to meet you and here I am now actually talking to you..well kind of
She grinned at you her eyes glistening with excitement and you're very sure you've never seen that kind of shade of blue before.
Uhh..thanks..don't worry in a month I'll be able to talk again
You said to her. She bit her lip and nods.
Lucky you
Then you realize what you just said. You mentally slapped yourself, you came off looking like rubbing to her face that you'd be able to talk again in a month while she can't. You groan inwardly and her happiness has been now replaced with sadness. You don't know why but you'll do anything just to see that bright big smile on her face again.
I'm sorry I didn't mean to
She just nods and starts typing again
Don't worry I've accepted this a long time ago..so it doesn't matter anyway, it's not like I could do anything
You smiled sadly at her then you hear a knock on the door again and saw a little girl with blonde hair and same blue eyes, it's like a mini Brittany.
"Hey Britt, mom is here already, it's time to go" the girl said, at first she didn't notice you because her attention was on Brittany but when she did, her eyeballs looks like it's about to pop out.
"Oh my god! You're Santana Lopez!" she squeals as she ran towards you
You were still sitting on the couch and when she's finally in front of you, your guys are just about the same level.
"Can I hug you?" she asks suddenly becoming shy
You just nod and you feel her arms wrap around your neck as she pull in to a hug. She pulls out a few seconds and she's grinning so wide.
"My classmates won't believe me if I tell them this" the little girl mutters "And oh my big sister here has lots of posters of you.. she has like a girl crush on you" the mini Brittany giggles
You look at Brittany, here eyes wide , face so red and starts to type furiously at the device
Chloe`! Get out of here! Go wait for me at the car!
The little girl, who seems to be Chloe, just giggles . "Okay then, I'll leave you two alone" she says and starts to giggle again but before she leaves she pats Brittany on her legs and laughs
You see Brittany rolling her eyes and you can't help but smirk. You want to tease her about what her little sister said but she has to go now and the thought makes you feel empty.
Sorry about that, I need to go now, bye
She waves goodbye at you and it seems like she can' t wait to get out the room. You sigh because you're all alone again.
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You went home without your dad and you quickly went in to your room and saw your little brother Carlos laying on your bed while reading a comic book.
You really want to scream at him for being in your room and laying on your bed but you can't and you know he's taking advantage of it.
You start to type on the device in a maddening speed and finally Carlos looks up to you with a sly smirk on his face.
GET OUT OF MY ROOM ! YOU LITTLE TWAT !
Instead of being scared or hurt he started laughing his heart out
"What – What is that?" he laughs and a tear escaped one his eye
I SAID GET OUT!
"No" he smirks at you, the same smirk you give at people when you're on a devious plan to destroy them. Your face starts to get hot as always, everytime you get angry or upset.
I'm gonna tell mom
You warned and he just laughs.
"You're already 21 and I'm only 11 who's the baby now?"
You went downstairs finding your mom in the kitchen
Mom! Carlos is in my room again!
At first your mom was startled to who's ever voice just spoke until she notices it was you .
"Honey what is that?" she asks
Dad gave it to me so that I could sort of speak
She just nods and started stirring the pot.
Didn't you hear what I said? Carlos is in my room!
Your mom didn't look at you this time, her attention was on whatever she was cooking.
"Yes I heard you the first time mija" your mom said then you heard loud steps on the stairs
Then you saw it was Carlos and you glare at him
"Whatever she's saying is lie!" Carlos yelled then he looks at you and stuck out his tongue before he could do anything you started to sprint towards him
He started to run back up stairs but you quickly caught his wrist.
"You little twat" you said
"Mom! Santana spoke!" Carlos yelled and you let go of his wrist as he runs back towards his room.
Your mother quickly came out of the kitchen and is glaring at you.
"Mija! If you want to have your voicd back do what the doctor told you!" your mother scolded and she goes back in the kitchen
You groaned in frustration. Your heard the doorbell ring and your mom told you to check to see who it is. You stomp on your way to the door, frowning when you open you saw her standing there.
She looks at you for a second and starts to type on the device.
Well that's not a pretty face
She smiled at you and you smiled back
Yeah well it's because of my brother you replied
Little brothers and sisters can be a pain in the ass sometimes
You chuckled then you saw her little sister Chloe running to her side.
"Hey Ms. Santana" Chloe said shyly
We're just here to pick up Carlos
At first you just nod but your body tensed when you hear your brother's name
"Wait..why?" you asked, then you realize what you did and you cover your mouth
Brittany and Chloe looks at you, weirdly.
"Me and Carlos always play in the park during afternoon every Saturday" Chloe says
You just nod and you remove your ands from your mouth. You were about to go get Carlos when he starts to run towards you.
"Hey Chloe" Carlos says like he's some good boy
"Let's get in the car" Chloe suggests
They both head towards the car and got in. You look at them for a moment thinking if they're together..but you thought Carlos is just 11 and maybe Chloe is too.
Are they..you know?
Again Brittany seems like she's laughing but no sound came out. You wonder what her laugh or voice must sound like if she haven't had this sickness.
Brittany shakes her head as she types out on the device.
No they've been friends since pre-school and they always play in the park every Saturday afternoon, wanna come?
Before you think about what she just said you just nod. She grabs your wrist and pulls you towards the car. A shiver coursed through her body but in a good way at Brittany's touch.
She goes to the driver seat while you're at the passenger and the two are in the back.
"Ugh why is Diabla here?" Carlos teases, Chloe giggles but tries to hide it when you glare at the both of them.
Brittany starts the engine and you kept on glaring at Carlos. If only you could speak you probably would have shouted harsh things by now.
Diabla isn't really your second name or middle name. It's Marie. He only calls you that because one time when Carlos was doing a family tree for a school project when he was 8, you were just making your first album during that time when you got home pissed because someone stole your song. Carlos asked you what's your second name and you blurted angrily it's Diabla. At first you didn't think he would actually write it down but he did. Then he said Isn't it supposed to be Diablo? As in a demon. Then you started saying Spanish words at him. He was only 8 so he didn't know what it means.
You started to hate yourself for giving him that name, because everytime you two are in a fight and you two are in public he would call you Diabla and you just want to rip his mouth off his face. And one time when he was interviewed and you two had a nasty fight he called you Diabla on national television and you were so close into killing him that day. Thank god Telly was there to hold you off.
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You guys finally reached the park and the two kids got out of the car as soon at is was parked. You and Brittany just sat by on a bench under a mango tree to cover you two from the sunlight since it was only 3 p.m.
Both of you watch your siblings play happily when Brittany broke the silence.
Is your second name really Diabla?
You chuckled and you replied
No it's Marie actually, he just teases me with it
Her mouth made an 'o' shape and you find it cute. You didn't know you've been staring at her for that long when she asked you if there is something wrong with her face. You just shake your head at the question and you told her nothing was wrong.
Then what were you looking at ? she asked
Your face heats up again and you swear if you could see yourself in the mirror your whole face is red.
Nothing..
She just smiled and stands up. Do you want to go get some ice cream?
Sure
You both went to the ice cream truck nearby,then Carlos and Chloe saw you they both rushed to get there and also bought some ice creams.
You were about to lick your chocolate ice cream when you remember that you can't have anything that is cold. You curse yourself for being so forgetful and now the ice cream will just get wasted. You find a trash can and you threw it.
Isn't it delicious?
Brittany asked. You shake your head and told her you can't have anything that is cold. She just nods and you just watch people passing by.
At first you didn't that there are now many people in the park and most of them are looking at you. You want to yell at them about their staring but you forgot that you're in a public place and everybody kinda knows you since you are a star.
I think we should head home
Brittany suggested, you agree with her and she went to get Carlos and Chloe. You were still sitting on the bench and thank god no one came to harass you or something.
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When you got home, you quickly went up to your room, you were just about to lay down when your phone started to ring violently.
Before you got to say Hello, you hear Kitty, your PR yelling at you.
"What are these photos of you of some girl in the park? Huh?!" Kitty asks
You're debating if you should answer or not since you really can't use your voice but if you don't answer now Kitty would yell at you for hours about it.
"She's just a friend" you say, your voice sounded hoarse
"I don't care if she's just a friend! You might be back on Lima but you're still a worldwide superstar ! Everyone watches your move!" Kitty says
"Look where did you even found out about this?" you feel your throat being constricted by something metal after you've finish your question
"It's all over Puckarazzi and JBI's blog" Kitty says
"I should have known it was them especially Puck" you say and with your free hand you clutch on your neck like something was choking you.
You've known Noah Puckerman and Jacob Ben Israel since you were in high school. Puck was just some badass jock and JBI was the school's huge nerd who started a blog about what's happening on your school and until now he still runs that blog but this time it's all about what's happening on Hollywood.
Puck wanted to be a pool boy or something, you never really listened when told you about what he wanted to do when he finishes high school cause when you did listen it'll just be about him being filthy rich and having different girls every night on his bed. But things didn't go so well for him when he moved in L.A. to start his pool cleaning business, someone scammed him into buying a camera, at first Puck was distraught that he just spent all of his money on something he didn't need when one night while walking alone on the dark streets of L.A. he saw Britney Spears making out with some chick on a dark alley, that's when his camera became useful, he sold the photos to some magazines and newspapers, he got paid a lot because of it , then he had enough money to start a business and thus Puckarazzi was born , and he's competing with TMZ but Puck's more of a badass paparazzi than those dudes.
Puck and JBI would always try to get some dirt on you. One time when you had a party on your new house in L.A., Puck and JBI was invited ,not because you wanted to, it's because your mother said it would be great to have your old school chumps to be there and you just can't argue with her since in the end she would always win.
Puck and JBI set- up a few cameras your bedroom , you found out when you caught your mom's cat under your bed chewing on something and thank god for that cat or else your image had been ruined.
"I'll handle this situation right now and you just stay in your house , don't ever leave itcever again and see that girl. I already told you about this Santana, the society doesn't want a lesbian superstar, got it?"
Kitty hung up before you got to say something. You grab your laptop and started to go to Puck's and JBI's website. You saw pictures of you and Brittany on JBI's site but the headline was just saying Santana Lopez seen with a blonde girl and thank god he hasn't said anything about your sexuality.
Puck and JBI knew about you being gay but thank god none of them said anything about it to anyone. Maybe they've forgotten about it, maybe.
After going through JBI's website you went to Puck's.
Lesbehonest here is Santana Lopez gay?Was Puck's headline. Your heart stopped beating for a moment and you feel a cold sweat run to the back of your neck. Is Puck trying to out her to the whole world?
Santana quickly grabs her phone and starts to dial Puck's number.
"Fucking asshole" you muttered and you don't care anymore about the pain in your throat , you just want to yell Puck and even beat him up for what he did.
"Hello" you hear Puck's voice
"You bitch! Why did you do that?!" you scream
"Did what Lopez? Seriously it's been a while since we've talked and the first thing your gonna do is yell at me?"
"Remove that post of me and Brittany!" you yell
"Who's Brittany? You mean the girl with you? She's kinda hot, can you get her to have an interview with me?"
Your blood started to boil and you just want to rip Puck's Mohawk off his head
"Listen here Puckerman don't ever bring her into this" you feel your throat burn
"Why? Did that girl finally caged the animal in you?" he asks
"You know what fuck you" you hung up and you throw you phone on the bed
You head downstairs and saw Carlos playing videogames in the living room.
"Hey Tana"
"Not now twat" you say
"I was just gonna say Chloe called saying some guys were on their house questioning Brittany about you and her"
Your whole body freezes, knowing Brittany was being questioned by those jerks. You want to beat yourself up for putting her into this kind of situation.
This day is so messed up, you thought.
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A/N: Thanks for all of those who reviewed. Is it really really TRUE ABOUT HEMO BEING PREGNANT?! Like did Hemo confirmed it or something? I don't believe US Weekly 90% of the time..so is it? Cause poor Naya…omfg..no more Heya..