I made it home at about three a.m. Mother was furious; she sat me down at the table calmly, her lower jaw pushed forward, and she went off on me. I deserved it though. "Kamui, what has gotten into you lately? You've been acting so different lately. If theres something you need to say, say it!" she yelled, her eyes burning with a fiery passion; I hadn't seen her this angry in years. My heart scrunched up and I wanted to tell her; but my mouth would not let the words escape. She gave me a long lecture on my life, what was right and what was wrong, and she sent me up to my room.

The walk up was terrible; my legs were freezing, and I was dead tired. 27 steps may not seem much, but in this case it was like climbing a mountain. I stepped into our room quietly, and there was Subaru, sitting upright, his face angrier than ever. I had never seen Subaru give me that look. It frightened me for a moment to see that scowl, but I gathered myself up and sat next to him. He glared at me for a moment, his eyes golden slits, and he put a hand on my shoulder. What was the worst he could ever say?

"Kamui, don't you ever do that again." He whispered.

There. I could live with that.

I sat quietly next to him for a moment, and I thought; should I tell him? This may be the only chance I get. If I don't tell him now, I may never be able to tell him. I took in a deep breath, my stomach tying itself into a knot, and I looked into his green eyes. "Subaru… theres something I have to tell you…"I whispered. He looked at me for a moment, his whole expression changing, and he nodded. I thought I was going to throw up in that moment. God, I hope he doesn't tell mom. "Subaru… I… I'm not a virgin…" I whispered. He didn't seem surprised, and it took me a minute to figure out why; I have had sex before, on my own will, twice actually, so this might not have been a shocker.

"Yeah, I know. So?" he said, his face in a twist of suspicion.

"No, that's not what I meant…" I whispered. "Subaru, I haven't been a virgin in 200 years…" I said. He stared at me for a split second before he stared at me in a pleading manner.

"What are you saying?" he asked, his eyes watering.

"Do you remember… when we first came home from running from him?" I asked. He gave a solid nod and motioned for me to continue. "Well… when… Seishiro… agreed to leave us alone… I-I made a deal with him, that…" I said, my throat closing in on me, my heart constricting, my eyes spilling the rest of the story; Subaru knew the rest, and he stood away from me, his eyes welling with tears.

"Kamui… you didn't…" He choked out, his voice in a crack. "Why? Just so that he would leave us alone?" he whispered harshly. Those words made me wince, even though they were barely audible. My eyes were beginning to hurt; there was something wet on my face; tears, maybe? No, that couldn't be.

"I-I thought that if I did it, he would leave us alone, and it would all go away. I thought that it was my fault…" I said. For some reason, that angered him.

"Kamui, it is never your fault!" He said, putting a hand on my face; there was something wet on my face, but it couldn't be tears. I blinked and a warm liquid left my eyes. I was crying? I don't think I've ever cried before. I've been hurt, but I have never cried before. My head was hurting, and my vision was blurring. I let out a small whimper, and he put his arms around me. "We have to tell mom…" he said. I pushed myself away from him, standing.

"No…" I growled. "If she finds out, it's all over. What's she gonna do anyway, cal the police? He's not here anymore Subaru! She can't do anything anyway!" I yelled.

I've become so numb, I wanted to say. My heart was actually hurting, and I couldn't do anything to stop it… I needed to make a choice… but… but how? How do I make that choice?

-A/N-

xxmavy asked me to continue this. I couldn't resist. It was fun writing this, but I don't think im done yet. But I have no idea what to do next. Give me your thoughts on how you want the story to go, and I'll take it into consideration. Leave it in the reviews please! I have no idea what the next chapter should be about… but I've been sucked into it… well, leave a review and tell me how you liked it! Thanks for reading!