The First day of the rest of my life.
There he is. Just standing there. Talking to me as if I'm actually listening. The paint pushed him over the edge, but that wasn't my fault. I'm scared now. The only thing keeping me from fainting now is Sean. He's holding my hand. With bravery he goes up to Rick, tries to talk some sense into him. I can tell he's nervous, unsure of what will happen next. Why did I have to be so curious. Why didn't I run the other way when everyone else did. Nope I had to see what they were running from. His words are echoing in my head, " you made my list Emma.". Finally Sean reached for the object. Both of them fighting for their lives. I hear a loud bang. I have no idea who got hit. Hen the worst feeling hits me. What if it was Sean. What would I do. Tears were streaming down my face now. Black from the mascara I put on this morning. My legs are collapsing beneath me. I was slowly falling to the floor. Unable to breathe. I felt a hand on mine. I thought it was Toby's. He had been standing there, just as shocked as I was. It wasn't his though. It was Sean's. "are you okay" he asks. All of a sudden my mind thinks. What would perfect Emma say. Oh yeah just peachy she would say. Perfect Emma died that day. Right when Rick held up that shiny object. All of her bravery gone. Her life shattered. I would never be the same again. Just looking into Sean's eyes I don't see the crystal blue ocean anymore I see a dark picture the whole ordeal replaying in his eyes. He wasn't sure if he would be the same either. We'd get through it together though. We had to. Police were called Toby was hauled off with his parents. Because Sean lives only with Ellie he came into the M.I. lab with my mom and step-dad. "Are you both okay". My mother asks concerned and worried, she too was crying. "Fine" we say at the same time. We don't mean it but you can't let people know how you really feel. That's the first step to an imperfect life. Letting people know you're life is falling apart every second of the day. Nobody knows what we're going through right now and we don't want to explain it. Just let us live our lives. Tragedy has struck upon us at Degrassi. Nothing will be the same again. Everyone is affected but when you were actually apart of the tragedy no one is going to leave you alone now.