Here is another songfic to another one of my favorite songs. The song is Sleeping Sickness by Colour and City, you gotta love Dallas Green.
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN BEN 10 OR BEN 10: ALIEN FORCE or the song.
ENJOY.
I awoke
Only to find my lungs empty
And through the night
So it seems I'm not breathing
Kevin opened his eyes. He wasn't going to get any sleep, not this night. He never did. Sitting up, he looked around the small dark room, the only light coming from the dim light in the hallway that shone through the small window on his door. Glancing at the clock, he groaned. The bright green numbers read 1:06 A.M.
"I guess it's going to be another long night." He mumbled to himself. Even with his eyes closed, and as tired as he was, there was no rest for him, at least not that night.
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be
And I'm breaking down, I think I'm breaking down
But a least there was no dream that night or better yet no nightmare. The dreams he longed for were gone, the ones about her that made his life worth living. Those were the ones he wished he had. When he did dream about her, he slept, of course, until the dream turned into a nightmare. Slowly those sweet dreams had disappeared, until they completely stopped. Now they were never coming back. Knowing that killed Kevin; he was slowly falling apart.
And I'm afraid
To sleep because of what haunts me
The nightmares that had replaced his loving dreams frightened him. They showed what he did to her and all the pain he caused.
The nightmare always started with her screams and cries. There was nothing he could do to help her and make her stop because he caused them. They were always followed by her begging.
"Please Kevin don't do this. This isn't you. I know it isn't, you've changed." She would continue her pleas, her screams, and tears but no one would come to her rescue. She would just lay there in the darkness.
But the worst part was that Kevin laughed at her, his malicious chuckle only intensified with the more she cried. This horrible reminder always repeated in his Kevin's mind again, and again, and again all night long until he just couldn't take it any longer and woke up.
Such as living with the uncertainty
That I'll never find the words to say
Which would completely explain
Just how I'm breaking down
"I sorry Gwen." Kevin mumbled, burying his face into his hands. "I'm so sorry."
As much as he had to tell her those words, he couldn't not in the place he was, locked away. Those weren't the words that he wanted to say to her.
"I love you too." He said as if she was in the cell, sitting there next to him. Three simple little words were pulling him apart. If he hadn't felt the way he did. If she hadn't let those words come out of her mouth. All that he did to her, his betrayal wouldn't cause him to break down the way that it did.
Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now it's like the night is taking sides
Just like the Gwen in his nightmares there was no one that would come to his rescue. Until that happened Kevin was condemned to the same small room, sitting there hopelessly all day and night.
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be this misery will suffice?
It always seemed that not being able to sleep at night, having those nightmares, being locked up and away from Gwen would be enough punishment. But they weren't.
I've become
A simple souvenir of someone's kill
And like the sea
I'm constantly changing from calm to ill
Getting up from the bed he was on, Kevin began pacing in the small room. He would do it all night, every night. Walking from the wall to the door and back in a zombie like trance. There were times when he would stop midway, seeing a guard walk by, hoping it was her. Stopping at the door Kevin leaned his head against its surface, the hard metal felt cool under his skin.
Absorbing the material, Kevin drew back his arm. Then with all his force he hit the door, the impact of his fist to the metal making a loud boom. He continued hitting the door, growling out loud, with all his strength.
Madness fills my heart and soul as if the great divide could swallow me whole
Oh, how I'm breaking down
Moving from the door, Kevin punched the wall, making the stone crumble under his hand. He was letting all the rage he had within out, all the anger towards himself. All the punching and hitting was making his body hurt. The metal he had absorbed had managed to peel away, but he kept thrashing in the room. His fists were beginning to bleed but that still didn't stop him.
Suddenly there was a bang at the door. "Keep it down in there." The guard yelled at him. Finally feeling the pain in his arms and hands, Kevin settled down on the floor. His breathing was rough and loud but he could hear the guard outside talking to someone in a calm voice.
Oooohhh my life
Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Still lying on the cold ground Kevin continued to strain to hear what the guard was saying and who was talking to.
"No, I'm sorry. He isn't allowed any visitors, especially not today."
"I understand," a quiet female voice replied.
"I sorry." Kevin yelled knowing the person on the other side deserved to hear it. His yell caused both the guard and the person he was talking to, to stop their conversation.
"I know." She said back to him. "I'll come back later then." She said, now to guard.
Knowing that, Kevin crawled onto the messy, and what somewhat torn bed. Maybe now he would get some sleep.
Could it be this misery will suffice?
oK. I hoped you like it. I think I got the meaning of the song down, hopefully.
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