Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
B.O.B - Airplanes
Natsu's POV
Life seemed to work in funny ways, Lisanna, who I thought I'd loved with all I had died, then I met Lucy who seemed to fill all the empty places in my heart and then some, now Lisanna is back, but now I've lost Lucy. In the four weeks, we've been back from Edolas the warmth brought to my life by warm chocolate eye was gone, I felt cold like someone had snuffed out my flame and no matter how I tried I couldn't reignite it. Four weeks, half spent catching up with Lisanna, the other half helping Lisanna plan a birthday party for the now missing mage. I left out a frustrated sigh. Every time I looked at Lucy these past weeks she was smiling, but I missed have missed something, some clue as to what was going on with her. I look at my team as we all sit quietly at a table in the middle of the guild, they look miserable and tired, I'm sure I look no better, but Lisanna seems to be taking it the worst. She just wanted to get to know Lucy and be her friend, that's why she personally was over seeing the party until it was time to keep Lucy away from the guild, hence the mission team Natsu was supposed to take. That seemed to be where something changed though, Lis has tripped standing up to announce our departure, I'd caught her no problem and she'd kissed my cheek in thanks. I know I'd smelt Lucy in that moment, she'd been there, which meant she had to have known we were going on a mission, but when I turned to face her she was already gone. I clench my fist on my lap at the memory of how I chased her scent until the rain washed it away, I checked all the buildings in the area of where her scent vanished hoping she'd ducked into one of them to avoid the weather, but it was not to be. I was starting to get really soaked running around without an umbrella so I'd gone back to the guild
Loke arrived only moments after I did. He seemed awkward standing there, his face full of worry and sorrow. I knew, looking at his face, I knew something was really wrong, but I wasn't the first to ask. No, Erza beat me to it calling his name questioningly. That caught the guilds attention, but I don't think anyone understood in that moment what was going on aside from me and Loke if he was here then she was gone. I wanted to hate him for confirming my fear, I still want to hate him, but I couldn't bring myself to hate Loke, he was practically a part of Lucy. I'll never forget how hollow his voice sounded that day though, even if I live to be a hundred. "She's leaving, she's not sure when she's coming back, just that she is going," his voice shook with the weight of emotion, I watched for the first time ever as a tear slipped down his face "she tried to give me my freedom saying I belonged here, I don't know the full extent of what caused this decision, but I think it might be a long time before she returns on her own so she sent me to say goodbye." I wish I'd chased after he turned around to escape while the guild was still stunned silent, I wish I could forget how broken he sounded when he pushed the doors open and whispered goodbye without looking back. I shake my head and look at my team again, taking a second longer to look at each one, no one wore their usual smile, their eyes looked hollow and dead. I wish I'd noticed that hollow expression in Lucy's eyes before it was too late
If we all looked like this after only a week of her absence how long would we really hold it together? How long could I hold it together? Lucy's apartment was empty by the time any of us checked there, the landlord already looking for a new tenant after maybe hours since Lucy's departure. Happy cried when she told us, honestly I wanted to do the same, but my anger out weighed the sorrow. If Lucy really planned on coming back why did she get rid of her apartment? It still weighs on my mind, it consumes me as I lay on the floor where her bed once sat in what is now Happy and my apartment even though we owned a house on the edge of town. Lucy consumes my mind all the time. It's been six days four hours and seventeen minutes since Loke walked through those doors to rejoin Lucy, and the pain of her leaving feels worse than when Lis was gone. I thought I'd loved Lis as a kid, I really did, and maybe if I'd never met Lucy I would have really married her and been happy enough, but Lucy, Lucy was different in a way I didn't understand until she was gone. I would have been happy with Lis, but the joy Lis brought to my life was nothing compared to Lucy. I grab the glass of fire whiskey I'd asked Mira for when I'd arrived at the guild this morning and poured it down my throat. For a second it didn't feel like my flame was frozen, but as quickly was the whiskey slid down my throat did the feeling of warmth fade. I sighed setting the glass down and look about the guild as they bustle about with energy. Lucy might be missing, but for Fairy Tail life goes on. I can't blame them for that, not when I can see how despite that they are all acting normal there seems to be something missing in everyone's cheerful demeanor, a certain brand of light that seems to only radiate for a blond beauty who wormed her way into everyone's heart without their permission, not that anyone truly minded the invasion. Maybe the others are on to something though, trying to act like nothing is wrong, Lucy will come back to us, maybe not today, or tomorrow, or even next week, but she'd come back to us. We just had to trust Loke, she'd come back and in the mean time we'd wait here, we'd live and we'd wait, for the return of her blinding brilliance.
AN: This is only going to have one or two more parts to it, I'd say give me a week but I'm not gonna make promises if there isn't an update in 2 weeks feel free to yell at me though