Thank you so much for your nice reviews, I didn't expect this. To thank you all, here's a new chapter. Also I want to let you know that I'm not english so.. I know there are probably some mistakes, I'm really sorry fot that. In the next chapter Olivia will meet lieutenant Murphy (I don't know how to spell it).

Amanda seemed indifferent to Liv's words. She felt uncomfortable having this conversation, ashamed of who she was, about everything she's done. In addition to this, the pain in her stomach was getting more and more unbearable. Olivia hoped for an answer but didn't get any. She sat on the coffee table in front of Amanda, looking for a way to connect with her.

"It's gonna be a long road. But you can choose to use all you've been through as a strength in your job. You'll be able to understand what leads some people to choose a road they never imagined they'd have. You could win their trust and help them better. But first you have to focus on you. You can either rebuilt yourself or let yourself drown in your problems. It'll be the same amount of work. It's your choice and it begins now. If you decide to fight, you won't have to do this alone. Can you put a little faith in you?"

Amanda's teary eyes met Olivia's. "I don't know" She whispered.

Olivia gently placed a hand on her shoulder. Amanda's body tensed but she didn't push her. "Let's try, then" Amanda unconvincingly nodded.

"Good" Olivia whispered, offering a gentle small. "Can you tell me what happened?"

Amanda shrugged her shoulder. She wasn't sure about all this. Wouldn't it be better if she just left the town? Try again, somewhere else. Find a simple job, and ordinary life. Just her and Frannie. Maybe it would be for the best. Olivia didn't let her the time to hesitate. "Talk to me" Olivia briefly stroke Amanda's knee.

She didn't know why, but she couldn't refuse Olivia's request. She opened her mouth just like she was about to speak but no words came. She simply shook her head. Olivia encouraged her again. "It's ok". Damn, she was so gifted, it was impossible to refuse talking to her. Amanda decided to take this out like taking off a plaster: the quickly you pull the easier it is.

"When.. When I came back home.. there were.. these guys.. here waiting for me.. they.." She felt anxious. Could she really been doing this? If she didn't go on now she never would so she took a painful breath and nodded at Olivia, letting her know that she was about to continue. Olivia couldn't stop herself remembering Lewis, the day he abducted her. It was the same situation. But now wasn't the time to think about that, she said to herself, she had to focus on Amanda.

"They.. I didn't see them as soon as I came in.. I was… distracted. When I noticed them, they already had a gun pointed at me."

"Do you know them?"

Amanda shook her head. Was Amanda telling the truth? Olivia was wondering..

"Go on" she simply whispered reassuringly.

"They.. they hit me… that's all!"

That's all? They didn't say anything? They didn't do more? Olivia noticed the "that's all" came a little rushed that what it should have. Just like if Amanda wanted to make sure Olivia wouldn't ask. Amanda blamed herself for saying so. She after all also was a detective, and she knew it was awkward. Why couldn't she lie better now, when she just spent a few days, even weeks since she began gambling again, to fool people so naturally?

"Amanda, are you sure?" Olivia asked with concerned, insisting on each word, specially the last one.

Amanda didn't answer. She didn't want to lie but she didn't want to talk either. Olivia decided for now it was enough to convince her to go to hospital. Than, she'll find a way to know what really happened. Olivia suddenly noticed Amanda's clothes weren't torn. They seemed like home clothes: sweatpants and a large blue jacket. She had to ask.

"Did you take a shower?" She was hoping not

To tell the truth, Amanda had wanted to but she was too much in pain for entering in the tub. Changing clothes had already been too painful. Now she almost regret it. She shook her head and knew at this point that Olivia would be sure something else happened.

"Good Amanda, that's good" Olivia let out a breath and a light but warm smile

Amanda didn't know where to look anymore, the embarrassment was too much. Olivia noticed she was about to shut down and she couldn't let that happen now. "Amanda, I can see you're hurt, could you tell me where?"

Amanda shook her head, blushing. She didn't want to talk anymore.

"Let me have a look, I promise I won't hurt you"

Amanda stared Olivia's eyes. "I don't care if you hurt me" Her voice was a mixture between hopelessness and disinterest.

Olivia's only answer to this was a comforting nod while she stroke Amanda's hair. "I do". She slowly lift up Amanda's jacket to find herself looking at some nasty bruise on Amanda's stomach. She could tell they hit her badly. "You need to get this checked out"

"I'm good"

Olivia was sure this would have been her answer, fortunately she knew how to deal with it.

"I'm sure you don't want somebody to assist you in every move that you make, so the sooner you get better, the soonest you'll stop feeling that way … you know what I mean?"

I'll take you to the hospital meanwhile Nick and Fin will talk to lieutenant Murphy, let's be sure nobody's been forgotten.

Amanda's heart was beating so strongly in her chest. All this was going so fast. They couldn't investigate.. she didn't want to. But, why did she call Fin, then? A moment of weakness, probably. But now, how could she chase them away?

"Liv.. can… do you mind if I go with Fin..?"

It was weird in a way, that she preferred going to the hospital with a man than with Liv. But Liv knew what it was like to trust a partner. For whatever reason, the way Fin protected Amanda but always respected her privacy was something Amanda had always liked. Now, to tell the truth, the only reason she wanted to go to hospital with Fin was because she didn't want Olivia to learn what really happened and she thought maybe Fin wouldn't push her the way Olivia would.

"I'm taking Frannie with me.. I don't want her to stay here alone.. They could have killed her. Amanda got up refusing Olivia's help and knelt in front of Frannie. It was the most painful movement she did this last hour and she already knew she wouldn't be able to get up from the floor. She was cuddling tenderly the dog who happily wake up and was ready to leave in no time. Fin helped her up and she dried the single tear in the corner of her eye.

"Honey, you can't take Frannie to hospital" Olivia stated.

Amanda began to panick.. " wh.. I… she can't.."

"What if I take her with Nick and I while we go talking to the lieutenant?" Olivia suggested.

There was no way she'd risk to lose Frannie.. it was her whole life, so she accepted.

"Come on, let's go" Fin said. He hadn't heard a lot about what happened to Amanda since he was waiting in the kitchen but he wasn't in a hurry. The important thing for now was that Olivia had persuaded Amanda to get her wounds looked.

Amanda was reluctant. She was up, Fin was on her left, ready to help her whenever she would be ready to leave.

" There's.. there's something I should tell you" Fin looked at her with concern.

"Please don't look at me…" Amanda's lips were shaking, she was fighting hard to stay composed. "I… I wasn't raped… I….. I wanted it", she whispered, staring away.