I have always considered myself a demon, an abomination that should not exist in the world of humans.
I was filth, my self-loathing could possibly cripple a normal human but I was not human…I was a demon, a demon of the purest kind.
I was vampire.
...
"Jasper, please control your thoughts!" I heard my 'brother' hiss as he said the words, finally growing tired of my inner monologue.
"Control what you listen to," my voice was clipped and cool as I fastened my golden glare on him…daring him to speak against me.
He returned my glare for a few seconds before dropping his gaze with a shake of his head, the pity and anger towards me rolling off of him in waves making me growl softly.
Where had it all gone wrong for me, for us…for the coven I had come to call my family?
-Flashback-
The scent of her blood filled my nose causing the venom to pool in the back of my throat, the feeling of bloodlust from the others crashed into me as I tried to reign in my beast.
-End of flashback-
Damn him for keeping that human as a pet and damn her for making me feel this way.
I was Jasper Whitlock, Major of the greatest newborn army during the Southern Wars and sadly however I was in love with a human who belonged to my 'brother'.
Watching them together was enough to bring me to my knees, to feel her love for him brought me pain I had not experienced since the time I had dared to defy Maria's orders. And I knew that I would not change this feeling for anything, because I knew that secretly she wanted me just as much as I wanted her.
I was glad when I heard the roar of his car coming to life knowing that my thoughts were still a secret, I hated this secret with a passion.
-With Bella-
"I love Edward…" the words were soft as they passed between my lips, I fought back the grimace that accompanied those words.
My heart even hurt from me speaking those words because it knew that I was lying to myself and to it, because in truth I was no longer in love with Edward…I was in love with a different Cullen or should I say Whitlock?
When had it changed, when did my normal average human life become so complicated?
Maybe it was when I had moved to Forks to escape my scatter brained mother and her new younger husband, maybe it was when I realized that I was in love with a creature that I had believed a fairytale or maybe it was when I realized that my best friend almost brother exploded into a giant hairy wolf every night to keep me safe from the other said fairytale.
If I was being honest with myself I would say it was none of those but in truth the reason for my complicated life was quite simple…I was in love with my boyfriends brother, I was in love with my almost sisters husband.
I was in love with Jasper Whitlock Cullen, the vampire who lusted for my blood.