AN: For those of you who may have concernes as to what Bella was thinking read this!
Bella, in my point of view, is way to forgiving in the books. In this story she is a little more frustrated with being "overprotected". She feels that she is a big girl who thinks that if she can handle the fact that her boyfriend is a vampire, and her ex-best friend is a werewolf, then she is more than capable of handling whatever visions Alice may have as well. Yes I am aware that it is a bit OOC, but trust me, it is needed for this story! Please review and let me know what you think!
~Misty~
Disclaimer: I do not own anything Twilight, for if I did, I wouldn't be working at Walmart!
BPOV
What in the world am I thinking? Did I really just walk away from the only man in the world that I have ever truly loved with all that is in me? Am I crazy or is this some kind of horrible dream that I will soon wake up from? I looked around me, I am still in a parking lot, and Edward's Volvo is still behind me, but why isn't he getting out and coming after me?
As soon as I asked myself the question the door the Volvo opened and he was by my side so fast I didn't even see him move. His face was more pained than I have ever seen it. No, I have seen him like this before, but only once. The day that James bit me. The day I will never forget as long as I live. Edward looked as if he had lost me forever, that I was finally running away from him like he had wished I would have done so many times before.
I have to remain strong and true to myself. I have to tell him what I am thinking, to tell him that the way he keeps things from me is completely unfair. I know that he is just trying to protect me because I have been through so much emotionally and physically in such a short amount of time, but I have to try to make him understand. For once I wish he could just read my mind so it would be that much easier on me.
Edward grabbed my arm and gently turned me around to face him. I couldn't bare to look at him knowing how much pain I had just put him in.
"Look at me Bella, please."
"I can't Edward. I just need some time to cool down. I love you more than life itself, but I don't want to say something I may regret."
"Bella, I love you as well, more than I should be allowed, but I can't bare to have you upset with me. I was being inconsiderate of your feelings Bella and I am sorry. Please will you just talk to me?"
"I will get back in the car with you Edward, but I am not ready to talk yet. Will you pease just take me home? It's been a really long day and I just don't feel like myself right now. I want to rest. I want to relax. I want so much right now that I am feeling overwhelmed."
"We will take you home my love, but can Alice stay with you? I am worried about you and I don't feel it is safe." Edward looked at me as if he were looking at me for the last time. I couldn't help but comply to his wishes.
"That's fine." I gave in because I don't want to hurt him. I love him with all of my heart. Why do I have to be so stupid and emotional right now?
Once we were at the house I noticed a letter from Charlie sitting on the kitchen table.
Bella, I will be out late because of a new case I am working on. It seems there have been some strange dissaperances happening in Seattle. They have asked for my help. I would like it if you were to ask the Cullens if you can stay at there house this weekend. I don't know why, but for some reason I have a bad feeling about you being home by yourself this weekend. Please call me as soon as you get to the Cullen's house so that I know you have arrived safely. If you go out, do not go out alone! Please Bella, do this for me. I love you and I look forward to hearing from you soon.
Love,
Dad
Edward came up behind me and snaked his arms around my waist. I couldn't help the sigh that escaped me.
"What's the matter Love?'
"I don't know, Charlie wants me to stay at your house for the entire weekend?" I don't know why I said it as a question. I looked around the room and noticed that Alice was no where to be seen. I turned around so that I could look at Edward.
"Edward, what is going on?" I didn't ask the question, it came out more like a demand.
"Let's wait for Alice and then we will tell you everything I promise."
"Where did she go?" I huffed and then walked over to the couch to sit down. I really wish I knew why I am feeling so moody lately. This is not like me. It is very frustrating. I am calm, cool, and collective Bella, or at least I thought I was. I think I should have a talk with Carlisle tonight.
"She went to pack a bag for you, she told me in her thoughts on the way over here that you would be staying with us tonight and for the weekend."
"Oh," was the best response I could come up with.
Edward sat down on the couch next to me while I sat there with my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands. I decided to move over into his lap where I thought I would be more comfortable. Unfortunatly I wasn't. I know it's really only been a matter of seconds, but it really feels like it is taking Alice forever to get back in here.
"Edward, where is she, it is taking her forever!! Why is it taking her so long," I said to him in a rather whiny elevated tone full of frustration. He just looked at me with shock written all over his face. Why am I doing this to him? This is not me! There is definatly something wrong with me.
"She's...." I was cut off by Alice finally making her entrance. She looked at me and then back at Edward, obviously having another secret talk about me in their minds. I really don't like it when they do that.
I looked, no more like glared, back at Alice then hissed through my teeth, "I think we should get going to your house now. I need to talk to Carlisle as soon as possible."
Edward was instantly on the phone, "Carlisle, can you meet me at the house, Bella needs to speak with you as soon as possible." There were breaks in the conversation where I couldn't hear Carlisle's side, but I can guess what he was saying. Edward continued, "No, I don't know what is wrong...ok I'll tell her...yes...we will be there in two minutes...ok see you then." during this whole converstation Edward had managed to not onlyget me situated in the car, but had climed in to the driver's seat, started the car, backed out of the driveway, and started speeding towards his house.
He grabbed my hand and started rubbing circles around the knuckle of my thumb. I couldn't concentrate on the drive, I was too preocupied with my own thoughts. I have so many questions to ask Carlisle but I can really only narrow it down to one. Why?
We pulled up to the house in record time. Carlisle was right behind us. Edward ushered me into the house while Alice ran past us with my bags in her hand. "I'll just put Bella's stuff in your room for you Edward," she called as she past us. Edward put his hand on the small of my back and led me into the living room.
Emmit encased me in a giant bear hug as soon as he saw me. "Put me down right now you stupid overpowering vampire. I don't know if you have noticed this, but I am just a weak little human and you are crushing me right now. I have to breathe remember?" I said with a growl in my voice that I have never heard before. Emmit put me down and I instantly felt guilty. I tried to apologize, but he was gone before I could even get the words out.
I turned around only to see six more vampires staring at me with so many different looks I didn't know what to think. Rosalie looked beyond mad. Jasper looked like he was in pain. Alice looked lost. Esme looked concerned. Carlisle looked curious. And then there was Edward. My Edward looked like he was being torn in several different direction, but mostly he looked worried.
"I..I...I don't know what came over me, I.. I can't explain what is happening to me"
Rosalie looked like she was ready to lunge at me..."If you ever talk to MY husband or anyone else in MY family like that again I will personally rip you apart so slow that you will beg for death. Then I will continue to put you in so much more pain you will think that you have died a thousand deaths. Have I made myself clear!" She said this to me with slow and pronounced speach like she was reprimanding a 5 year old. Edward instantly picked me up and ran with me in his arms to his room before I even realized what had happened.
He put me down on his bed, knelt down in front of me, and placed his hands on my knees.
"What was that Bella? Why did you spit the word vampire at Emmit, and since when do you not like to be hugged by him?"
I instantly started biting on my lower lip as I fought to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall down my already flushed face. I really don't know why I am behaving this way. I wish I understood it, but I don't. So I did the only thing I could think of doing, I shrugged my shoulders. That's right, another non-Bella thing to do, I shrugged my shoulders.
"We are going to go talk to Carlisle right now."
"Actually Mr. Overprotective, I am going to go talk to Carlisle by myself." I spat at him. Then I got up off the bed and started to walk away. Again!
EPOV
"Put me down right now you stupid overpowering vampire. I don't know if you have noticed this, but I am just a weak little human and you are crushing me right now. I have to breathe remember?"
Did My Bella really just say that? Instantly I was flooded with the thoughts of my family. Rosalie was only thinking about killing Bella. She was holding herself back pretty well. Alice was thinking about why Bella would say something like that. That isn't the Bella she knows, Alice is feeling lost. Jasper is thinking about how overwhelming the emotions are coming from Bella are...shock, anger, guilt, frustration, sadness, hopelessness...It's too much! Esme is wondering why her poor daughter is speaking so harshly about her family. She wants to go over and hold her and tell her that everything is going to be ok. Carlisle is thinking about what kind of stress Bella might be under right now that could cause her to snap at her family in such a way.
"If you ever talk to MY husband or anyone else in MY family like that again I will personally rip you apart so slow that you will beg for death. Then I will continue to put you in so much more pain you will think that you have died a thousand deaths. Have I made myself clear!" Rosalie is only a fraction of a second away from making her threats come true right here where we stand. I let out a growl and swiftly picked up Bella and ran to my room.
I sat Bella down on the bed and kneeled down in front of her. I decided to make contact by putting my hands on her knees. Bella instantly started biting on her bottom lip, a habbit she usually does when she is nervous. I wish I knew what she was thinking this very moment. I feel so helpless right now. Bella is going through some kind of stress right now and I don't know what to do to help her. this is so very frustrating for me. I took a second to try to clear my mind before speaking.
"What was that Bella? Why did you spit the word vampire at Emmit, and since when do you not like to be hugged by him?" so much for the second to compose myself. That came out a little harsh. I didn't mean to sound like I was interogating her. I just want to know what I can do to help.
Then she did the oddest of things, she shrugged her shoulders at me like a 3 year old does when they are in trouble. Huh? There is definatly something wrong with her.
"We are going to go talk to Carlisle right now." We need to find out what is going on. Something is not right. We need to get to the bottom of this.
"Actually Mr. Overprotective, I am going to go talk to Carlisle by myself." Then she got up and walked away from me for the second time today. I got up to argue but she cut me off before I could even get a word out.
"No Edward, you are not coming with me. I need to talk to Carlisle and have him fix me. I don't know what is wrong, but I am snapping at everyone I love and I don't like it. Will you please call Charlie and let him know that I am here and I am safe? And please don't tell him about my moodiness, I don't want him to worry about me anymore than he already does."
By this time we were already at Carlisle's office. I reluctantly nodded at her then started to walk away. She quickly threw her arms around me startling me, "I love you so much Edward, I don't deserve your forgiveness, but I am sorry for how I am acting right now. I just need to talk to him by myself for a few minutes first, then I wil call you in I promise."
"Ok my love, whatever it is you need I am here for you now and for always," then she gave me a kiss filled with so much passion I even forgot where I was at the moment. Much to my dismay, she pulled away and lightly knocked on the door to Carlisle's office.
"Come in."
"Carlisle, may I talk to you please?" she pleaded sounding like she wasn't so sure if he even wanted to talk to her right now.
I decided to walk back to my room and call Charlie.
BPOV
"Carlisle, may I talk to you please?" I asked not knowing if he even wanted me around after the way I just treated his family.
"Yes dear, how may I help you? Please sit down and make yourself comfortable." He is always to polite and professional.
"I...I..I don't know if you can. I feel like my emotions are out of wack" my tears started to stream down my face like the traitors they are.
"Can you tell me when you first started noticing these feelings Bella?" He sounded curious and sincere.
"I'm really not sure, I..I guess it was while I was at the hospital. I was sitting there with you stalling so that Edward could be with me, then He and Alice walked into the room and it was like I instantly thought that they were hiding something. It was something about the way they were looking at me. I felt angry, but I didn't want to bring it up at the moment because I just wanted that stupid cast off of my leg." I stopped not knowing if I should tell him about the fight in the parking lot or not.
"hmm, go on please."
"Well...after we left and got into the car I decided that I wanted to know what they were keeping from me. Edward acted as if it were nothing and said that he wouldn't ever let anything happen to me again. Then I just lost it. I went off on him for no reason at all and then I got out of the car, slammed the door and walked away from him and Alice. I was devistated. Why would I do that to him? Please Carlisle, you have fix this, you have to fix me!"
I was crying so hard by this point that even if Carlisle were to reply I would have heard him. Carlisle came around his desk and pulled me into a fatherly hug. He just held me and let me cry it out. I don't know how long I was crying for, but when I was done I noticed that I wasn't in the room with just Carlisle anymore. Edward was in here with me as well as Esme. I looked at Edward. His face was filled with concern. Then I looked at Esme, my mother in so many ways. I half ran, half tripped across the room and into her arms. I felt like I needed her to hut me. I needed her to tel me that everything was going to be ok.
"Esme I..I am so sorry for treating Emmet that way. I didn't mean it, please forgive me, I..I.." I was once again cut of from voicing my thoughts by the door to Carlisle's office opening and Jasper running inside. He has a look of pure pain and torture on his face.
"There's someone out there Carlisle, someone like me, an empath." answering our questions before they could even be voiced he continued "I have been concentrating very hard on trying to calm Bella's emotions," he looked at me apologetically then continued on, "it's like I was hitting a wall and everything was being sent right back to me tenfold. Alice then had a vision of someone in the forest behind our house. Emmet and Rosalie went to investigate, but it was like they vanished. The scent was there, then all of a sudden it was gone. I don't think that whoever it is that is out there has good intentions, I think we should advise the pack and set up a perimiter."
What is he talking about? There is another vampire out there that is controlling my emotions and making me a head case? But why? Why me of all people? Why do I always have to attract danger like a magnet?
Then I heard something in the distance like a cry of pain and crashing boulders.
All five of us in the room asked at the same time, "What was that?" and in an instant Jasper, Carlisle, and Edward were out of the room. Esme told me to stay with her that she would keep me safe. All I want to know is, 1) is everyone accounted for, and 2) Who the heck is out there?
AN: Well there you go, chapter 2 is complete!! I hope you al like it! I know I only got 2 reviews, but I loved them both! They put a really big smile on my face after a rather long couple of days. Family life is hard right now, but we will make it I'm sure. I gotta go feed my kids now! take care!
~Misty~