Chapter 2

The moment he left I felt empty. He wanted to fix things between us but I ended our friendship at that moment. Although I have no recollection of my walk back home, I guess I managed to walk home because the next thing I know is me on the floor of my living room, in the fetal position and can't seem to stop myself from crying.

"katniss, Katniss, what's wrong?" I hear a voice but I don't recognize it. I turn to see Peeta standing there, concern and confuse. He is trying to figure out why I'm so broken when I was doing so well a few hours ago. Eventfully, he just gives up on trying to retrieve any information from me and just takes me to my room.

I must have fallen asleep because when I came to is morning. I saw Peeta sleeping next to me. I got up, got dress and walk out of the house before he wakes up. I went to our meeting place to wait for him expecting him to show up. He must still be in the district if I just saw him yesterday. I waited for him all morning but he doesn't come. He never comes. I went back every morning for a whole week to wait for him but he doesn't come. One day, my desire to see him was so great, that when I turned to leave I see him. I saw those gray eyes that I trusted all those years. I see a smile in his face and I instantly smile back. He grabs a berry, tosses it my way and says "may the odds" I open my mouth to wait for the berry and finish his sentence like we always did, but it never came. I opened my eyes to see that it was just my imagination playing tricks on me.

I didn't go back to the woods aft that. In fact, I don't leave the house at all. Peeta comes to check on me every day. He waits for me to eat and I do it mainly because I just want him to leave me alone. All he says is that everything is going to be fine, that I'm safe, and that all I need is time. I know nothing is going to be fine anymore. I lost my best friend forever an half of me is gone with him.

After I spent days, months in this state, Peeta and Haymitch don't know what to bring me back to life. Peeta finally comes out with what hi think is the best solution.

"Katniss" he says "Haymitch and me think that it will be good for you if you went to visit your mom" My mother, yeas, I think that is not a bad idea. She would be able to understand because she also lost has lost so many love ones.

"I want to go. It will be nice to spend time with her, plus I can see how Annie is doing"

"Good, we can leave whenever you're ready"

"No, I want to be alone. I need to do this trip by myself Peeta" I see his concern on his face but he doesn't fight my decision.

So, that is how I found myself in this train on my way to district 4. The train ride is long because it has to stop in every district to drop off and pick up passengers. Our first stop is district 11. I consider making a quick stop here to see if Rue and Tresh's family survive the war but quickly rule it out.

It takes a few days to reach my destination but when the train stops, I don't seem to move. People are getting off and some are getting on the train but I don't move. I just stand here wanting to go somewhere else.

The train starts moving and I don't have a choice but to continue my journey. I know exactly where I'm going, and who I'm going to see. What I don't know is how I'm going to find him and what I will say when I find him. By the time we reach district 2, I have created a plan to find him and a speech ready.

It doesn't take long to find out where he lives. It was hard really, he is known throughout Panem. He is after all a war hero and can be seen on television from time to time. I'm about to knock on his door when the door opens and he is standing there with a look of disbelieve.