"Axel! Axel! What are you doing?" Demyx walked up to the redheaded teen, concerned, as he's been for awhile. I glanced up. I really didn't wanna talk to Demyx right now. It's probably some super exaggerated story about him and Xigbar or, if not that, something about his Sitar.
"What?" I asked, not trying to hide my sadness and annoyance at all. Demyx cringed at the tone I used.
"I...I was wondering...if you wanna...hang out with me, Zexion, Marluxia, and-" I cut him off before he finished his sentence.
"No." I replied looking back down at the notebook before me.
"But...But...even Sora's gonna be there!" Wait. Why was he trying to get me to hang out with them again? Oh, right. Just so he can watch me suffer with the awkwardness of seeing Roxas' older brother only a year after 'the accident'. I sighed and looked back up at Demyx, who had thought, by the way, that I was going to yes because Sora was going to be there.
"No." I replied, now sadder then I was before. Demyx frowned and looked up to the sky. He laid down beside me, under me and Roxas' tree and sighed, seriously now.
"Axel." He said in a mad tone. "You're going. You haven't been out with anyone since that happened. You need to get out and enjoy yourself. What you're doing now is only making you sick. What would Roxas say?" I grabbed Demyx by the collar and about punched him in the gut, but, soon tears started to stain my emerald eyes and I let them fall. I put Demyx down and looked away.
"Y-you...you don't know what Roxas would say! He never lectured me unless I hurt someone or didn't eat for a week! He cared so much he had to pretend he didn't because he thought I'd leave him if he did!" I cried out at Demyx. Demyx was taken aback. He looked down, allowing his bangs to cover his eyes.
"Axel. It's over now. You need to stop staying in the past!" Demyx's head shot up, tear stained, and mad. "You think that's the only thing that matters anymore! What about us? Do you even care about your supposed 'friends' anymore?" Demyx cried. I looked down.
"I-I...I'm sorry, Dem...I'll go with you and the others...depending on what we're doing..." I said the last part cockily just to screw around with Demyx. He smiled his beautiful, bright smile.
"Now that's my Axel! We're going to the clock tower at 6 tomorrow to have a picnic and enjoy some sea-salt ice cream! Last one there pays!" He yelled at me before running away.
"Hey! I don't wanna pay!" I screamed back.
"Then don't be last!" He screamed just loud enough for me to hear him. I chuckled then turned back to the notebook. His, notebook. I opened it to the first page and began to read.
/In Roxas' Notebook/
I walked into my first block class and headed to the front, expecting the teacher to be there to introduce me. Apparently, he was late. I soon gave up and set my book-bag down on the floor so I could sit on it. I heard the door to the class open and looked up in hope that it was the teacher. It wasn't. It was this hot redhead that was unusually tall. He looked like he was 23. Maybe he was the teacher? Nope. He sat down in one of the empty chairs and directed his attention at me. Ugh. I hated attention. That's one of the reasons I wished the teacher would get here shortly. Soon, the redhead stood up and walked over to me.
"Hey, I've never seen ya around before. You new?" He asked in a sly manner. I lifted my head so I could see his face.
"Yeah. Isn't the teacher supposed to be here by now?" I answered his question while asking my own. He just chuckled.
"He always comes in late. By the way, the names Axel. A-X-E-L, got it memorized?" He replied. I smiled. He seemed friendly.
"My names Roxas. Why are you so tall?" I asked. I stood up, revealing my short height. He just bust out laughing at that.
"Why're you so short?" He asked, still laughing. I glared. "Hey, hey, I was just kidding. It runs in the family." Oh. Well that explains a few things. I started to look at all his beautiful features. I loved his hair, It was so obviously natural and it spiked naturally too. There was absolutely no trace of gel in his hair. Then, he finally opened his eyes after calming down from his laughing frenzy. He had the most beautiful eyes. Emerald green. It was the most beautiful eyes I'd ever seen.
"What are you staring at, twerp?" He asked me playfully, noticing I was staring off. I blushed and looked down.
"N-nothing.." I replied remembering I barley knew the guy. He laughed.
"Hey, wanna exchange phone numbers? You're kinda cute." He stated. I blushed even more (if possible) and agreed. He held out his hand which I just stared at. I didn't know what he wanted.
"Your phone?" He asked after a moment of awkward silence.
"Oh." I reached into my pocket pulling out my sucky flip phone and handed it to Axel. Who happily took it and handed me this awesome new century phone.
"Is this yours?" I asked, surprised he had something so amazing. He just smiled.
/End of Diary Entry(For now)/
"Wow..." I can't believe he liked me on his first day. I let one tear slip, just to sooth my heart for now. I checked my watch. Shit! It's already 5. I stood up and let out a long waited breath. Thank god it was Friday. But, I still wish it was Wednesday. That's- That was Roxas' favorite day of the week. But, then again, it was on a Wednesday that 'the accident' happened. I slung my book-bag over my shoulder and began the walk home. Ugh. The old man's probably home. Damn. Another day of beatings from, who supposedly is, my father. On the way home I always pass, now just, Sora, Riku and Leon's house. Leon took in the two brothers when their parents died in a car accident. Apparently their brother Cloud, was dating Leon at the time. But, Cloud, just dumped Leon when he took in his two brothers claiming, he never loved Leon in the first place. Leon however, being the good person he is, decided to keep them with him because they were 1) five years old at the time and 2) he didn't have the heart to put children out on the street. Sora, on the other hand, was dating Riku and Riku's parents disowned him being the homophobic's they are, and Sora and Leon let him move in. I...I'm gonna go check up on him. You know, see if he's okay...I mean why not? I have to see Sora tomorrow anyways. Might as well see Leon too. I took a deep breath and began to walk towards the door. I stood in front of it for a second before I started to raise my hand-BAM! Next thing I know, I'm on the ground, something heavy on top of me.
"D-dammit.." I attempted to say. Ugh. I opened my eyes to see a person with brunette hair lying on top of me, his face in my stomach at the moment. He lifted his head revealing his Opal blue eyes.
"I...I'm soooooooo sorry! Wait...Axel?" He looked at me in confusion. I just smirked. I lifted my hand and ruffled his hair.
"Hey, Sor. Came to see you and Leon today." He smiled. Wider then I've ever seen him smile before. He got up off me and lent me his hand for me to get up.
"LEON! AXEL'S HERE!" He screamed excitedly, running inside. Leon ran down the steps and smiled when he saw the spiky red hair everyone loved. He and Sora glomped him at the same 's when Sora looked up.
"Axel...why are you here, anyways? I'm not saying I'm not happy you are but, why?" Leon asked, worried of the answer. I looked down.
"I-I really don't know. I pass your house when I'm walking home and I'm seeing Sor tomorrow with everyone and I guess I just wanted to see you too." I finished. My eyes shot open.
"Sora...is Zexion gonna be there?" I asked urgently. Sora immediately understood why I was asking that. "He still blames me, doesn't he?" I asked the other question letting the venom seep into my tone. He nodded sadly. I shook my head, laughing sadly. "I'm sorry, Sor, if he's gonna be there tomorrow,...I'm not." I finished icily. Sora frowned, tears welling up in his eyes.
"Axel. If you're not going tomorrow, please, PLEASE, stay here with us!" Oh no. Roxas couldn't have, ...did he? "I know what happens to you behind that door Axel! You cannot live there anymore! My brother loved you! I do to but, as a brother! So please, stay with us!" Sora pleaded grabbing my arm tightly, crying.
"Sora...did Roxas tell you all this?" I asked coldly, looking away.
"No." He replied. Then...how did he know?
"Then...how-" Leon put his hand over my mouth.
"Axel, I'm a doctor, as is Riku. You spent all the day with Roxas and you come over for awhile, perfectly fine, the next day, you look like shit. Axel, it's pretty easy to figure out who's hurting you." Leon stated, walking into the kitchen. "And, we have an extra bedroom now anyways so...why don't you stay here? Oh, and want some water?" Leon asked me, clearly happier that there won't be an empty space full of memories anymore. I smirked.
"I'd love it." I answered. Leon smirked at me.
"Which one?" He asked, amused I didn't point out which question I'm answering.
"Both." I replied sitting on the couch with Sora. Sora smiled and reached into his overly-deep pocket and grabbed his phone. He quickly dialed a number I didn't recognize and clicked the talk button while raising the phone to his ear.
"Hello?" I heard on the other end of the line.
"Hey! Riku, guess what?" Sora replied to the person, who was apparently Riku, on the other end of the line.
" *sigh* What Sora?" He asked with no interest at all.
"Axel's coming tomorrow and he's gonna start living with me, you, and Leon!" Riku got quiet.
"Sora...you know what happened to Roxas..." Was all he said. I looked down, stood up, and began walking towards the door. So, Zexion wasn't the only one who blamed me for what happened...that's just great...
"Axel! Where are you gong?" Sora yelled. He probably already assumed I heard what Riku said. I knew Sora and Riku were dating so...
"I'm going home so your boyfriend doesn't think what happened to Roxas will happen to you. Goodbye, Sora, Leon..." I said before opening the door and started running.
"Axel! I'm calling you at eight! You better answer!" Sora yelled after me, worried. I made sure I had the notebooks and my book-bag before I completely took off though. Tears were burning my eyes as I ran. I knew it was pointless. I slowed to a sprint and looked around. Of course my running had to take me here. Of all the places, why did my feet have to take me to this place? The place where Roxas died? I was standing on a bridge that had been in Twilight Town for awhile. Under the bridge was a roaring river. I looked over the edge and contemplated whether I should jump and die right now so I could be with Roxas or...to live and just be dead on the inside. It all came back to me...what had happened. I had forgot in this year after it happened but just now, I remembered it all.