Title: Smile Sidefic … Other Mind - Rain
Author:
Arithion
Rating:
T
Genre:
Introspective… bit of angst
Pairing: Tez/Fuji
Chapter:
Second
sidefic/drabble
to smile
Summary:
Because
Tez demanded to be let out and have some of his thoughts cleared up…
Sidefic to Chapter 17 of Smile.
Warning: um mild mild yaoi… I guess… Tezuka's brain… well, one part of it anyhu. It's just a baby drabble … so it's short!
Smile Sidefic: Other Mind: Rain
The ability to fly is something humans as a species haven't been granted. Yet we've never been satisfied with that which we do not have, and so we seek to overcome our weaknesses, by supplementing nature. Still, a silver bird in the sky doesn't give us that thrill, that feeling, the freedom of what flight is for the beings nature has granted that privilege.
Skydiving is the closest we can come. Jumping out one of those metal contraptions in the sky and letting ourselves fall. With the wind rushing at your face and the ground nearing at an alarming rate, it's the parachute that allows us that freedom, that release. Yes, it's the closest thing to flying that a human can come.
At least, that's what I thought until I kissed him.
It sounds strange and it doesn't sound like me, even when I say the words in my own head. But touching him, tasting him, and just feeling him… it's like something I've never experienced, never thought I could have. It's something new for both of us, something I don't want to push upon him, but it was the only thing I culd think of.
Standing there, dripping wet, looking at me. Those eyes so haunted, his skin so pale, and the words that he spoke… how can any one person have that much self loathing held inside? It makes me angry at his brother, and the things he doesn't understand. It made me angry at that Mizuki, for pushing Fuji to being the person he truly hated.
Cruel? No, I would never say he was cruel. He has a sense of right and wrong, a sense of ingrained protectiveness for those people whom he cares about. I think I belong to those people, at least, I hope I do.
All I was thinking, was to stop what he was saying. The words are cruel but the sentiment behind them is downright despair. He is reaching out without knowing it, he is what I need to balance me, to give me something other than my duties to concentrate on.
The kiss is everything I thought it would be, it's soft and gentle and he tastes… uniquely Fuji. I still ask myself how I've dared this, how did I bring myself to drown out his words and his doubts by kissing him. But he clings to me, and I realise that he really does need me as much as I need him.
How have we come to this, to where we are, standing in the rain now? I have no idea, but if I'm honest… I wouldn't change it for the world.
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Yeah well, what can I say. Tez can be very persuasive when he wants to let people know what he's thinking.
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