I ran until I came to a huge clearing where Jasper's scent had ended, where would he have went? 'He didn't just disappear' I kept telling myself. Tears welled up in my eyes, I sobbed. "Jasper!" I screamed as loud as I could. I kept calling and calling as I walked across the field, "Jasper!" I screamed until my lungs felt like they were burning, then I spotted something, it seemed to shine, I sprinted across the field.
Jasper's leather cuff with the family crest, just like Edward and Emmett's was laying in the dirt, I picked it up and gripped it. 'Jasper's gone', 'No he's not' 'He's not coming back', 'He will' 'He doesn't want you anymore', 'No, he thinks I don't' ' I bet he was happier Maria than you'. My mind argued with itself while I sobbed.
I looked at the cuff in my hands, it was dirty but what I noticed is there were places where fingernails had dug into them, I brought it up to my nose. The musky scent of Volturi permeated my sence of smell.
I heard Edward run up behind me, "Alice, what happened?" he asked urgently, "The Volturi have Jasper!" I screeched, Edward kneeled beside me, quickly grabbing the cuff out of my hand deeply smelling it, "Jane and Alec" he confirmed. "We have to get him back...now!" I sobbed, Edward lifted me up by my shoulders and brought me to my feet, "We'll get him back Alice, I promise" He looked at me firmly and grabbed my hand, rushing me back to the house.
Right as we came into the door Esmé jumped into my arms, "Oh, Alice you're okay" she held me tightly with the others standing around the room, "Jasper isn't" I mumbled, she quickly jumped back, "What?" she asked already looking like she'd cry.
"Jasper's gone!" I cried out, loosing it and slamming back into Esmé hugging her with all my might. Edward was already filling the others in. Renesmee was crying while Bella held her, Emmett and Rosalie were angry and Carlisle was already planning with Edward. I realized then how much my family cared about me and Jasper which also made me overwhelm with more guilt, out of all the things I've done, leaving when Bella needed me, leaving when they all needed me, almost killing everyone and they still love me and I don't deserve any of it, they took me in, gave me a home, made me a part of the family, I didn't deserve that either.
"I'm sorry" I blurted out of the blue, they all looked at me, "Sorry for what, honey?" Esmé asked, "For everything I've done to you guys, I'm sorry I ignored you all, made you feel like I didn't want to be here, I don't deserve any of your help." I sobbed, "Alice" Esmé hugged me again "We love you and Jasper and we'd do anything for you, everybody needs to be alone sometimes." she said, Esmé always understands. Emmett walked over and rustled my hair that probably looked like a crow's nest, "Yeah little sis, we wouldn't be much of a family if we didn't help each other out now would we?" I gave a small smile and nod, Emmett alike Jasper and Renesmee knew how to make me smile.
I seen Carlisle and Edward very concentrated on the problem at hand, I walked past Emmett and Esmé, listening to them speak but not really listening to what they were staying, I interrupted, "When do we leave?" I asked, "Tomorrow" Carlisle replied, Tomorrow! I couldn't believe it! "Tomorrow!?, Jasper's gone, taken by the Volturi, the most dangerous to all vampires, and you want to leave tomorrow?!" I yelled, Bella butt in, "Alice, calm down, we're doing the best we can-" I interrupted "Don't tell me to calm down, What if this was Edward or Renesmee? What would you do?!" I defended. They don't understand. "But it's not! It's about Jasper, and if you wouldn't have ignored him and pushed him away, over a stupid vision! This wouldn't have happened!" she hissed. Esme's mouth dropped. "Why did you push us away Alice?" Everyone looked at me. "Because I saw Jasper die when the Volturi came!" I cried "I saw all of you die!" I screamed and ran out of the house.