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Aang's diary named Roku
Dear Ruko,
How could I have been so stupid? Stupid, stupid, I am so stupid! I never think before I act! She said she was confused, so why did I kiss her! I thought that by kissing her that it would help her stop being confused. What a stupid idea that was, huh? The second I touched my lips to hers, she had pushed me away and yelled at me. She usually doesn't yell at me. After she finished yelling at me, she stormed off. I'm so stupid!
That play was the worst play I have ever seen! Wasn't just the actors and actresses that were playing the parts, but the scenes, too. But, how could they cast a girl to play me! That's not right! And, how could she say that? That she only sees me as a brother. Roku, I know what you're going to say - it was just a play and it possiblely wasn't accurate. I don't need to hear that, she already told me that. But something in the pit of my stomach says otherwise. I don't know what to do anymore, Ruko. I thought me and her had something when we kissed at the invasion, I seriously thought we did. I know I shouldn't feel this way towards her but I can't help these emotions. The Guru told me I would have to let go of any Earthly attachments; that meant I had to give up her but I love her! How can I just let her go? I just can't do that!
One thing we all agreed on while we made our way back to the house that Zuko and his family used to occupy when they were all happy, a long time ago was that, that play was the worst play ever. I wasn't the only one bothered by the play. I could see that Zuko was bothered by it, too. I understood why he was bothered. It displayed all the mistakes he had commited in his life, and shoved it in his face.
Oh, and I almost forgot to tell you about the ending of the play. It was not what I had expected, but what can you expect from a fire nation play? In the play, we all failed. I died in the play. I sure hope that doesn't happen to me because I have so much I want to do. I haven't even had the chance to admit my feelings to Katara. I don't want to fail the world again. I failed them once, I don't want to fail them again.
Ruko, there is one thing that I have been wondering since we got back to the house; Who were the people who followed us, in order to get information on us to make a play? And, how did they do it without us spotting them? Ruko, it's frightening to know that these people know almost everything about us, that they followed us without being spotted. I guess it's just my nerves speaking. Ruko, I am just nervous for the day that I have to battle Ozai, the firelord. What if I fail?
Your former life,
Aang
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