So... I wanted this fanfic to be a oneshot, but I couldn't resist myself and I wrote next chapter. ^^ I don't know if I wrote Lanie's parts right. I'm really sorry if I didn't.
I hope you like it!
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Chapter 2
Beckett after she had gone out of Castle's, she had gone to precinct. She blindly had solved the bomb case with Ryan's and Esposito's help. Boys had seen that something is wrong, but they had been too scared to ask her… Castle's phone hadn't answered. When she finally had done paperwork, Kate had asked Gates for day off. Captain had been surprised but she'd agreed.
Now, Beckett sat on the couch in her apartment. She's been crying for almost all night. She only sat blindly looking into space. She looked at the clock, 9:17. It's about time when Castle usually shows up at the 12th. He brings her coffee and his joy, which she needs so much. How could I done something like that to him! He would take a bullet for me and I hurt him so much… She started to cry harder. Because of rough sobs, Kate couldn't catch a breath. She was aching psychologically and physically. She hadn't wanted to hurt him… She had been so close to admit her feelings, admit that she's ready, that she wants to give them a chance… But she had must screw it up… She should had known that he'd could be in observation room… She shouldn't brought this whole thing during the interrogation! And what's the most important, she shouldn't had been lying to him since the beginning…
Someone knocked at the front door. She got up and sprinted towards the door. Maybe it's him! Kate thought, but when she opened the door she saw a concern face of her best friend. Lanie Parish looked at her with question in her eyes.
"Girl, spill it out! What happened!" ME asked.
Kate sobbed and got back on the couch. Lanie followed her. Beckett couldn't stop the tears and her sobs getting harder with every second. The other woman was horrified and extremely curious. Through all this time since she's known Kate, she's not seen her in such a mess. She carefully put her hand on Detective's back and caressed it gently.
"What happened, honey? What did he do?"
"I betrayed him…" Kate managed to whisper.
"Betrayed? How so?"
"I lied to him…"
"Oh girl, I'm sure he'll forgive you. You know that he…" Doctor started but she was cut out.
"He's gone! I'm such a monster, Lanie! I've been lying to him for all this time! I've been lying to everyone!" Beckett cried out.
"Calm down, honey… Take a deep breath and tell me what you've been lying about?" ME asked calmly but inside she's dying from curiosity.
"About the shooting…" Kate muttered. She lifted her eyes at her friend, tears running down her pale face. "I remember everything. I always do…"
"Oh…"
"I'm so sorry Lanie… But it was easier to say that I don't remember and…" She couldn't finished cause Lanie pulled her in a comforting hug.
"It's ok, girl. I understand… Really, it's going to be okay. Castle's going to forgive you too. He just needs time, I guess…"
"No… You don't know the worst part." Beckett started to cry again.
"Well? Tell me then!"
"He… He told me… When he got to me after the shoot… He begged me to stay with him and… He told me he loves me, Lanie…" Dr Parish inhaled deeply. She didn't expected this. "And I've been lying to him that I don't remember since the shooting…"
"Oh my…" ME was speechless. She didn't know what to say. Lanie wanted to cheer her friend up but she knew that what Kate had done was wrong. Awfully wrong.
"Lanie… Tell me that it's going to be ok… Tell me that he'll forgive me… Cause I don't know how to live without him by my side…" Detective whispered.
"As your friend, I'll be honest with you. I can't tell you, it's going to be ok. I can't, cause I don't know that. What you did to him was awful… And I'm not surprised that he's gone now… Well, this man followed you like faithful dog. He'd do anything for you…"
"I know that Lanie, but…"
"No, girl… No buts… I know you're scared. Don't try to deny! But you can't be on your own your entire life! You have to accept the fact that beside you are people who cared about you, who love you!"
"Lanie… I don't deserve this… I'm broken… I'm damaged… I…"
"Well, maybe you're right, girl… But no one is perfect! For God's sake! You think that he sees only this 'tough detective' side in you? You think that's what Castle loves in you? I don't think so… You have to let him in, if you want him around, cause that, what was before between you two… It's never come back, girl."
"What am I suppose to do?" Kate chocked out.
"You have to fight, sweetie! Fight for him. This time he won't come back if you won't do something…"
"He told me to give him some time…"
"Yeah, right… Let me ask you one question. When you asked him to give you time in hospital, did you really want it?"
"No…"
"So… What are you doing here? Go and talk to him!" Lanie stood up and dragged Kate towards the front door.
"Wait, Lanie! I can't… I…" Beckett started but ME cut Her off.
"No, Kate! You can and you will! Come on, we have to change your clothes and cover this awful shadows under your eyes."
"Lanie…"
"Oh, girl! Stop it! You are one of the finest detective in New York and you're afraid of Castle? Come on, he's you best friend and yes, he's mad at you, but you'll do everything what's in your power to get him back, right?"
"What if he don't want to know me anymore?" Beckett whispered painfully.
"Oh sweetie! Imma smack you! I've never seen this kind of relationship as between you two. This man is madly in love with you. He's hurt now, but when you two talk and explain everything to each other, he'll forgive you… You just have to be completely honest with him, you know. And I mean it, Kate. Completely!"
"Lanie… What would I do without you? Thanks… I owe you so much! " Beckett said shyly and hugged her friend.
"Yeah, yeah… I want only one thing. When you two finally do THIS, I wanna know the details!" ME said totally serious.
"Lanie!" Kate blushed.
"What, like you said… You owe me…"
And... What do you think? I would be really, really grateful for reviews. I'd be happy with even 'one word review' simply good or bad! Thanks! ;d