6 months earlier

Edward

My body felt like it was filled with sand, my arms and legs were too heavy for me to lift so all I could do was lie on this disgusting floor. Jasper's feet were approaching and the only reason I knew this was because his feet were a force to be reckoned with. The white calluses became his soles and his toes looked like they'd never been in contact with a pair of clippers since grade school.

"You're sisters' at my door man" He cupped his hands over his mouth so I could hear over the stupidly loud bass of the music. His fingernails could use a clipping too and his mustache and beard combo made him look like a regular at the soup kitchens.

There were less people here because they either ran out of money or were too coked up to stay cooped in Jasper's premium suite loft. I would normally be in the latter of the group but I emptied my bank account on the last party. So my options led me to graciously volunteer to be the coat check dude and peruse the pockets and bags of the hyper-rich addicts for pills and whatever the fuck I could make into some sort of cocktail, Jasper knew this but he pretended not too.

"What's wrong with you? She's screaming for me to get you so get your shit together and get the fuck up"

My limbs were still too heavy; there was no way in hell I was getting up and besides, the tone of Jasper's voice made me more reluctant to do as he said.

"Shuddup man, she's not around right now so you can lose the fucking tone of that voice"

This made his face red and he gripped his hair with his yellow, overgrown fingernails showing. I wanted to puke.

"She can't come in here man, she can't see this" He said desperately. 'She can't see me with you like this' is what he meant. He didn't want my little sister whom he has been obsessed with since I introduced them to think he is responsible for my less than conscience state.

The song changed and in the interlude, loud banging of bone on metal echoed in the high walled loft.

"Fuck" Jasper looked at me with pleading eyes; he was two seconds away from punching me in the face. I gave an exaggerated sigh and raised my arm, indicating I needed his disgusting hands to help me up.

He grabbed my shoulders and propped me up on my unstable feet. On the way to the door I nearly fell on my own volition about twenty times and tripped on passed out bodies twice as much. He might as well have carried me to the door but I probably had the density of a dead cow.

He opened the steel door to my little sister who was absolutely fuming. Her nice black dress was thick with mud at the hem and her short hair was stuck to her head.

"Here he is" Jasper animatedly announced. "So he smoked a couple of bowls of that strong stuff from Vancouver so he's not completely here right now, heh" he lied smoothly.

Alice narrowed her eyes and grabbed my face, this made me stumble towards her and I was scared that I would crush her but thankfully Jasper caught me before I tipped her over. She turned her head back to Jasper.

"Don't fucking lie to me" her chin jutted out and the words were harsh against her teeth. Jasper looked down immediately. What a dumbass.

"I'm fine Alice, I just wanted to see my buddy here" I gripped Jaspers shoulder but my hand slipped so I ended up caressing his arm. He scowled at me, mirroring Alice's expression.

"You saw him last week Edward, you can't do this to me anymore what the hell did you take" Her voice broke at the end and her eyes were tearing up. Shit, I'm making her cry, again.

I couldn't stand there and listen or watch her anymore so I got my strength and pushed myself off of Jasper. I grabbed my shoes out of the hall closet and walked passed Alice.

She was a blubbering mess and Jasper was rubbing her arms with his revolting hands.

"Where is he going" was all I could hear as the elevator doors closed. She knew there was no use in following me.

I somehow still had my car keys in my jacket pocket and made my way into the car, falling over my feet a number of times.

My pocket started buzzing, telling me I had a new voicemail. I knew I shouldn't have pressed play as soon as I did.

"Hey Edward, umm, it's Bella, and I just wanted to let you know that I'll be in town for a while" There was a long pause but my phone told me there was at least 2 minutes more of the message. "I went to see her today, Edward" Her voice was trembling. "I got new flowers for her, lilies, her favorite" She said as if I could ever fucking forget. "I know you know that…umm I thought …no I want to see you, I'm sure you know but my dad, he's not, he's not well" not well as in stage four lung cancer, which has no doubt spread to his lower organs. Her voice gets weaker by the minute and I know she's crying. "It's been too long Edward and I just want to talk to you and see you and ...yeah please call me back ok, bye"

I threw my phone on the passenger seat and made my way to the only place that held peace to me, I went to visit my daughter.