Emma cried again, though this time she was home, in her and Manny's apartment. Manny, Jay, Toby and Liberty had passed out on the couches in their TV room, and she could still hear the movie running so let herself really cry as she sat on the floor, hugging her knees.

Next to her was the framed photo Sean sent to her while away, and he was wearing his soldier suit, smiling proudly. The frame was now broken, glass everywhere, Emma had thrown it madly.

With knees pulled up and her arms around herself, she leaned her forehead down on her knees, crying hard but silently, and her eyes shut tight while tears streamed down

Her bedroom door opened slowly but with her sniffs, she didn't hear it, even if she was being as quiet as she could be, all the thoughts through her head were giving her a pounding headache.

The figure behind her bent down and their strong arms slowly but determined wrapped around her body, pulling her back into his chest. Jay.

She jumped when he did, but didn't even look back, knowing and remembering who held her like this before. She collapsed into his arms and the familiar hold, and he held tighter, resting his chin on the top of her head as she kept her eyes closed, crying and shaking.

Jay looked down beside her to the broken glass and sighed at the picture of Sean, then his eyes scanned to arm and saw the glass slit open a cut by her elbow.

"Stand up." he whispered soothingly into her ear.

Emma shook her head slowly no, as she continued to cry and choke. God she was a mess, she usually wouldn't let anyone see her this hysterical.

"Come on." he pleaded, seeing her blood spill down a little down her arm and winced a bit. She still wouldn't budge and he wrapped his one arm around her waist and one under her knees, "Come on baby." he whispered tenderly into her ear, her cries slowly died but her tears still ran and he carried her up and slowly walked toward her bathroom with her in his arms, he took such caution..like she was fragile.

Her bathroom light was on now, and her tear stained face cringed at the light but got use to it as she watched Jay at the corner of her eye, he opened her mirror cabinet above the sink.

As he tried to open a bandage up with his teeth, his one hand held peroxide and the other went to the tubs tap, turning it on as he leaned over Emma.

Emma whipped her nose with the back of her hand and snuffled once more as he finally ripped the bandage wrapper open and turned to her, bending down on one knee and his icy blue eyes gazed up into hers. Her eyes looked numb, but he saw SOME emotion looking back into his.

(Spectrum-Florence)
And when we first came here
we were cold and we were clear
With no colors in our skin
'Til we let the spectrum in

"This'll hurt a second." he warned, eyes still on hers intensely as he turned the peroxide bottle open.

With a cloth, he dipped some on that and then dabbed it on her elbow, while holding her arm with his hand and she winced and clenched the teeth, whimpering a bit. Her other hand also shot up onto his shoulder, squeezing it for support. Hmm, leaning on Jay Hogart again for support, funny how things happen..

"You're still a little baby." he teased, passing a smirk up to her then put the bandage on her, taping it up.

Emma bit her lower lip by the small pain and a small smile crept out until she frowned again. She glanced over her shoulder to the tub that was now almost filled.

She mumbled a bit, "What's the tub for?"

He stood up and chuckled a little, throwing the garbage out in a small trash and shrugged one shoulder, "Who doesn't enjoy a bubble bath?"

Big ol' bad Jay Hogart saying bubble bath..This time, Emma let the smile stay, and he shared that grin with her. He then noticed she gave him a look when he kept standing there, and he then blinked.

"Right." he said, going to the door and then came back in, grabbing a towel for her and resting it on the sink.

Emma gave a gentle laugh and watched him go to the door as she reached her arms back to unzip her dress but winced out loud.

He turned back when he heard that then noticed what the problem was. He coughed awkwardly, but walked back to her, and around as she slowly dropped her arms and crossed them a bit shyly.

Say my name
And every color illuminates
We are shining
And we will never be afraid again

His fingers took hold of her zipper, and he licked his lips nervously.. wait, why nervous? Nothing he hadn't seen before.. him and Emma have had their share of fooling around in the past..

He slowly unzipped it and she bit her lower lip. He swallowed hard as he saw that tanned smooth skin show off to him and the toned back she had showed off the natural arch in it that it had and she gasped in softly when she felt his finger trace down it, then a few more finger tips were felt along her spine. She held in her shiver and shut her eyes softly.. he always gave her tingles. No wonder the girls loved him..

Girls..Manny! Emma's best friend! What was she doing?

Emma shut her eyes tight when from behind, his hands traced up now instead of down and to her shoulders, his hot unsteady breath against the back of her neck as he pulled down her dress from her shoulders. She wanted to say stop, but she wanted his touch more.

His eyes were shut too as he slid the dress off her, his head bent down a bit to take in the vanilla scent of her that he hadn't been really allowed to smell up close and personal for awhile.

The dress slid down to the floor, leaving her in her black lace matching bra and panties and Jay taking a sharp deep breath in. She was like a goddess. He almost painfully cringed, even tried to stop his hands from gripping her hips and pulling her beautiful body back against his. He wished he could stop, then wished he wasn't fully clothed right now.

Come on, we've done this before... this is your best friends girl. It's wrong, isn't it?

WAS your best friends girl. How long are we going to fight it and say no? Go ahead, say no to that body

Jay surrendered after that, letting her turn around to him and her big deer like brown eyes stared up into his, and he knew that look as he leaned down and captured her small lips into his needingly, sucking on them slowly but deeply, and cupping her face with one hand, and his other arm wrapping around her small waist. He slid his tongue against hers and she moaned into the kiss, her small fingers undoing the buttons on his shirt.

The two ended up both in the tub, and she leaned her back against his stomach, sitting between his legs as he laid back against the back of the tub. The water surrounded them. The water went halfway up her breasts, her knees bent up a bit as his legs laid flat.

His head bent down a bit, leaving trails of soft kisses along the side of her neck as he sat up a bit more, his hand moving around her hair and wrapped her hair around his fist as he tossed her head back playfully while he kissed her neck more hungrily, and bit it once or twice as she sighed and gripped her hands on his thighs when she shut her eyes in pleasure and he went hard.

Emma wanted it, needed it and she felt it against her back.. he definitely seemed like he wanted it just as bad too.

They sat on her bed now, in the dim light, and he sat on the end of her bed with his feet on the ground as she sat entirely on him, straddling him and he was inside her, moving deeply in and out as she whimpered and shook in delight as she went up and down on him. He groaned and tried to keep his eyes open with his hands gripping her tiny hips, his fingers leaving marks when he held on tightly and he'd watch the way she arched back when she always came near, and he'd lean his head down and flick his tounge against her nipple, making her cry out, but not too loudly since the others were in the other room.

Say my name
As every color illuminates
We are shining
And we will never be afraid again

Emma had to admit, compared to any guy she's been with, or heard about.. Jay was the best when it came to this area. If only there was a class in highschool for sex.. he would of passed with flying colors.

She came back up to him, looking down at him as she guided up slowly, clenching his hardness inside her and then she impaled down on him and look up at him with passion and a small grin when he'd hiss and almost cum right there.

She learned a few things since their last little affair..

"You're a tease." he whispered huskily with clenched teeth, his now dark eyes staring into hers.

It was good to see her not crying anymore.. I mean maybe now she was crying out his name.. but that was different, better.

She gasped when he tightened his arms around her waist this time, her hands on his bare strong shoulders and he did the next thrust, sending his hardness deep up inside her and she cried out and he kissed her, muffeling her scream and she moaned into his mouth a moment later, wrapping her legs completely around his waist and feeling him slide out and she came right there, and after one more jerk, he came too, biting her lower lip and then her neck as he breathed in and out shakingly, trembling a bit until he stopped and tried to catch his breath with her.

They laid under her covers now, he laid on his back, his head turned toward her with her sheets around his waist, as she laid on her side, and head on her pillow while looking back at him with the sheet around her chest.

As Jay stared at her, he couldn't help but easily admit he'd rather a Emma than a Manny any day. I mean, him and Emma had more of a past but generally he meant..most guys back in highschool, and even now, they went for Manny cause yeah, she was a hottie, but she was also easy. Emma wasn't hot, Emma was beautiful, Emma was unique and different, and Emma is always about being a strong woman, you had to work to get Emma, she wasn't even a freckle of easy.. This would lead Emma to think a lot that she was a shadow when next to Manny.. the 'not so hot' friend, she didn't get it; she didn't get she was better and the boys who usually picked Manny would of picked her if she was just as easy and looking for someone to sweep her off her feet.. but Emma was too busy looking for reasons to help people.. or save dolphins.

Jay chuckled out loud to that thought and Emma who was drifting off, opened her eyes back up to him, "What?" she asked, giving him a silly look

He snapped out of it and just smirked, shrugging, "You're just.. something, Nelson."

Emma got lost in that smirk, see? That was the Hogart love spell. .

Jay then frowned, seeing that lost look in her eye and didn't understand that look was over him. He thought she had her mind on Sean again.

Well.. it's not like he thought their mind blowing sex would get her mind off it forever or make her move on or anything..but for some reason it was a small blow to his ego and something twisted in his stomach, and he found himself wishing she wasn't thinking of Sean. Little did he know..

He coughed, sitting up, "Manny might wake up.." he said, looking away from Emma and then grabbed his pants off the bed.

Emma felt a sting of, what was that? Rejection? Embarrassment? Heart ache? Little bit of all feelings at once?

She sat up, but stayed in bed as he got dressed and she made sure the blanket stayed wrapped around her naked body. She found her mouth was still hanging a bit in shock and closed it tight, swallowing down the hurt in her throat.

So that was just a fuck then? Nothing more?

"Wouldn't want that." Emma muttered, clenching her jaw and looking away from him as he slowly turned back to her, buttoning his shirt.

He opened his mouth and closed it, eyeing her. Jesus christ the way she could hide her emotions sometimes drove him crazy, and she looked away from him like none of this effected her.

Emma then looked back at him, connecting eyes and she had to admit, she felt a pinge of guilt, "She can't ever know," she looked around, "About this." what was she suppose to call it?

He narrowed his eyes at her as he walked to the door, "No problem." he simply said like it was not a big deal, and he tried not to slam the door behind him.

Emma sank back into her bed and sunk into the covers, depressed, and her heart breaking a little bit more than before. Was that possible?