A/N: Okay, so I'll try to update pretty often, but I will have to take my own time. If I end up doing this because of pressure, I swear I will turn Jeff into a serial killer. Oh, and as you might know, I do not own Glee.
TRIGGER warning: Self harm, eating disorders
The following day, the two roommates had found out that a lot of their classes were in the same buildings. That was a pleasant surprise, as they could walk together in between the classes. Practice with the Warblers was the only thing both of them looked forward to though. They had practice everyday, and there was always something fun to do. On their way to the senior common room, they walked together once again.
Jeff looked at Kurt. "So, what are you doing tonight?" He asked the brunette. Kurt sighed heavily. "Nothing, I'll probably study." He rolled his eyes at the thought. Jeff smirked, "If you want, I can set you up for a date with Blaine?" He asked him. The blush that coloured Kurt's cheek made Jeff smile.
"Really?" Kurt asked, not really believing the kindness Jeff possessed. "Uh, sure. If you can, I would love that!" He told the blonde. Jeff winked at him and shoved him playfully. Kurt grinned at him and walked into the common room. Jeff sat down on a couch and pulled Kurt down with him. Kurt chuckled and rested his head on his shoulder, listening to Jeff's excited chattering about… everything, really. The butterflies in his stomach were going crazy about the thought of going on a date with Blaine.
And once the charming lead warbler walked into the room, Jeff waved him over. Blaine frowned at the sight of Kurt and Jeff, but walked over anyway. Jeff smiled a forced smile, "Hey! Would you like to go to a movie together with Nick, Kurt and I tonight?" He asked him. Kurt looked at Jeff quite disappointed that Nick and Jeff was going to be there as well. But Jeff had it planned out, and he was certainly not going to the movies.
Blaine shrugged with a smile. "Yeah, sure! When?" He asked, looking at Kurt. Jeff smiled. "We'll come get you." He said. Blaine winked at them, and Kurt looked at Jeff. "I didn't know you were going as well?" He said, sounding quite upset. Realizing that, he panicked. "Not that I don't want you there, but, you know." He smiled sheepishly, and Jeff laughed. "I'm not going to the movies, and neither is Nick. You see, I am 'sick' tonight, and because I can't go, Nick doesn't want to. And yes, I've talked to Nick about this." Jeff assured Kurt, rubbing his arm.
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When there was twenty minutes left to Kurt's date with Blaine, Kurt was in panic. He had no idea what he should wear, and after the twenty-something-th outfit, he had almost given up. Jeff looked at his roommate. "Kurt. No need to stress. You look good no matter what you wear. Your style is amazing! And he won't care what you're wearing." He tried to soothe him. The angry eyes meeting his almost made him regret saying something at all. "Sorry. But if you want my opinion, I think you should go for outfit number… I think it is number 11. The one with the white shirt, black pants and grey vest?" He said hesitantly, afraid that he had said the wrong thing again. Kurt's glare turned into an apologetic smile. "Sorry, I'm just so nervous!" He admitted. "But thanks, Jeffy. I think I'll wear that!" He said, walking into their bathroom with the outfit he had decided on. When his hair was well styled and his clothes looked perfect, he walked outside. "I should go," he told Jeff. "Thank you for helping me!" He said, kissing Jeff on the cheek. Even though the blonde was still in a bit of a shock after he'd called him 'Jeffy'. He usually hated that name, but he actually quite liked it when Kurt had said it. Unless he was going to start calling him by his real name, no one (unless family) knew his real name. Jeffrey Tobias. What a douchy name.
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Blaine looked at Kurt, who showed up alone in front of his door. "Where's Niff?" He asked, smiling at Kurt. Kurt bit his lip nervously, afraid to say something that he would regret. "Jeff is sick, Nick doesn't want to if Jeff's not there." Blaine shrugged; it did make sense after all. Everybody knew that the three-six-mafia were inseparable. "Okay then. Let's go!" He exclaimed, grabbing Kurt's shoulder. Kurt felt a tingle when Blaine touched his shoulder, and he smiled uncontrollably.
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Once they had bought their tickets, Kurt and Blaine sat down on a table and started talking. They both loved Vogue and musicals, and they laughed a lot. Someone walked through the door, and Kurt saw that Blaine was staring at them. "Look at him," Blaine sighed dreamily. "He's perfect. I'm actually going on a date with him tomorrow." He said, smiling at Kurt. Kurt looked at the boy. He was skinny, tall and handsome. Everything that he wasn't.
Jealousy took over, and he glared at him. It didn't really help when Blaine walked over to him. Kurt sat alone, looking over at Blaine every now and then (More correctly, looking away from Blaine every now and then). They were just standing there, talking the whole time. Blaine didn't even care about him. He hadn't even talked to him after he went to talk to the other guy instead. The doors opened and Kurt walked over to Blaine, forcing a smile to the boy. Kurt was happy that he finally could have Blaine to himself. But once they were seated, he saw that Blaine's crush was seated actually seated next to him. Kurt was visibly annoyed. This was supposed to be Blaine and Kurt. Not Blaine and someone else!
Throughout the movie, everything got worse and worse. Kurt couldn't even hear what they were saying in the movie because Blaine and that other guy were flirting. Towards the end of the movie in a romantic scene, he could see the two holding hands, and it killed him on the inside. He couldn't enjoy the rest of the movies, and when the movie was done he walked over to tell Blaine that he would walk alone. On his way to do so, Blaine kissed that other guy. He stared at them in shock, his heart breaking into a million pieces. Blaine turned around and smiled at Kurt. "Oh, hi Kurt!" He said, having forgotten that he actually went to the movies with him. Kurt's jaw dropped, but he quickly composed himself and forced himself to smile. "Jonathan, this is Kurt. Kurt, this is my new boyfriend Jonathan!" Kurt nodded, feeling sick and dizzy. "Oh, okay. Nice to meet you."
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Kurt hurried back to Dalton, feeling completely numb. He didn't know what to feel. Was he happy for Blaine? Angry? Sad? He didn't know, he couldn't feel anything. He walked into his room and lied down on his bed, watching the roof. He wondered where Jeff was; he really wanted him to be there to comfort him. He thought about Blaine and Jonathan and wondered what the other boy had that he didn't. The first thing Kurt noticed, he was a lot skinnier than him.
Before he even knew it, he was sitting in front of the toilet, forcing his fingers down his throat. He needed to lose weight, and he would only gain weight by eating. Also by keeping it in. As he washed his hands, he saw something. A razor blade. He placed it on his wrist, cutting into the flesh. It hurt, but he liked it. And now he was a hypocrite, telling Lea that she had to stop.
He washed the razor blade, hid it and found Jeff's sweater. He changed into the sweater and a couple of sweat pants before lying down. He really wanted Jeff to be there.
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Meanwhile in a room three doors down the hallway, Nick and Jeff were playing videogames. Nick looked at Jeff, confused as to why his usual happy-go-lucky self wasn't so happy. Jeff felt like someone had stabbed him in the heart, and he couldn't figure out why. Nick decided that he should try to talk to Jeff about something.
"I wonder how Blaine and Kurt's date went," he told his best friend who glared at him. Nick was scared; he had only seen Jeff glare like that once in his life, and that was when someone picked on Lea two years ago.
"I bet it was great," he said through gritted teeth. He felt like kicking someone, but he knew that that wasn't the answer. Nick looked at Jeff again. "Have you replaced me?" He asked the blonde warbler, who softened at once. "Replaced you? How and why would I do that?" He asked, unsure of what Nick meant. "You're always with Kurt. We never hang out anymore." Nick said. Jeff glared at him again. "Have I ever complained when you have had a girlfriend and forgotten all about me completely?" He asked Nick. "That's different." Nick stated, and Jeff got up. "Okay, if you say so. Good night. Hope you'll have a lovely night." He said, his voice freezing cold, before walking to his and Kurt's room, leaving a seriously hurt and confused Nick behind.
He opened the door to see Kurt lying on his bed, his eyes wide open, and in sweatpants and Jeff's sweater. That was the first time Jeff had seen him in something that's not fashionable, at least willingly. (Except for the day before where he had borrowed Jeff's clothes.)
"Kurt?" He asked carefully, sitting down on Kurt's bed. Kurt didn't reply, didn't even look at him. Afraid that he was in an insulin shock, Jeff shook him gently. Finally, Kurt looked at him. "Are you okay?" Jeff asked, looking at his roommate. Kurt shook his head. "No," he admitted. "We got to the movies, and poof, Blaine's date for tomorrow was there." He said with a bitter chuckle, and Jeff felt sorry for him. Just as he opened his mouth to say something, Kurt continued. "He ignored me the whole movie, he even forgot that I was there. And as I was supposed to tell him that I would just walk ahead, I saw them kissing. And then he introduced me to his new 'boyfriend'." Kurt said, finally letting himself cry.
Jeff sat there in shock before hugging Kurt tightly. "He doesn't deserve you anyways. You're much better than him in so many ways," he said, hugging Kurt even tighter. He felt the other boy bury his head in the crook of his neck, and he couldn't help but smile a little. "I'm so sorry to hear that, Kurt." He muttered, figuring that he would have to strangle a hobbit later.
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Already the next week, Kurt would have to hide his wrists completely. They were filled with scars, the left hand worse than the right. He had forced himself to throw up ever since that day he was supposed to go on a date with Blaine. Even when he didn't eat, he forced himself to throw up, just in case. He sat on bed, admiring his own cuts and scars, when his telephone was ringing. He sighed, picked it up and checked the caller ID before answering.
"Hello, Finn."
"Hi, uh Kurt? Can you do me a favour?"
"Yes? That depends. What favour would it be?"
"Yo see, Rachel is throwing this party this Saturday, and I really don't want to go… alone. If you want to you can bring someone with you. Like that guy you have been talking about… Blake? Blair? Blaine! Yes, Blaine."
"Okay, I'll be there. See you on Saturday. And just so you know, Finn. I'm doing this for you, and for you entirely."
"Thanks little bro. See ya!"
Kurt hung up, and Jeff walked into the room. Kurt looked at him, thought for a while and made his decision.
"Jeff? How do you feel about joining me at a probably very boring party this Saturday?" He asked, a bit afraid that he would answer no. But Jeff grinned and sat down on his bed next to him. "Sure! Why not? It's in Lima, right?" He said shrugging, the grin still plastered on his face. "Really? And yes, it is in Lima." Kurt said, sighing relieved. He lied down, looking up at Jeff.
"I would love to join you. This is my first party outside of the Warblers, you know. But hey, can I ride with you? As I live a bit closer to Lima than Westerville, but not much." Jeff asked him, looking him in the eyes. "Yes, of course. I'm leaving at Saturday, but I'm not sure if I'll be back before Sunday." He said, and Jeff shrugged. "That's all right." "Oh, and Jeff, thank you. If not I would have to hang out with my brother." Jeff only hummed, smiled, and lied down next to him. Kurt smirked at the blonde warbler. "Don't you have your own bed?" He questioned, Jeff only shook his head with a grin. "Nope. Not right now." He said, poking Kurt's stomach. Kurt laughed and laid his head on Jeff's chest, feeling Jeff's arms wrap around him. With Jeff at the party, there was a chance that it might would be kind of fun anyway.
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Saturday came around, and Jeff and Kurt were about to leave. "Kurt! Are you done soon?" Jeff called, waiting impatiently at his friend. Kurt opened the door from their bathroom. He looked Jeff up and down and smiled.
"You look good today. Who would have thought that you had style?" He joked, and Jeff mock pouted at him before his pout turned into a big grin. "Hello, I have a lot of style! And thank you, you look amazing." He said, actually knowing a bit about fashion. Kurt looked at him again; he couldn't disagree. Jeff looked really good in this outfit. His blonde hair was styled in a way that made his outfit complete. He wore quite tight, black jeans, a white shirt, and a leather jacket and red converse. Jeff smiled at him and they walked out to the car.
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Kurt pulled up in front of the Berry house. "Welcome to hell," he muttered to Jeff before they stepped out of the car. "Hey, Finn. Wait!" Kurt exclaimed, locking the car and walking over to his brother together with Jeff. Finn stared at Jeff, expecting that it would have been Blaine. And as far as he had seen in pictures, Blaine had dark hair. And he was not that tall. Kurt slapped Finn's arm, glaring at him. "Finn, this is my roommate at Dalton, Jeff. Jeff, this is my stepbrother, Finn." He said, smiling at the both of them. Jeff reached out his hand to greet him, and Kurt slapped Finn's arm again. Finn jumped in realization and greeted Jeff. "Oh, hey, nice to meet you." He said, smiling at Jeff. "Likewise." Jeff replied, looking at Kurt.
The three of them walked inside together with Quinn and a couple of more members of New Directions. They walked downstairs and got greeted by Rachel. Rachel looked at Kurt. "Kurt! I didn't expect you to be here, not your friend either," she said, rather confused. Finn smiled guiltily. "Kurt's kind of blackmailed me ever since he saw my browser history," he told Rachel, not really lying.
Kurt looked at Rachel then turned towards Jeff. He opened his mouth to say something, but Jeff beat him to it. "That dress is hideous!" The blonde said, rising his eyebrows. Kurt nodded, "Yes. That's Rachel Berry. The most annoying hobbit you will ever see, and I'm pretty sure that if Blaine was straight, they would make a great couple!" He told Jeff, who chuckled. "I like New Directions though. They look like a nice group." Jeff said, looking around the room. The atmosphere was a lot different from what he was used to with the Warblers.
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As expected, the party turned out to be pretty boring at first. But of course, with Puck there, it got more exciting. Puck managed to convince Rachel that they should break into her dads' liquor locker, offering more alcohol. Once the alcohol was served everyone seemed to have a great time.
Finn walked over to Kurt, who was completely sober. And the two were apparently the only ones. "You're not drinking?" Finn asked him, looking pretty puzzled and annoyed. Kurt shook his head, looking up at his 'brother'. "No, I can't. Alcohol is bad for my blood sugars. But I'm pretty sure I can't rely on Jeff's help tonight." He frowned over at the blonde, who was standing with Sam. It was apparent that Sam was completely wasted, and even though Jeff had been drinking, he wasn't that drunk. After about an hour, all of New Directions had gotten to know Jeff. No one seemed to have anything against him, and Kurt was glad to see that. Rachel walked over to Finn, and Kurt kept an eye with Jeff while Finn explained the different kinds of drunk to Rachel. Suddenly, Rachel was standing on the stage, looking pretty annoyed. She looked at Finn and shouted that they were going to play Spin the Bottle.
Everyone moved to sit down in a ring, Puck bringing a bottle. Once they began playing, all of the combinations turned out to be pretty hilarious. No one got mad except for Santana, the time that Sam and Brittany had to kiss. She exclaimed that it was because of Sam, but Kurt knew that it was because of Brittany. When they had kissed, Rachel spun the bottle. It was spinning around until it ended up pointing at Jeff.
Kurt's eyes widened, and he clapped his hands. "This is outstanding!" he exclaimed as he watched Rachel and Jeff lean forward. Rachel looked Jeff in the eyes. "Jeff Warbler, I'm going to rock your world." She said, making Jeff grin. The gap between them closed, and their lips touched. They shared a long kiss apparent that both of them were enjoying it. Kurt couldn't really explain why he was so jealous, but he was. When they had kissed for about ten seconds, Kurt felt like he should break them up. "I think we've had enough of that!" He said, faking excitement. They broke apart and looked at each other. "I think I've found a new duet partner!" Rachel exclaimed and dragged Jeff with her to the stage. Jeff only grinned sheepishly and waited for the music to start. While they were singing, Kurt bit his lip to prevent himself from doing something stupid, which turned out to be really hard.
Don't You Want Me - Glee Cast version
JEFF
You were working as a waitress in a cocktail bar
When I met you
I picked you out, I shook you up and turned you around
Turned you into someone new
Now five years later on you've got the world at your feet
Success has been so easy for you
But don't forget, it's me who put you where you are now
And I can put you back down too
Don't, don't you want me?
You know I can't believe it
When you say that you won't see me
Don't, don't you want me?
You know I don't believe you
When you say that you don't need me.
RACHEL AND JEFF
It's much too late to find
You think you've changed your mind
You better change it back or we will both be sorry
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
RACHEL
I was working as a waitress in a cocktail bar
That much is true
But even then I knew I'd find a much better place
Even with or without you
The five years we have had have been such good times
I still love you
But now I think it's time I live my life on my own
I guess it's just what I must do
RACHEL AND JEFF
Don't, don't you want me?
You know I can't believe it
When you say that you won't see me
Don't, don't you want me?
You know I don't believe you
When you say that you don't need me.
It's much too late to find
You think you've changed your mind
You better change it back or we will both be sorry
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me? Oooh
When the party ended, Kurt volunteered to drive Tina, Mike and Sam home. And of course Jeff, who ended up spending the night. Kurt sighed and helped Jeff get to his room, glad that Burt was asleep. "We have to be quiet," he told Jeff who was giggling. "You are cute," Jeff said, still giggling. Kurt blushed, but he shushed at him. "Thank you, but we have to be quiet." He told him, sitting him down on his bed. He found a bottle of water and gave it to Jeff. "Drink it up." Kurt ordered him, and Jeff happily obliged. Amazed at Jeff's enthusiasm and happiness, Kurt shook his head. He had no idea how Jeff managed it. Once Jeff gave him the bottle, Kurt helped him lie down in bed and wrapped his blanket around him. Kurt sighed heavily and went to sleep on the couch that he had in his room. "You are cute," Jeff had said, and Kurt smiled at the thought, falling asleep quickly.
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Burt walked to Kurt's room, ready to wake him up. He was surprised that Kurt actually slept longer than him for once. "Hey buddy," he started, but he stopped in the door once he looked over at Kurt's bed. The person lying in Kurt's head was blonde, and Burt paled; Kurt should have at least asked him before, not that he would have been allowed if he had actually asked. He walked grumpily to the kitchen, where Kurt was making breakfast.
"Hi dad," he chirped, smiling at his father. Burt didn't look so happy however.
"Who's that boy?" He asked his son. Kurt faked confusion. "You know who! The boy in your bed!" Burt said, and Kurt sighed. "That's Jeff. He's my roommate at Dalton." Kurt told him, looking up at his father. He didn't understand why he was so mad. "Why is he sleeping here?" Burt demanded to know, looking Kurt in the eyes. Kurt looked at his father. "We were at this party yesterday, and Jeff got pretty wasted. Both Finn and I were designated drivers, so we weren't drunk." He confessed, continuing on the breakfast.
"And you always let Finn have friends over!" He told Burt, looking just as annoyed as Burt did right now. Burt sighed heavily, "But Finn doesn't want to… you know…" He said, scratching his head. Kurt glared at him. "Nothing happened. Here's your breakfast, I'll go wake up Jeff." He said, walking to his room with a glass of water.
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When Jeff woke up he woke up in a room he'd never seen before, and he looked around confused. He had a huge headache, and when Kurt walked through the door he finally remembered. "Hi, Kurt." He said sleepily. Kurt chuckled and sat down next to him. "Hey sleepy. How do you feel?" he asked him, stroking his blonde hair. Jeff groaned, "My head hurts like hell," he admitted, and Kurt chuckled. He handed him the glass of water. "Drink this, you'll feel a lot better," he told Jeff. "And you stink, sorry, if you want to you can take a shower and borrow some clothes. You'll have to borrow Finn's clothes though." Jeff laughed quietly. "That would be great," he said, looking at Kurt. "C'mon, follow me into the bathroom, I'll find you a towel." Kurt nearly demanded, walking towards the bathroom. Jeff jumped out of bed with a groan and followed Kurt. Kurt handed him a towel. "Here, I'll find you some clothes, they will probably lay on my bed when you're done showering." He said, and Jeff nodded. "Thanks." "No problem," Kurt said as he walked away.
Jeff undressed himself and walked into the shower. He really appreciated the help Kurt gave him, and while some guys would've been freaked out by the fact that Kurt was gay, Jeff knew that gay guys didn't want to have sex with every dude they'd see. He turned on the water and started singing like usual.
Kurt chuckled at the song Jeff was singing. He happily walked over to Finn's room. He walked inside and threw a pillow at Finn. "Hey sleepy head! Wake up!" Kurt shouted and Finn woke up with a groan. He glared at Kurt. "Can't you knock? What if I was naked?" He exclaimed, looking at him. Kurt rolled his eyes.
"Then I wouldn't care," he started, walking towards Finn's closet. "You're my brother, I don't like you like that." He told him with a glare. 'Well, you used to' Finn thought to himself. "Anyways, what are you doing in my room?" He asked Kurt. Kurt turned around to look at him. "Oh, I wondered if Jeff could borrow some clothes from you? Mine are too small." Finn shrugged. "Sure. Wait, he's still here? Is he your boyfriend?" He asked Kurt with wide eyes.
Kurt shook his head, "If you don't remember, Jeff was a bit too busy snogging Berry yesterday, he's straight." Kurt told him while looking through his clothes. Finn looked at Kurt quite puzzled. "And he still shared a bed with you?" He asked. Kurt stared at him with a death glare. "As a matter of fact, we didn't share a bed. And not everyone is like you. You see, at Dalton, people don't care about your sexuality." He said as he walked out of the room with some of Finn's clothes.
Kurt walked into his own bedroom quite annoyed with Finn, and found a pair of boxers for Jeff. He found his own outfit, and while he was changing, Jeff appeared in the doorway. Kurt looked towards Jeff, and his jaw dropped. He didn't expect Jeff to be this hot when wet. Still in shock he handed Jeff the clothes. Jeff chuckled at the sight of Kurt completely speechless, but he took the clothes and thanked him. On his way to the bathroom again, he couldn't help but feel really happy that Kurt was checking him out. He walked into the bathroom and quickly dressed himself, the clothes fit perfectly and Jeff walked back to Kurt. Kurt was now fully dressed, and embarrassed that he had been so obvious. He looked Jeff up and down.
"I cannot believe that you can actually pull that look off. It usually looks really, really bad." He told the other boy. Jeff smiled. "Thanks," he said, looking at his outfit. It was a bit more sloppy and casual than his usual style, but he liked it. Kurt smiled at Jeff. "But hey, if you are ready, maybe we should head back to Dalton? We can catch some breakfast at the Lima Bean, what do you say?" He asked the blonde, still looking him up and down.
"Yeah, that'd be great." Jeff said, "But I don't drink coffee." He admitted. He looked at Kurt. "Have you checked your blood sugar?" A bit worried that something would happen, Jeff asked Kurt. Kurt rolled his eyes and went to get his glucometer. He checked his blood sugar and showed his glucometer to Jeff. Jeff laughed at Kurt's annoyed expression. "That's great! Shall we go Mr Hummel? And may I say that you look extremely handsome today." He said with a wink. Kurt blushed and nodded, biting his lips. The sight of Jeff half naked and wet was burned into his mind, and he cursed himself for checking him out.
'Note to self,' Kurt thought, 'cut yourself as a punishment for checking out your best friend.' They gathered all of their stuff and walked to Kurt's car.
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As planned, they stopped at the Lima Bean. "Hey, can you recommend something?" He asked Kurt, looking up at the coffee chart. Kurt nodded and recommended a drink for Jeff. They ordered their drinks and sat down at a table. Jeff took a sip of his coffee, his frown turning into a smile. "This was actually pretty good!" He told Kurt, fishing his phone out of his pocket. Someone was calling him, and he didn't recognize the number. He answered anyway.
"Hello, this is Jeff?" He said, confused as to why someone would call him.
"Hi, this is Rachel. Rachel Berry." The voice at the other end of the line said.
"Oh, hi Rachel!" Jeff exclaimed, and Kurt raised his eyebrows. Why on earth would Rachel call Jeff?
"I just wondered if you would maybe eat dinner with me tonight?" Rachel asked, and Kurt giggled; he could not imagine Rachel and Jeff as a couple. But Jeff lit up.
"Yeah, I would love to! How about I pick you up at six?"
"That would be great. I'll see you later, Jeff."
"Bye Rachel, see you at six." Jeff said as he hung up.
"I have a date with Rachel!" Jeff exclaimed, looking at Kurt. Kurt did not look happy. "Rachel? Really?" He asked him, why on earth would someone as great as Jeff choose Rachel? "Yes. I think I am in love with her," Jeff confessed. Kurt gaped. Jeff could not be in love with Rachel! "Oh, okay. Tell her I said hi," he said with a fake smile. Jeff frowned at Kurt. "Are you mad?" He asked, afraid that he had done something wrong.
"No. It's just that you can't possibly be in love with someone you have known for a day! You are in love with the alcohol that made the kiss a lot more wonderful than what it was." Kurt nearly barked. Jeff glared at Kurt, getting annoyed with Kurt's attitude.
"Well, how long did it take for you to fall in love with Blaine? Who doesn't even want you? He has Jonathan. And you're nothing like Jonathan, first of all, he's a lot thinner than you." Jeff said, and then he suddenly realized what he had said. Kurt's eyes filled up with tears and he rose up. "I hope you'll find a way to get back to Dalton," he snarled. "I'll lay your clothes on your bed." Then he walked out of the Lima Bean, and Jeff buried his head in his hands. He knew that he'd crossed a line that he shouldn't have crossed.
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Kurt walked into their room at Dalton. He threw Jeff's clothes onto his bed. He knew that he'd annoyed Jeff as well, but there was a big difference in what they'd said to each other. Jeff had crossed a line that was not okay to cross. Lately he had been very self-conscious when it came to his weight, and when Jeff had commented that Jonathan was thinner than him, Kurt's world fell apart. He really trusted Jeff, and he didn't know that the enthusiastic, caring, funny warbler could be so mean when he wanted to. He looked down to see his cuts, and hesitantly he walked into their bathroom.
The razor blade was hidden under the towels, and Kurt went to get it. Once he had found it he locked the door and sat down on the toilet seat. One cut because he was so stupid, one cut because he checked Jeff out, one cut because he was fat. He hid the razor blade again and looked himself in the mirror. He was fat. It didn't take long for him to decide that he was going to shove his fingers down his throat again. After he's brushed his teeth and washed his hands he unlocked the door and walked over to his bed. He lied down and finally let himself break down.
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When the clock was somewhere around nine in the evening, the door opened and Jeff came inside. He sat down on Kurt's bed. The boy was asleep, but Jeff could see that he had been crying. Kurt looked exhausted, and he felt really guilty. "I'm sorry, Kurt," he whispered, stroking his arm. Kurt woke up and looked at Jeff. "Go away," he said hoarsely and turned his back to him. Jeff shook his head. "No. I'm sorry I hurt you, I said something that I never should have said, and I regret it. You're amazing, Kurt. And Blaine is stupid for choosing Jonathan over you." He told Kurt who snorted. "And you were right," Jeff said. Kurt turned around and looked at him. "About what?" Jeff smiled, "About Rachel. She kissed me, and I didn't feel anything. At all. And she was actually quite annoying." He said chuckling, and Kurt chuckled as well. "Told you," he said happily. Jeff mockingly glared at him before grinning like crazy. "You're way too mean, Kurt."
Next chapter: It's time for the Warblers to get sexy. Secrets will be learned, and very uncomfortable talks will be shared.