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Chapter 2
Time stood still. Jane couldn't quite believe what he was seeing. Neither dared to say another word. He went to open his mouth but no words came out - just a million thoughts conveyed between them both in the silence.
God, he'd missed her. Just seeing her standing in front of him made him realise he'd actually missed her immensely. More than friends and certainly more than work colleuges should miss each other. He decided rather than attempt to speak again, he'd make more progress by actually moving towards her. As he did, he noticed Lisbon was breathing quite heavily. She looked up at him, clearly as lost for words as he was.
They stood facing each other, barely half a foot away from the other, searching into the eyes of their opposite. He was happy to stand there forever, gazing into her emerald green eyes, lost in such a tranquility..but he knew, he knew that couldn't be. While he stood there pondering his next move, something happened. Something he didn't expect.
Lisbon flung her arms around him, pulling him into an embrace. He immediately responded. He pulled her into his chest so tightly he crushed her a little.
''What did you do, Jane?''
It was hardly a question, and it was hardly audible. She whispered it into his ear as they stood, still firmly in position. It was her voice, the sheer tone of her voice..the hurt and defeat in her voice that made him realise what he'd done to her. Guilt swept all over him. An emotion that was only present few times in his life - when Red John killed his wife and child, when he heard a former client of his had committed suicide over his fraudulent readings, and now. He'd hurt her so badly. He felt so angry, so sick at himself for doing this to her. She never deserved any of this, and now to top it off he was going to hurt her more by telling her things he'd sworn to himself he never would. It was too much for him. Jane didn't know how or when the tears starting rolling down his cheek, but they did, and they had no intention of stopping. He literally broke down into her, crying into her neck letting his emotions run wild.
''I'm sorry Lisbon. I am so sorry...''
Lisbon was shocked. She'd never seen him like this. So vulnerable. It made it entirely impossible for her to feel anything but sympathy and concern. For some reason she felt protective of him, something that without being in a situation with guns flying everywhere, or in Bertram's office defending him, seemed strange. Lisbon thought it best not to say anything. She didn't want to say it was 'Ok' simply because it wasn't. Instead she guided him over to the bottom bunk of his bed in silence and sat them both down, holding his head tightly to her chest.
This was the last thing they both expected from tonight's visit. Jane physically could not control his emotions anymore. He happily stayed in Lisbon's arms, grateful for the feeling of support and love he got from the feeling of her arms around him.
They'd been together over 20 minutes now and still no more words could be formed from either of them. And then it came, Jane was to open a conversation that had to be finished, one way or another...
''Lisbon'', he said, still tightly wrapped in her arms facing away from her, ''I want to tell you something...''
3rd Chapter coming soon!