I can't do it ok? I can't ruin Romitri. They're far too perfect, real life is enough shit anyway. So, um…here's the last chapter, yes Guardian-Maleficent last chapter XD sorry this isn't going to be a full story I just needed to get some angst out of my head! But that idea of yours was pretty awesome though! Also thanks for the reviews guys I love you.

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Chapter 2.

I don't know how long I sat there, anxiety giving way to panic that surged in my chest. Panic over the fact that my dream had not at all been a dream but a real life thing. It didn't help that I was in bed alone, it made it almost impossible to tell what was real and what was not.

Breathing around the tightness in my chest was damn near impossible, my breaths shallow and erratic. My head was pounding too, and somewhere in the back of my mind I knew I needed to calm down or I was going to pass out. But I couldn't calm down. I was empty safe for the doubts that were filling my head. I had killed him on that bridge that night in Russia, right? These past few years, the ones where he was by my side, the ones where we were happy, had they even been real?

Just then my phone buzzed, more panic filling me because now surely something was wrong. I was sure Lissa was in trouble. I don't know how I managed to uncurl myself to grab it from the bedside table, but damn it I was glad that I had. Because it wasn't Lissa's name that lit up the screen, it was Dimitri's.

He sent a text simply saying that he loved me, but right then, in that moment, I had found the anchor that I needed to keep me from toppling off into that abyss of darkness. The past few years had in fact been real, not some moments of fleeting happiness I had made up in my head. Those nights of endless passion, the wring I wore on my finger, it was all real I realized, my dream was a dream and nothing more. Dimitri wasn't dead. He had been turned, yes, but I had saved him. Lissa had helped me save him.

We were married now. He was just away on guardian business. I really needed to hear his voice though, so I didn't text back, instead I called him.

"Roza, baby," He said answering on the first ring. "What's wrong?" I didn't answer right away, I just closed my eyes, and I focused on my breathing. In and out, out and in, slow, deep breaths. Over and over until I could again breathe normally, until my heart slowed. And the whole time Dimitri was saying my name, asking if I was ok.

"Fine," I said finally, trying to sound like I hadn't just been sobbing. "I'm fine." I should have known however, that he would see through my bullshit. He always did.

Dimitri and I had that kind of connection that was beautiful but also weird, because he somehow could always tell when something was wrong whether he was here or not. I knew it wasn't co-incidence that made him send me that message, knew it was because in some way that I had no explanation for, he felt it. But still, I didn't want him to worry about me.

"Let's try this again," He said, voice soft and calm. "And this time please don't lie to me. What's wrong?" I sighed softly and laid back on the bed.

"Nothing that you need to worry about." I said.

"Rose," He said and ok I was in trouble. "Never say that to me again. Please tell me what's wrong love." I sighed again at the worry I heard in his voice.

"Just a bad dream," I said finally. "I just had a bad dream. I'm ok now."

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked and I shook my head forgetting that he couldn't see me. "I'm here to listen if you want you know."

"No," I said softly. "I don't want to talk about it. It's not important anymore."

"Anything that's enough to upset you is important to me baby you know that." He said exasperatedly.

"I know but please I really don't want to talk about it. I just…" I sighed a bit and snuggled with a pillow. "I just miss you."

"I miss you too my love," He said. "Every single second that I'm away from you. But don't worry baby I'll be home soon." I nodded and closed my eyes a small smile on my lips.

"Love me?" I asked softly.

"You know I do." He said.

"Tell me how much?" I asked snuggling more with the pillow.

"More than life itself." He said seriously.

"More than your John Wane novels?" I asked giggling a bit.

"Definitely more than them," He said and I could hear the smile in his voice. "You are my heart baby. You give my life meaning with that fiery passion and quick wit." I let myself relax, let the sound of his voice wash away all the panic and fear from earlier.

"Tell me about your day," I said groggily. He did, and as he talked to me, I felt my eyes droop, sleep already threatening to pull me under. I wanted to fight it just so that I could stay up and talk to him, but I was tired, my body was after all the crying I had done. Not only that, but Dimitri's voice was more soothing than any lullaby. Something I knew he knew, especially when he was talking in that calm tone of his. I closed my eyes, his voice in my ear making me feel safe and secure once again. And as I surrendered to sleep, it was to dreams of the future we could have. The future we were going to have.

Better ending, right? So can I have some love for this please and thank you? Drop me some reviews guys and remember that I still need holiday themed story requests. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, cause I don't know, you live under a rock somewhere or you're new, I've got a holiday one shot collection and I really, really need to write, so any ideas would be greatly appreciated.

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Roza