Meredith sat and waited, waited for Derek to call her and tell her that everything would be ok and that he would leave Addison and that her pain would go away. But that never happened, he never called her, he never took her pain away, he left her stranded wanting more.
You don't get to call me a whore. When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done!
He let her go the moment her called her a whore, it was like her newly built heart was shattered into a thousand tiny pieces and all the hope of Derek coming back to her was gone, he was gone.
You left me. You chose Addison. …..I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don't get to call me a whore.
The conversation that was shouted out between him and Addison was still fresh on her mind. Did he really wish that Addison was her?
Maybe what I should do is go out on a date with the vet, because that seems to be something that sends you into a blinding rage. Oh, but wait. That won't work either because I'm not Meredith Grey.
She sat there looking at the box of memories that he had left behind when his wife came.
She look at the photo album of them that he had gotten her as a birthday present weeks before Addison decided to show up.
Her particular favourite picture, was when the were on the ferry boat with the rest of the group, Izzie was being all perky when she saw the two of them standing kissing and cuddling so she decide to take snapshots of this and they ended up in this album.
No one knew the secret pain that Meredith went through everyday, wishing hoping that Derek would come home to her…
No one new.
All of Meredith thoughts were interrupted when Cristina came barging through her door.
"Ok, why is it dark in here and why does it smell like Mc Dreamy," She blurted out
What she had not seen was the redness of Meredith's eyes and her puffy cheeks from all the tears she had let fall.
"He called me a whore, all of the hope I had is now gone, every chance I thought I had is gone." Meredith cried.
"Oh," was all Cristina could get out, for once in her life Cristina Yang was speechless.
Cristina had stayed with Meredith that night, afraid that have a breakdown. So she slept in the same bed and at 3am she was awoken by the gentle sobs of Meredith, Her body lay there shivering and letting out all of her emotion all Cristina could do was hug her.
Meredith had to be at the hospital by 5am, she was awoken by the shrill sound of her alarm. She got up and head for the shower. As the roasting water hit her body she let out a sigh.
She wished that water would wash away all her pain and sorrow, she wished it would. But instead of standing and feeling sorry for herself she decided that today was a new day and that this would be the day that Derek shepherd would not even be a blip on her radar.