Chapter Two

RE CAP: She straddled my lap, "Then tell me who you are... or were, I want to know everything." She stared intently at me.

I sighed wondering where I would start…

"Alice believe me when I tell you, you don't want to know" I couldn't look her in the eyes at this point. I needed to get out of here. Now.

Alice sighed, "Jasper…" she began before I quickly interjected "Listen, I have some things to do tonight. Get some more room service, a movie—whatever you want… I'll see you in the morning." I held her soft fragile cheek in my hand for a brief moment before walking out the door.

You're an asshole, I told myself as I hailed a taxi to take me to a high-class club where I knew I would be able to score some coke.

I managed to buy my way into the Agoura Hills country Club. I sat at the bar and eyed up the waitress as she worked.

"What can I get you?" she asked as she scooped ice into a glass and added vodka.

"Whiskey on ice" I said as I thought about how much my parents, particularly Peter would like this club and the waitresses.

I looked at the bartender more closely, she was sexy as hell. She was average height with a smooth pale complexion that complimented her green eyes and wavy blonde hair. Her name tag said Rachel and she also had a great tits.

"Can I ask you a question, Rachel? " I asked, as I took a gulp of the whiskey I relished in the thought of having more.

Rachel smiled, "sure"

That's when I decided to go the cliché route, "what time are you off?" I hated myself.

"I'm here until last call" she said frowning pouty.

I didn't have time to wait around for her, "how much do I have to pay someone to cover the rest of your shift" I said opening my wallet.

She looked shocked for a moment before whispering "are you serious?"

I laughed, "Yes, I want to buy you a drink you're beautiful." Rachel blushed as she called someone, a manager type looking man came over and gave me a napkin with a number on it.

I put 2,500 dollars on the bar and finished my drink, "you coming?" I asked Rachel as I stood up to leave. She came from out of the bar and laughed grabbing onto my upper arm.

I let Rachel take me to a few different bars in town. Most of them were the average blue collar type of bar but I didn't mind. I learned that the city of Agoura Hills had some potent drugs. As I crushed up a couple lines for Rachel and I. She told me about her cat who died recently, but, I wasn't actually listening I got annoyed by girls who were high, they talked too much. All I could think about was doing another line and forgetting I had a beautiful amazing girl in a hotel room a few hours ago and how I had fucked it all up in one night.

We went back to Rachel's apartment where we finished the bag of coke I'd bought. I was bullet proof at this point. Nothing could bring me down. I began kissing Rachel as she quickly removed my pants and slipped off her skirt and underwear. She moaned into my ear as I kissed her body removing her blouse and bra.

"I want you so badly" she moaned.

I was suddenly bored and sober.

I put my clothes back on and left without saying a word. I decided to walk back to the hotel, I took the time from the walk to think about what I would tell Alice. I was too high to see her. I prayed she would be asleep.

I got back around four am Alice was asleep and a beautiful jumble of hair and small tanned limbs tangled in sheets on a bed three times too big for her. I took a pillow she wasn't using from the bed and an extra blanket in a drawer and laid on the couch as my heart felt like it was aching, thinking of Alice and what I did with Rachel tonight. I'd never felt guilty before, especially, not with any of my past relationships. I was such a bastard.