CHAP. 2 - CONTROL?

BPOV

I looked into Carlisle's eyes as he stitched up my wound. The fight had been fast and destructive. I don't know how they managed to subdue Jasper but they accomplished it.

Emmett was missing part of his arm, Rosalie- some of her fingers, Alice's clothes were ripped, guess her gift came in handy, Esme's hand was missing at the wrist, and Edward's face was cracked. I don't know how they avoided getting bitten.

The downstairs of the house was trashed. It almost looked like a tornado had formed in the living room.

"Carlisle, is everyone going to be okay?" I asked worried. "I'm so sorry. I should have been more careful. " I said looking down at my shoes.

"Yes everyone is going to be okay Bella. They just need blood. That's why I sent everyone hunting." He paused and lifted my chin so I would meet his gaze and he reassured me. "It isn't your fault. This situation was going to occur at some point in time- it was expected. It already has happened, with James." Carlisle explained as he stitched.

I sat there numb, staring at my shoes again. What I didn't understand was why Jasper reacted so horribly to just one drop of blood. When we were in Pheonix it was practicly painted on the walls and floor. I mean, it wasn't as if it was an emotion, was it? And how could Alice not have seen it?

"Carlisle, when your thirsty- would it be considered? I-I mean it's blood-lust right? It is an emotion, isn't it?" I asked. I looked up to see Carlisle freeze.

"Isn't it?" I asked again.

"I don't know Bella. I never thought about it like that, I never realized it could be until you asked me. I will ask Jasper what he thinks and how it effects him when we are around him after he returns." He stated worried.

"Also, Carlisle, why didn't Alice see what would happen? Shouldn't she be able to predict something like this, especially when she can predict the stock market - when that's even less reliable?" I asked as I watched Carlisle put my bloodied bandages and needle in a bowl and light it on fire.

"You're coming up with very good questions Bella and it seems that I..." Carlisle started to say as he lit the bowl on fire when he was interrupted by Edward knocking on the door of his study and walking in.

"Carlisle are you done with Bella? It's getting late and I need to get her home to Charlie. Alice is calling him right now letting him know that she had an accident and will be home with some stitches." He read Carlisle's mind and turned to me "Love, Esme is upstairs in my room with a change of clothes for you. Hurry up I don't want to get you in trouble."

"Where's Jasper and the rest of the family?" I want to see Jasper and tell him I don't blame him for what happened. "Plus.." I started to say when he interrupted me.

"I don't think that's a good idea, Love. Alice is with him right now, and everyone else is fixing the mess the fight caused downstairs. You can talk to everyone tomorrow." He turned to the other side of the desk I was perched on, while Carlisle stitched up my arm, and helped me down. I turned to Carlisle and said," Will you think about what I asked you and tell Jasper I would like to speak to him if he is up to it tomorrow?" Edward was towing me out of the room when I pulled against him and turned back to Carlisle and smiled while I said," By the way Carlisle, thank you. You're by far the best doctor I've ever had."

Carlisle smiled back and nodded. Edward grabbed my upper arm again and started to pull me out the door and upstairs. It almost felt like he was cutting off my conversation with his father. His hand was a little tight on my arm and as I was about to tell him to loosen up his grip on my arm he suddenly let go and apologized profusely for grabbing me so hard. He took a step back and told me," Go change Bella. I'll wait for you downstairs." He turned and walked back down the stairs. He seemed like he didn't want me questioning what was going on.