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Oct 16, 2012

~what's a lie?~

Dear Diary,

You should consider it a privilege that I allow you to bear witness to my personal thoughts. In fact, consider yourself blessed by Kami-sama.

However I have a question for you, one you may not be able to answer.

What is a lie?

I sometimes wonder if the things I conjure up in my head are real or just foolish wishes, small lies if you will.

For instance, do I merely wish I was still helplessly in love with my ex boyfriend, or do I still actually love him? (How many times will I continue to drag up this old topic?) It is obnoxious that I cannot even tell the difference anymore. Is it because I lie to myself and others so often?

What does the word lie really mean? It shapes our entire culture, our entire world, yet it's considered a bad thing to do.

Do some take the word more lightly than others? If someone were to read this and ponder what I mean when I say I lie to myself, would they mistake the statement for being severe mind boggling truths waiting to be discovered? Or just too many little white lies?

I myself like to think it's a healthy mixture of both but who am I to say? I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if I overthink things. It must be better than underthinking but that is like asking if its better to be naive than all to aware.

We lie all the time. It's apart of our daily lives. We do it to fit in, to become just a bit more appealing in other's eyes. We say its just a bit of an exaggeration, practicing using hyperboles if you will. Deep down inside though, we know it's wrong. We will sill do it.

Parents teach kids not to lie. No that's the wrong way to phrase that. Parents tell their kids not to lie. That's advice that will never truly be taken to heart.

I want to say that lying is wrong and that we should try to incorporate honesty into our society more but who am I to be the judge of that? Lying can just as easily save lives as it can destroy them. Honestly, I probably wouldn't be able to continue on without lying.

I'm not really sure how that makes me feel.

I don't know, just some food for thought.

With love,

~Sakura~