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Nothin goes as planned
Everything will break
It had been exactly 7 hours, 31 minutes and 8 seconds since she had sex with Klaus. Not that she was counting or anything, but there was moistness gathering in her lower abdomen once again that night and she couldn't keep her mind off it.
Once she got home, she felt guilt. And it wasn't that 'Omg what if I hurt Stefan?' kind of guilt, it was the kind of guilt that she felt paralyzed (crippled) with remorse, the kind where she was blindly walking through out the house, clutching her left breast where her heart was (after tonight, did she even have one?) the kind where you snap at your little brother and then continue to break down in his arms as he held you to him, worrying that something happened to you, that someone broke your heart (he didn't know she was doing the breaking).
She felt dirty, like she had sex with a wolf or their worst enemy. She snorts, because that was exactly what she had done.
Disgusted with herself, she scrubbed her body repeatedly until it bled, scratched marring her stomach and all healing just as fast as they appeared. She liked the pain, she realized. After feeling so numb these past couple of months, she finally felt like she could feel, and ironically, the fast pooling blood beneath her feet (the exact one that was going down the shower drain) made her feel alive.
(It was probably his blood that made her feel that way.)
And there it was again, blood.
Five letters, one word and thousands of different meanings. Once she thought of the warm, burgundy liquid slowly dripping down her throat, the images of them on the forest floor returned. Bodies joint, lips dancing with each other and furious thrusts-
Breathe.
By the time she left the shower, the water had turned cold and it was already 6 a.m. Looks like she would have to go to school either way. Just because there was a vampire hunter and a nasty case of (blonde) bitch strutting around the school grounds didn't mean that she was missing her Senior Year. Connor can't do anything to her and Rebekah is a lonely bitch with no one that cares about her which suited Elena just fine. After all the bullshit she had caused, she deserved it.
People say goodbye
In their own special way
After what had happened (after what they have done), she knew she needed to tell Stefan. Damon would kill her and she wouldn't blame him. What if everyone turned on her? It was ridiculous because Stefan and Damon had done worse than her and everyone still loved dear St. Stefan. Damon was his own person and his personality was one of a kind but he sure as hell wasn't innocent.
Klaus on the other hand, (she had thought he was pure evil) was completely different from both of them. Elena guessed he was kind of her bittersweet escape from the arms of the Salvatore's.
With shaky fingers, she got dressed in a white habit top. She buttoned the buttons slowly and put on her favorite necklace, the one hanging on a black chain with a silver key as a pendant. She still remembered Matt giving it to her just before she lost her virginity to him at some junior party. The next thing she put on was a floosy, burgundy skirt that reached her knees but the hem only covered her upper thighs, the flowing material being see through. When she finished doing her hair (side pony tail) she quickly applied light make-up and put on her black ankle boots along with her washed denim jacket which she had gotten over the summer at one of her shopping trips with Caroline. Who cares if it was last season? It looked good on her. Seeing as she had forty minutes left before she had to get to school, she quickly coated her fingernails with see-through fingernail polish and the grabbed her bag. Just before she exited the house, she sent a quick text to Stefan, asking him to see her.
All that you rely on
And all that you can fake
The only way she wouldn't be able to continuously hurt him more each day was if she was honest with him. She loved him but ever since he had left with Klaus last year, it just hadn't been working. Their time had passed and she loved all that they had been through together but the only way to make him happy was to let him go. He may not have realized it yet, but it really was. He should be free, once and for all.
"Elena," he was directly behind her, and even though his voice made her heart skip a beat, she knew she couldn't keep this a secret. "What's wrong? What happened last night."
Tears gathered in her eyes and she spun around, facing the man she loved above anything else. "Stefan, I know that we've been trying to make it work-"
"Elena-"
"Wait, I need to tell you something . And you won't like it."
He took her hand and led her to the nearest bench. She tried to ignore the uncomfortable feeling of his hand in hers.
(What had happened to her?)
"Whenever I feed on someone, I get all these feelings and I just want more and I can't help it."
Stefan nodded and patiently pressed her to continue. "I know."
"And then last night when Klaus fed me his blood, I felt more alive than ever-" she tried to ignore the hurt look on Stefan's face as she continued. "So when I left, I went looking for more. And then he let me feed off him again and I kind of let him feed off-"
"You had sex with him." It wasn't a question, she realized, it was more of an accusation.
Elena nodded miserably and then faced him again. "If I could, I would take it all back."
Stefan stared at her for a couple of seconds, his face blank and his body rigid. "No you wouldn't."
Will leave you in the morning
But find you in the day
Elena released a shaky breath, shaking her head. "I think, that before we move forward, that I should just deal with this first. Being a vampire, I mean. I should just do it on my own. I think it would be best."
Stefan was still watching her, visible hurt in his green eyes. "I know what it's like to crave for more blood, and I know what it's like when things get out of hand when it makes you attracted to someone. I don't blame you for that. I know for a fact that if you weren't under the influence of blood, you would never sleep with him."
Elena's heart swelled, the understanding part of Stefan made her want to hug him, take back all of those memories from last night and beg him to take her back but then she remembered what she had said the night before.
It was time to let him go. It wasn't fair of her to keep his wings tied up like that.
"I will always love you, Stefan. And in the end, if we were truly meant to be together, we'll find our way back to each other. I know that we will."
Except, she wasn't so sure anymore.
She swept through the school day on auto pilot, and sometime between Stefan watching her carefully and Rebekah saying something, she snapped.
"So, Rebekah, did Klaus heal you? Because he came over last night and healed me even though I'm apparently not useful to me anymore. Does it hurt knowing that he prefers me over you, just like everybody else?"
From that point on, Rebekah had shut up and purposely began talking to April who had begun being friends with the blonde original. It annoyed Elena to no end, and she had promised herself a bottle of scotch once she got to the Grille after school.
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
She shivered once she entered the Grille, all the pulses and heartbeats making it almost impossible to focus. Alcohol was her escape and so she walked forward and closer to the bar, where Matt already started his shift. Without saying anything, he handed her a glass and filled it up with scotch, sending her a soft smile when he noticed the necklace she was wearing. She sent him a smile back and relaxed in her seat, thinking of the crazy day she had.
Matt had let her drink from him and she healed him afterwards. She still hadn't seen Damon since yesterday when she was looking for the white oak stake and he had tried to seduce her by slowly stripping in front of her. She didn't deny the growing feelings for Damon, but she knew that as soon as she gave in, it would end badly.
(And she had already done enough to break Damon and Stefan apart.)
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
"Well hello there, love."
Ugh. Great.
He took the spot next to her and spared a heated look which made goosebumps erupt on her olive skin.
"What are you doing here?" she asked him. Technically, she didn't have a right; this was a public bar.
"Getting a few drinks. Why so curious?"
She rolled her eyes and tried not to show how affected she was by his rough voice. His blood pumped beneath his skin and his steady heartbeat drummed in her ears. Elena released a shaky breath and gripped the edge of her seat to try and gain control of her emotions. Almost ironically, she saw him smile out of the corner of her eyes and she clenched her jaw, slamming her glass down on the wooden bar table. Matt looked up surprised and she sent him an apologetic smile as she ran for the Ladies Restroom.
Once she reached the sink, she splashed her face with cold water and looked up, seeing the demonic face return again. She tried in vain to think of something else but her senses were once again driving her crazy.
Everything will change
Nothin stays the same
And nobody here's perfect
Oh but everyones to blame
Elena gripped the edge of the sink for support and closed her eyes, releasing a few shaky breaths as she tried to gain control again. She heard the thumps of hearts all around her and she growled under her nose, feeling her fangs coming out.
The doorknob turned and she rushed to lock it but she was too late and unwillingly let him walk in.
He stared at her for a couple of seconds and at her quickly changing face and rushed to her, crushing her face painfully as he pressed his lips to hers. She tried to fight him, tried to fight the urge to rip his clothes off but gave up when he forcefully opened her mouth with his tongue. Her resolve broke and she pushed him against the door, locking it and letting him set her legs around his hips.
Klaus thrust his hips against hers and she moaned at the contact, her skin heating up as he let his lips wonder down her neck and just above her pulse. He didn't bite (as much as she wanted him to) her but moaned as he began sucking on the gentle skin there, drawing the blood nearer to the surface. He buckled his hips again and her hands wondered down to his jeans, knowing that they couldn't take their time in here. She unbuttoned his jeans and he released a shaky breath, making her smirk against his shoulder. His finger played with the hem of her skirt and he pulled it up in vampire speed.
All that you rely on
And all that you can save
Will leave you in the morning
And find you in the day
He ripped her panties off and parted her legs farther apart. When he lifted her off the counter, she wrapped her legs around him again and let him push her against the nearest wall.
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
He entered her in one swift motion and continued his rough and fast thrusts as he rested his forehead against her bare shoulder. Her fingers tugged at his soft hair and she moaned continuously, clenching her muscle around his thrusts sped up. Her back slammed back into the wall with each thrust but she didn't mind, for once welcoming the pain and pleasure that was gradually building up her climax.
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out.
Elena heard him murmur her name over and over again as his body began shaking around hers. He placed a lazy kiss on her neck again and nipped at it slightly, releasing some blood. She was about to protest (no blood sharing remember?) but the undeniable pleasure shook her to the core.
No I cannot get you out
No I cannot get you out
She clenched her muscles around him one more time and he basically shattered before her eyes, his eyes clenching tightly and his fingertips digging into her skin harshly. She hissed at the pain and allowed herself to reach her own peak, whimpering as she shook around him.
Elena's tongue swept the excess blood around his lips and he pressed a kiss to hers. A small smirk build up on his lips and Elena found herself smiling back. Once he set her on her feet, she tried not to blush when she couldn't find her underwear. When Klaus finally gave in, he took them out of his pocket and dangled them on his fingertips.
"Ugh, give them back."
Everything is dark
It's more than you can take
But you catch a glimpse of sun light
Shinin, down on your face
He did as he was ordered and followed her out of the bathroom, making sure no one saw them together. Elena retook her seat at the bar table and Klaus followed, a lazy smile on his lips.
Matt walked over to them and watched them warily before facing Elena and smiling.
"So, Elena, what did you get up to last night?"
Oh God.
Klaus chuckled slightly and then turned the other way as Matt's eyes searched his.
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out.
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