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A Love Beyond Control

By: Konako

It had been years after the battle against Galaxia and it genuinely felt as though peace came to stay. All the scouts began engaging in things they each enjoyed and began living their own dreams. Usagi couldn't be happier for them. She promised she was fine whenever the scouts found her excluded of a lot of things, even if it did make her feel left out. Usagi figured it was time for her to start preparing to rule Crystal Tokyo in the near future. After many attempts of pulling her cute immature habits behind her, she finally grew the self discipline she lacked and began doing things to strengthen herself in every possible way.

Mamoru and Usagi couldn't be any happier, actually they could but their relationship was just beginning to stabilize itself. Chibiusa hadn't payed them a visit ever since the incident with Nehelenia. And Mamoru didn't return to America, or at least not yet he had said to himself. He still carried a strong desire to go but after all the trouble they had gone through he didn't want to leave Usagi for now. The idea wasn't lost, he was an intellectual man he enjoyed expanding his mind more than anything. One day..

Healer and Maker were cheerfully restoring their planet along with their princess. Fighter on the other hand wasn't pepped up much. After they had returned from Earth, Fighter's spirit slowly began to decay. She helped her planet, a lot, but she didn't speak much, she even hid her body under a dark cloak as if repulsed by it.

Sailor Star Fighter isolated herself in a dark room everyday when there was no duty assigned to her. Her heart and mind weren't the same anymore and the thought that her life didn't seem to have any purpose anymore ate at her. She starred down at her chest and hissed.

Fighter starred outside her window, she didn't look over her word, no she gazed out into the stars feeling the power within them. Feeling their warmth and their potential.

Dark brows furrowed. Ever since she could remember she felt something strange within her. Some potential she could never unlock but knew lived inside of her.

"I wonder why I always feel like this... watching over the stars... like it's my responsibility?.." At first she assumed the rest of the star lights felt the same way but as she grew she felt that kind of over protective feeling grow stronger. Lately though, the sensation kept intensifying at shocking rate. Not giving it much thought he ignored it and kept it to herself.

Healer and Maker interrupted her thoughts by rushing inside her room.

"Fighter!" They somewhat panted, "the princess is on her way. Drop that asshole attitude for a few minutes and don't hurt-"

"Healer, Maker, I need to speak with Fighter… alone" her gentle eyes pointed at the door.

Both nodded and shot a threatening look at Fighter on their way out.

Fighter returned to looking out the window, feeling completely unmoved by their threats.

She remained still and quiet, returning to synchronizing herself to the shinning stars once again, feeling the depths of their light.

Kakyuu's fists were balled up in front of her, starring at the ground, she searched for the corrects words to say.

"Fighter.." her tone was soft, frightened even.

Fighter blinked, exiting her trance, she knew she felt compassion for her princess but up to years which had felt like eternity of being in a hell hole, the will just left her.

"…" she breathed out, "our people keep questioning me about you. "What's wrong with fighter? Why is she different? Why is she lifeless?" It breaks my heart, frankly th-"

"That I'm failing you as a servant?" The dark haired woman interrupted.

"No! That you've turned like this! I hate having to fake a smile and lie to them. I love you Fighter more than anything! Please do this for me, come.." Kakyuu took Fighter's hand. "- With me, just once. Socialize with everyone, we miss our sweet, goofy Fighter." Kakyuu blinked a few times clearing her blurry vision.

Fighter's brows furrowed.

"You're just not here anymore! You help here and there but without a word, without an expression, and then you come back here and lock yourself in the darkness! All by yourself! I thought you would like to be alone for a while but this is- …I can't stand it anymore!"

The deep ocean blue eyes widened, she had never heard her princess go that hysterical. She really was an asshole.

"Princess.." Fighter walked up to her and caressed her wet, smooth cheekbone. She leaned down and kissed the tears on her face which she had caused.

"I'm sorry I'm an idiot.. I'm weak." His eyes darkened. "I'm embarrassed of how weak I am. I should get over all this already but I'm a weak bastard. I feel, I feel embarrassed of my body, I know that sounds absurd but deep in this heart I know that this isn't where I belong. I feel like a prisoner in here and-" Her eyes drowned in sorrow and she gritted her teeth in agitation.

"I don't mind serving you. I love you Princess but deep inside my soul nothing feels right here.. I feel lost and so ..so" she began panting as she felt the tears beginning to accumulate.

"And her…" Fighter grunted and punched the wall. "These stupid feelings that I can't get out of my head! I thought I'd start new again, get her out of my god damn mind as you and I , Healer and Maker built our lovely planet back to how it belongs. Since we fought Galaxia my heart has been burning, like it needs to be unleashed of a power I'm unaware of. Something about her makes something inside of me start pulsating a feeling I can't even control."

Fighter was drenched in tears, she was pouring everything she was holding inside of her to her princess. It was a lot of accumulated emotion that it just came out jumbled and confused. She felt pathetic, but it felt good to let something out, what she could at least.

" I thought I could manage but I failed, I'm so sorry, I guess I'm not as strong as I brag. I just..I want to die..It sickens me that I feel so pathetic and embarrassed of myself for a reason I don't even understand. Since when the hell am I such a pansy? All this going on inside me is too much and I can't grow the fuck up! I'm a disgrace aren't I? Please princess set me free, from my own misery. Please…" the sobbing strengthened.

"I can't do this anymore…princess..I need her, and I don't have the face to look at her after how sick I make myself.. please, rip this heart out.."

"Fighter" Kakyuu slapped her as hard as she could, this was absolutely absurd. How could she ask such a thing. It broke her heart to pieces so see someone she loved so much in such state but this wasn't Fighter, death never a way out. "Don't ever say that again." For the first time Kakyuu's tone was more of a threat than an order.

Kakyuu grabbed Fighter's arm pulling her against herself. Fighter's eyes widened when she realized they're lips had met. It felt odd, like a lot of emotion behind it. It almost felt like a good bye. Figher was stuck between getting slapped and getting kissed and figuring out what expression was suitable for having that done in no less than a few seconds.

Kakyuu had taken Fighter's first kiss as a goodbye to both her and the feelings she felt for Fighter. She realized that letting her go was the best thing to do. It wasn't safe but she couldn't keep her here forever.

With the kiss, the Starlights brooch shattered and the light dimmed. Seiya looked at it and then to his body.

"You're free, Seiya."

"I can't tell him about his past.. I can't tell him what I know. It's too dangerous.. But… I'm sorry Tomoko. I just can't stand to see him like this…
Perhaps I'm the weakest ruler of all...