chapter 2
The Deep Depression
Well it has been five months later and Edward still hasn't approved of me liking Jacob. But it doesn't really matter like I ever listen to him. My dad has been riding my back about me being friends with a ware-wolf not like he can really do anything no one controls me. But my mom doesn't really care what I do as long as I don't get a disease then we're good. I keep reading Jacobs mind and he just keeps on giving me complements for some reason. Tori is still thinking that Paul is cute I still can not believe that I have not puked yet but i sware if they go out then i bet i will. And Edward and Bella are still going strong as always. I also still don't Edward at all and Edward does not like at we are just being cool for Bella because she does not have a clue and we are trying to keep it like that. Well the weekend went by fast as always, Edward drove a Lexus and of course I had to have the best car ever which is the Mustang so I drove Tori to school with me like always and I saw Jacob as got into 1st period Physics and as always we kept on sitting together because I kind-of am in a click I guess you could say that. and Jacob sat next to me and Tori and Paul sat together and Bella and Edward did was still kind-of slow me and Jacob were just flirting even though we we're dating but still we did not later it was time to go and Jacob followed me home and we got in my house and he said that he need's to talk to me and I said starting saying that he has to go away and that he would not be coming back and I looked at him very upseting trying not to get mad even though I have anger problems and i stood there and did not say anything I just speechless. Then I said WHAT! really loud and tears were rolling down my face I tried to hold them back but I could not help it. Then Jacob told me again the same thing and I said I heard what you said the first time you said it and he said oh you do not have to yell and I tried not to hit him but it was really hard but still managed not to. Soon I asked him why was he leaving and i asked if i could come and he never told why he's leaving and he said no that you have to stay here and then as soon as I was about to say something he left and I just fell to the ground crying for like 24 hours and my sister Tori was getting worried so she came and looked for I was already gone back to the house and I just sat home crying in my room did come out. My sis knocked but she did not get no answer and thought I was dead but she opened the door trying to talk to me and I did not answer so she got Edward to read her mind so she could find out what was going on with me and Edward said that Jacob left her and she is in a very deep depression next day went to school sat by myself and I could tell that Tori, Bella were really sad and very upset that I would not talk to them and of course Edward was so fucking happy him leaving me of course and soon I kept hearing Jacob's voice in my head I tried ignoring it but was not able to he kept saying don't do nothing reckless and of course I said ok because he would be really mad if he did but that's what I should have done but i wasnt trying to die.