Hey so this is the first chapter I hope you like it . I wrote this just as a way to give some filling to the story and Cersei and Jaime specifically. The next few chapters are pre-show too.

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Cersei and Jaime always had a connection. In every way, shape or form they were alike. When they were children, before Cersei developed, they would even change places and pretend to be the other so Cersei could get out of boring sowing classes.

So, to them, it wasn't surprising when they developed a more romantic love in their pre-teens. It wasn't surprising to them.

But then they realized that even though it seemed normal to them, to their father or the rest of the people around them, it didn't seem so normal. So they kept it a secret.

They were four and ten when it happened the first time. When they were both man and woman.

It was over a year later when Tywin first commented with them about Cersei's betrothal.

He had come back to the Rock from kingslanding where he served as hand of the king, to check on things and see how his family estate was. One night at dinner, he announced that the alliance by marriage of houses Targaryen and Lannister was confirmed. The contracts were signed, the public announcements were being prepared, and Cersei – the bride – was to start preparing her dress and wedding cloak.

It was always known that the day would come when Cersei would be married off. Since she was a child, she knew that if everything went as her father wanted she would be the queen of the seven kingdoms. She would marry Rhaegar and bear his royal children. She would leave Castely Rock. Leave Jaime.

Tywin continued as if he didn't just seal his daughters fate for the rest of her life, and little Tyrion chimed in every once and a while to give his 'scholar opinion' – as he like to say because of the quantity of books in his room – about practically everything. Jaime and Cersei sat quietly thinking about how they would manage from now on, only talking when asked questions and even then the answers were either quiet or uninterested.

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Cersei stopped in front of the doors of her bedchambers, her twin had escorted her, but there were guards walking behind them so they hadn't been able to talk about the new 'alliance'.

"leave us" she told the guards

"But we are under orders fro-"

"I don't care who's orders your under, you are my guard and answer to me. And in any case nothing will happen to me – my brother is here" The young lady said confidently.

"yes of course" the guard said leading all of them away.

She opened the door to her chamber and walked in looking forward, still with the superior look on her face and her chin high, as she always was in everybody's presence – of course everybody but Jaime.

She waited to hear the door close to signify that he had entered but after some silent seconds, she asked "Aren't you coming in?"

"Your going to be queen."

"Yes."

"You seem very calm."

"I am calm. It was always a desired match, we have known all our life's about this. And if we're going to talk about this – please come in, someone could hear" She said it all slowly and calmly but the last part was a mare whisper.

It mattered not. Jaime heard her and come in closing the door behind him. She then proceeded to walk towards her bedroom door at the end of the common area of her chambers. Her brother followed.

The girl started to remove her bracelets, necklaces and earrings.

Her shoes came off – which made her shrink a few inches – and her long, blond waves were braided. All the while Jaime stood by the door and watched. It bothered Cersei that he wasn't saying anything.

"You're the one who wanted to talk. So talk"

"I don't understand how you're so alright with this. He is the son of a king who is mad!"

"And?" She said indifferently with her back still to him

"And?!?" Jaime screamed "And your alright with this? With marring him?" He walked toward her "I know this arrangement has been intended all our life's, but its one thing to be intended and another to be confirmed! And now what? You're just going to let yourself be sold like this? Your just going to leave?!"

Cersei turned to face him showing him what he had not noticed. The tears being contained in her eyes

"What am I supposed to do? Do you think I do not know all of this?" She said exhausted. "But my life has always been this. This was the reason I was born. It's the only reason men have daughters! So they can sell their own blood in exchange for power, money or titles! For names and families and alliances in case of war! Do you not remember how many hours I had to endure of sowing classes, dancing lessons or reading the damn Seven-Pointed Star!"

Jaime was taken aback by the display of emotion. His sister was never like this, she was always put together, always the perfect daughter, perfect lady, perfect woman.

"Cer, I'm sorry." He said opening his arms to embrace his sister.

They stayed like that for a few seconds.

"We will figure it out. I won't leave you. You won't leave me. We will always be together. Us." As he looked into her eyes and said the words, he knew he would do anything to always be with her. "I Love You Cersei you know that. And that will never change" And he kissed her. Sweetly capturing her bottom lip between his. And she felt it.

She felt every drop of his love and she wondered how could anyone, anyone, tell them this is wrong. This thing that could not feel more right. They were half of the same, they came into the world together and they would face it together.

"I love you too." She said when they broke apart. "and I will never leave you and you will never leave me" This time it was her who initiated the kiss, already starting more roughly.

And as the night went on they repeated the promises into each other's skin.

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The next morning Cersei woke up in Jaime's arms. His chest was against her bare back and she could feel his heartbeat. She turned in his arms and snuggled back in. Just the thought that she will never have moments like this again...

Her thoughts were interrupted by knocking on the door.

"Lady Cersei" the voice of one of her handmaidens - Claudia - rang though the rooms and through her bedroom door. "I was told to send for you milady. Lord Lannister wants to have breakfast with his children."

'Oh seven hells' she thought

"I'm coming!" Cersei shouted back. She heard footstep fade and a door close.

"Jaime you must to wake up" she shook her brother "You must go back to your room" He started to open his eye slowly.

"Cer, let me sleep for The seven gods sake!"

"No It's late morning and my handmaiden has come to wake me up already! Soon they'll come in, and you'll still be in my bed? Is that what you want?" She said

"Well would it really be a bad thing?!" Jaime was tiered of hiding, of having this secret – it was exhausting.

Being with her is exhausting.

"Jaime have you gone mad?" Cersei asked actually considering the possibility of mental breakdown for her brother.

"No Cersei I haven't gone mad." The heir to cately rock said sitting up "but I've grown tired of this" he said "this hidding, sneaking."

"Alright then." The girl sat up in bed and Swung her leg of the edge to leave the bed – with nothing covering her body. She picked up she shift from the floor where it was discarded last night. "I am to marry Rheagar anyway. I expect you can show yourself out Of my bedchambers." She said it coldly, clinically.

"Your a hateful woman you know that?" Her bother stated and she couldn't say it didn't hurt – but she couldn't disagree. He stood up from the bed – also fully naked – and walked up to her. She had turned her back on him already. "But that's not what I meant." He turned her to face him "stop pushing me away. I'm not going anywhere. Yes I am tired. Yes I wish we could tell people. Yes I wish I was the one one marrying you. And yes it is frustrating to have to love you like this!" He exclaimed. "But I'll have to make do."

"You know I always wanted to be queen?"

"What?" Jaime was confused. There he was declaring how he felt and – she wanted to me queen?

"Yes. Remember when we were younger and father started seriously saying how I would marry a prince? And be queen? Father made it seem dream like." Her gaze want on him, Jaime noticed. It was at a point on the Will far away."That I would have a beautiful crown, all the dresses in the world, and endless gold – I mean I already had two of those being a Lannister but it was different. He said my name would be in history, that I would do great things, 'even being a woman' he said." Her body tended as if the reminder that her body defines, limits WhatsApp she Would Do In Life made her uncomfortable. "He said 'my daughter will be queen of the seven kindomes. Will bear heir, kings!' He exclaimed. It was so inspiring. I wanted that. I though surly then father would see me more than just a girl to sell." Her breath caught in her throat and jaime waited a second to see if see would continue.

"Cersei I don't understand. You want to be queen?" He was thrown, confused. Just the night before she was in tears about her upcoming nuptials.

"Yes." She started looking at the floor "or I did." The young girl was confused herself "I haven't thought about it in years – not really, not seriously. "I you Asked a twelve year old Cersei if she wanted to marry the crown prince she wouldn't have hesitated" She said and her twin could not be more lost. "But a twelve year old Cersei didn't understand what marriage was, what she would be giving up." Now she looked up at her brother, green eyes meeting "I love you Jaime. I won't give you up. Not for any crown. Not ever." He put his arms around her and held her tight.

"We will figure out a way." The boy said. "Do you think telling father would help?" He went around the room picking up his discarded clothes

"No of course not. Telling father would make it worse. He would just send me farther away. " Cersei said sitting on the beds watch her bother.

"You don't know that"

"Well I do–" The Lannister girl started but was interrupted by a knock on the door.

"Milady," it was the same handmaiden as before, but this time she was inside the Chambers at Cersei's bedroom door "I haven't found Lord Jaime yet and your father is quiet anxious this morning" She sounded scared – and who wouldn't be if Lord Tywin Lannister wanted something you couldn't provide. "I should help you dress milady." The twins saw the door creak open.

"No!" Cersei yelled shoving the door back, closed. "I am changing already. continue looking for my brother and tell father I will be right there." she tried covering up just how breathless she was. 'that was close' she thought.

"Oh" Claudia said. "Alright" they heard her footsteps walking away.

"Jai." Cersei leaned her head against the door.

"Cer." He was fully dressed now and wrapped his arms around her waist from behind. he tucked her head under his chin and they stayed like that for a few seconds.

"Well that was something." he said

"Yes it was." she answered

"I love you."

"I love you too"

"We are going to be alright you know." He said. She let out a little laugh.

"You think?" She turned in his arms and he saw the small smile on her face. Her back was against the door and his arms were around her waist. They were close. Really close. And it was a rare moment that almost never happened anymore. It was light hearted and Jaime couldn't remember the last time she smiled like that. "What? Why are you looking at me like that?"

"You – I mean. Your gorgeous." He thought that, in that moment she looked better than in any expensive dress, any crazy updo or – wearing any crown.

"Jaime." Her voice was almost whining "Don't do that I kno-" she was cut off by her brother

"Cer, do you remember when mother died?"

"What?" She certainly didn't expect that "jaime what are you talking about."

"I mean, you, me, mother, father." He said "I mean before we lost her, you – you smiled more."

"I was a child." She wasn't liking this conversation and tried getting out of his arms "we were children – and why are you talking about this?" He didn't let go of her. He held her arms and pushed her more agains the door.

"I know we were children. But I was just think about how I rarely see you smile anymore." The heir of the rock whispered "and I love you." Her breath hitched a little – if he wasn't so close he wouldn't have noticed. "And I hate that you don't smile like you used to."

"Jaime let go of me." Cersei was uncomfortable, the last 12 hours have been too emotional for her already. This was to much. She didn't like emotions.

"I miss your smile Cer. Your genuine smile. The way your eyes crinkle even with the slightest of smiles. It's different of course from the way your eyes crinkle when your jealous but still..." he laughed a little and she still looked at him silently."I miss your smile." He leaned in and kissed her gently. He let go of her arms and wrapped his arms back around her waist when he noticed that her arms were going around his neck. He deepened the kiss.

They stayed like that for a while.