Alice's Premonition

Alice stood beside the silver Volvo expectantly. Her small arms were wrapped across her chest as if she were cold and her expression was forlorn. Edward sighed with aggravation at the sight of her. Her thoughts were filled with a concern that Edward couldn't comfort her from. As he strolled over to where she stood her mind grew silent.
"Shouldn't you be in class", Edward asked glumly as he walked past Alice to open the car door.
Alice didn't respond immediately. He could hear her muddled thoughts being processed in her head but he couldn't get the gist of it. Edward leaned against the swung-out car door and stared at her with intensity. Alice's brow furrowed as she glared up at Edward.
"Are you leaving again," Alice asked, her voice riddled with frustration.
Edward's own brow furrowed at her question and he tried to get a handle on what she was thinking, but her thoughts were too disconcerted to make out.
"I can't see you anymore," Alice whispered, "I saw you in the classroom with the girl who dropped her pencil, then I saw you leave, but once you drive away in your car...you disappear. It's like you have no future. It's like you're...dead."
Alice stared at the ground and shook her head in confusion. Dead. The word echoed in Edward's mind. He stood upright and glanced at the steering wheel in wonderment. "Where did I plan to go," Edward thought curiously. Truthfully, he had no plan, but the thought of being 'dead' was tempting. Edward slid down into the drivers seat and put the key in the ignition.
"No," Alice yelled and then dove across his lap to snatch the keys. Edward grabbed them first and clenched them tightly in his fist.
"I don't want you to die, Edward," Alice said as she crouched down beside his car and gazed up at him pleadingly.
Edward smiled his crooked smile and gently ruffled her spiky hair with his hand.
"I've made no plans to do so," he attempted to reassure her.
The look on her face told him it wasn't working. Edward stared out the windshield at the row of cars parked in front of his.
"Where do you see me going," he asked without turning to face her.
"I don't," Alice stated sullenly, "Where did you plan to go?"
Edward looked into her ocher eyes with sincerity.
"I don't know, Alice," he admitted, "but...let me go."
When he said those words he intended for them to have a double meaning. Edward didn't want to hurt his family, but being the selfish creature that he was...he didn't want to hurt anymore either. Edward continued to gaze into her eyes and something came over her face like understanding. Alice smiled slightly but it didn't reach her eyes.
"You're not always right you know," Edward teased.
Alice smiled a true smile, "Most of the time I am!"
Alice rose to her feet and placed her hand on the car door. She stood there for a moment contemplating whether or not she should 'let go'. Edward didn't interrupt as she fought her inner battle.
"Ok," Alice said and closed the car door.
Edward stared at her through the window. Her mind was silent again but her face was bitter. He didn't brake his gaze as he put the key back and started the engine. Alice reluctantly lifted her hand to say goodbye. Edward did the same then reversed from his parking spot and quickly put it into drive. He could see Alice growing smaller in his rear view mirror.
"Bella wouldn't want you to die," Alice added in thought.
Edward winced at her name. It was like having a stake driven into his dead heart anytime he heard someone say her name. It reminded him that she once was 'here'. Bella... Bella! "Of course," he declared with triumphant. If he was to die there would be only one place on earth where he would go first...