Healing Confinement Chapter 2
Disclaimer: Nothing has changed since the last chapter I still don't own Digimon…. This is a fanfic for the entertainment purposes of not only me but whoever happens to read this so please don't sue me.
Author's Note: Sorry it's taken me so long to get this chapter up but I didn't have a lot of time during the holidays because I was busy and also have been sick. I am still looking for a beta so again I have to apologize about spelling and grammar errors but I did go back and fix some of them that I found that were in the first chapter. I also want to thank all of you that are taking the time to read this fic and my other fics it really means a lot to me. Also thanks to TheVideoGameReseacher for reviewing.
Warning: In case you missed it in the summary and the last chapter this deals with self injury and might be triggering. If you are easily triggered you might want to click that "x" at the top right corner of the screen. You have been warned so read at your own risk.
After breakfast I was being lead back to Dr. Gail's office by one of the nurses. I felt nervous because I knew she would ask me about what had happened last night but I didn't feel ready to talk about it. I felt a little better than I did but I my mind still felt like a train wreck and I still felt half asleep.
"Good morning Yamato. Why don't you have a seat?" Dr. Gail said nodding to the chair across from her after I had entered the room and closed the door behind me. "I know this is a lot earlier than the normal time we speak to each other but I thought after last night it might be best for us to talk sooner rather than later. So do you want to tell me what did happen last night?"
"Well if you moved my appointment up to an earlier time because of last night then I'm sure you already know what happened." I said coldly, building up my walls to keep her out of my head.
"I know what the nurses told me but I want to hear your side of the story so I'll know the whole story of what happened and that way I can help you." She calmly said.
"I don't need your help to get better because there is nothing wrong with me." My temper lashed out at her.
"Ok then how about you just talk to me? You can talk to me about anything you like. It doesn't have to be about what happened last night we can wait to talk about that when you feel ready to discuss it. We could talk about your hobbies or school. " Her change of subject caught me a bit off guard.
"School?" I asked not meaning to say it out loud. Why did she have to bring up my least favorite conversation subject?
"Yes you mentioned yesterday that you went to the local high school. Do you like your classes?" She asked.
"They're ok I guess. I'm passing them at least." I said picking my words carefully.
"What do you think about your teachers?" She said, continuing to push me with questions.
"I don't know. Some of them are ok." I answered with memories of being at school sitting in the classroom flooding my mind.
"Why are only some ok?" She asked. I could feel my walls start to break away because of the emotions the memories and her questions started to stir.
"I don't know." I said trying my best from keeping myself from losing control and from telling her things I might regret later.
"There has to be some reason?" She asked.
"I guess it's because they looked down on me." Don't I know how to bite my tongue?
"Why would they look down on you? There has to be a good reason. I can see that you can be a bit of a smart aleck at times but I'm sure that's just your way of trying to get me to leave you alone and you're not normally like that so that can't be the reason why." She said. I should have just sat there and stared at her the whole time like I had planned at breakfast. Oh well might as well tell her a little bit more to get her to shut up and since she's not going to drop this easily.
"It could be because their homophobic." I said hoping that would end it.
"Ah I see. It's sad that people can be so closed minded." She said her reaction was not what I was expecting.
"You… You're not freaked out about it? I was half expecting you to throw me out of your office." I said truthfully.
"Not many people accepted you after they found out you we're gay did they?" She asked.
"Yeah, how did you know? I lost a lot of friends when I came out." Why am I being so open with her? Is it the fact that she seems to accept and not judge me?
"Well you being shocked about me not freaking out gave it away. As for the friends you lost maybe they weren't really your friends to begin with if they couldn't accept you for who you are but I'm sure you still have some amazing friends that still care and are there for you." She said.
"How would you know?" I said trying to figure out how much of my life story she already knew about.
"The boy that was with you and called for the ambulance the night you were brought here he must care a lot for you. He calls every day to ask how you're doing." She said.
"Tai calls?" I asked and she nodded her head. "I thought he'd hate and feel disgusted by me after he found me like that. I was sure he'd break up with me and I'd lose him." I said I really need to stop talking now. She must be either really good at her job or knows how to control minds because only Tai has been able to get me to open up this much.
"Well it looks like you have found an amazing guy. I'm happy that you talked to me today and hope you will tomorrow as well. Some of the doctors and I were considering putting you under a twenty-four hour guard because of last night but after talking to you I don't think that will be necessary. I would like you to consider maybe going to the group therapy session it might help you to become more comfortable opening up to people but you don't have to make the decision right away. It looks like we're out of time for today so I'll see you tomorrow." She said leading me to the door so she could take me back to my room. I quietly followed her back letting the entire conversation replay over and over in my head.