Second chapter up…

Chapter 2 of Listening. Written some time ago some aspects might not make sense… I'm still not really skilled at writing multi chapter fics. O.o

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As days passed, a kind of routine was formed. It consisted of Lavi getting up, bombarding into Kanda's bedroom, dragging him to breakfast and then reading in the library.

Both knew that from the first day, they had known the knowledge needed. But they kept on going, enjoying being with the other person. An unknown agreement had been passed through the two. Neither were very good with at compromises, and they liked it the way it was – silent.

Finally, as the day came when they were set to leave, Allen came to see them both off.

'Good luck,' he said. He hugged Lavi and whispered something inaudible in his ear. Giving a slight nod at Kanda, he ran off, leaving the two alone in a station full of people.

A whistle signified that the train was going to leave and they hastened to get on. Struggling with their suitcases, they entered the first class compartment. Kanda watched as Lavi made himself comfortable, carefully putting his luggage on a railing – he left his on the ground.

'It's going to be a 9 day ride to the Paris, Yuu-chan. Aren't you going to put your suitcase –'

'No.' Kanda answered dryly.

Lavi sighed. After all these years, and just when he thought Kanda was starting to warm up to him… Well… Maybe that was just a foolish hope. But there was a plus side. Maybe it was because he seemed to be always in Kanda's presence but he found that he didn't have that monster roaring inside him anymore…

It seemed to have gone silent.

'Ne, Yuu?'

'What?'

'Nothing,' he said, a bit sadly.

Kanda gave a 'che' and closed his eyes, about to take a nap.

Lavi eyed him carefully. There was soon no sound in the compartment except for slight external noises that were reduced heavily because of the soundproof walls that surrounded.

Didn't this happen only a week ago?

'And don't you dare touch me.'

Alright, this didn't happen…

With another sigh, Lavi propped his arms onto the window, gazing as the dull London streets turned into the country side. Meadows flew past, a blur of green and yellow. He watched as the sun danced across the sky, he watched as it slowly slid down the horizon. At around 7, the whole sky became dark, and Lavi couldn't see anything at all.

'It's already night,' Kanda's voice was soft.

Lavi looked up, hardly surprised by the surprise. He didn't even answer. He just kept on staring outside.

'Lavi…' Kanda's voice was barely a whisper, 'what's wrong?'

He shook his head, and finally replied. 'There is nothing wrong.'

'Why are you hiding this from me? You never used to.'

Lavi shrugged. 'Why should I tell you when you never tell me what's in your mind?'

Kanda frowned, as if thinking the whole thing over. 'You want to know?' his eyes were downcast, a shadow of what they used to be. Somehow, the few harsh words that Lavi had said turned his world upside down. Somehow.

'Well I'll tell you… I am afraid. I am scared of many things.'

Lavi's mouth gaped. He wasn't expecting Kanda to confess. Much less confess to a matter that was so personal. The serious tone he used betrayed his sincerity and the irony of it all kept Lavi from laughing out loud. After all, he was afraid too.

They were exorcists for goodness sake. They were supposed to save mankind.

But perhaps only the exorcists and generals really knew just how much of a burden it was. To save a world that needed to be saved. They had to save people who screamed to be saved and those who were unwilling.

So who would save them when they needed it?

Besides, Kanda had something else to worry about as well.

'Oh…'

Lavi simply couldn't think of anything nice to say. He regretted snapping at Kanda now. He should have known better. He should have known that Kanda wasn't apathetic like he seemed. In fact, Lavi could say that he was even more sensitive than most.

He feared rejection. Of course, without him really saying it, Lavi learned his life story. Kanda wasn't a robot. He loves and lusts like any human does. But just like Lavi, he had hid it under a thick façade. Kanda's was a wall of coldness and his was cheerfulness.

No one understood that he wasn't happy at all? He never was happy. Each time he made a joke, it would sound dry and useless towards him. It made other's happy, so in turn he would be a little happier. Then, he met Kanda.

The interaction between them wasn't pleasant at first, with Lavi latching onto Kanda at the first chance he got. Lavi had been amused by his reaction and he looked for more amusement. It was like a curse almost. Nearly every word he said was fake, nearly every action he made was fake.

'Kanda?' he asked.

He stared at Lavi, silently inviting him to go on.

'Do you… love me?'

There was silence as Kanda's eyes slowly widened. Lavi waited impatiently, knowing it would unwise to push him in these circumstances.

'Of course I don-'

It was enough.

Lavi pounced on top of him and pinned him to the seat. Kanda tried to struggle but Lavi's grip was firm. He heaved him upright and grabbed his arm. With his free hand he tried to gripe Lavi off but all efforts were fruitless. His fingers were so slim against Lavi's.

Lavi other hand reached up to Kanda's hair and he pushed their lips together.

Kanda's face lit up like a tomato as he blushed profusely, still struggling weakly. But soon he gave up and slumped against his touch. Lavi deepened the kiss before breaking away. He didn't let him go, instead he marvelled at the kneeling boy in front of him.

'Are you giving up already?' Lavi asked.

Kanda bowed his head and muttered dismissively, 'isn't this what you wanted?'

'Yes. But what about you?'

Kanda didn't answer and Lavi cringed.

'Just tell the truth, Kanda,' he urged.

'I hate you,' Kanda answered flatly, looking away.

Lavi sighed released Kanda from grip. He sat back onto the seat and looked at Kanda in earnest.

'If you hate me so much, why didn't you cut me up with mugen?' Lavi asked curiously.

He didn't answer for a while. Kanda popped his arms on the window and stared outside. 'I don't hate you in that way,' he said.

'What do you mean?'

'Don't worry… Just know that I don't love you, rabbit.'

Lavi gave another sigh and smiled weakly. 'Yeah… I can understand that.' He opened his eye's to say something again but decided against it.

Some things were safer unsaid.

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Review please

LaviYuu love forever .

(I really need to write more because the last few weeks have