How?
Disclaimer: Nothing but Nyoka.
A/N: Again, nothing against Jerlita or Aelita.
(Jeremie`s POV)
How?
How could this have happened? How could Aelita have fallen for one of my best friends? How could Odd have betrayed me like this? But I must smile to them, tell them I`m happy for them as my heart silently shatters. It just wasn`t fair. I`d worked tirelessly to free Aelita, a labor of love, and Odd takes her from me. But I cannot change it. They are in love, and I need to allow it.
So this is how heartbreak feels. It`s not pleasant in the slightest. You feel alone in the world: cold, numb, broken. And most of all, lonely. I will have to move on. But the thought of Aelita still haunts me: her enchanting voice, her musical laugh, her bright smile. She was perfection.
But maybe...just maybe there IS another girl that could replace her. Maybe Nyoka?...I had developed a certain affection for her. I had always written it off, saying I wanted Aelita. Now she was taken, allowing me to try to be with Nyoka.
I just hope she`ll accept me.
(Nyoka`s POV)
How?
How could Aelita be so insensitive? She merely walks up to Jeremie and bluntly tells him she does not love him; she loves Odd. My desire to backhand her grew stronger, seeing the hidden sadness and pain on my beloved`s face. The girl did worse than break his heart; she tore it out, threw it on the floor, and ground it to dust.
She was his universe, his love, his soul, his life.
Her, not me. My childish envy grows stronger.
How could she do this to him? How could I help? How will things be from now on? Will this change anything?
I know how to deal with my pain: I use art. I sing, play guitar, write songs, draw, paint, and sculpt my feelings. Jeremie...he usually just retreats to the solitude of his room.
It tears at my heart to see him so broken, so sad, so dull, so lifeless. It`s as if he`s lost his ability to feel, numb and cold to the world.
I will always love you, Jeremie. I think, wishing he could hear me, hear the words I`m not ready to say aloud:
I love you.