Slanted writing is text messages or notes
Bold is Sherlock's mind palace or what he is thinking but not saying
Bold and slanted means memory's or book titles.
Chapter two
Sherlock is standing pointing the gun at the bomb vest ready to fire at any moment then staying alive by the bee gees starts playing.
"Do you mind if I get that?" Jim asks.
"Oh no, please. You've got the rest of your life." Sherlock says
"Hello? Yes of course it is. What do you want?" Jim mouths sorry "Say that again! Say that again and know that if you're lying to me, I will find you and I will skin you. Sorry. Wrong day to die." Jim says walking away.
"Oh. Did you get a better offer?"
"You'll be hearing from me, Sherlock." Jim says
"What about Isabel?" Sherlock asks Jim ignores him.
"So if you have what you say you have, I'll make you rich. If you don't, I'll make you into shoes." Jim says then he snaps his fingers and the snipers disappear
"What happened there?" john asks
"Someone changed his mind. The question is, who?" Sherlock says.
(Back at the flat)
"Sherlock I'm going to bed" John says getting up from his chair and starts to walk towards his room but then he remembers that he had Isabel's phone so he walks back over to where Sherlock was laying which was of course on the sofa and puts the phone on the table next to it. "she told me to give this to you she practically begged, she said there was a note for you somewhere in it" John says noticing that Sherlock was probably not listing to him so he decides to push it off until morning he needed his sleep so he walks up stairs.
Once Sherlock knew that john was in his room and probably asleep Sherlock picked up the phone from the table and found the note that Bell left for him.
Dearest Sherlock
I've had about two weeks to think of what I was going to tell you and it made me think of all of the great memories we had together. But all the stuff I need to say to you is so hard to put into words. First off I have missed you terribly and I wish I never left in the first place. Secondly don't think of me as your next case if anything when someone finds my body let Lestrade do the case by himself. Now I know what you are thinking of right now 'Lestrade won't find her body she will be alive and well once I find her the game is on' I know for a fact that once Moriarty finds out that he can't use me against you he is going to kill me and leave my body as part of the game that he is playing with you. Just so you know I did get all of your texts and if you ever do drugs again I will come back from the grave and haunt you for the rest of your life. Don't say that's a good thing either. Make sure not to lose john because I need someone to protect you and with me being dead I can't do that and an army doctor should fill in my gap. Tell your mother that I couldn't do what she asked of me when I was 16 and tell Mycroft that he was the most annoying brother I always wanted. Sherlock keep doing what you are doing and tell Anderson to stop cheating on his wife it is really rude. I love you my Charming. I would say see you soon but if my calculations are correct I won't see you around.
Love
Bell Hart
PS. This cell Moriarty is keeping me in is disgusting. Miss you already….
Sherlock doesn't know what to do with this information. The feeling in the pit of his stomach comes back. He sighs pushing his hair back furiously. "why would she do that give herself up willingly even though she knew the enviable was that she was going to die it doesn't make any sense." Sherlock thinks out loud. Sherlock lays down once more thinking that maybe something in his mind palace could give him a hint as to what would make her do such a thing.
Sherlock steps in to his mind palace doors. He walks down the varies halls and stops at one of the biggest rooms in his palace, the library. Opening the door knowing exactly what was on the other side he steps in. He is greeted by the smell of Cherry's and a hint of vanilla. That is what Bell always smells like. The room is filled with books in every shelf. Sherlock pulls out one of the books on the first shelf that he encounters he opens it the title reads How Bell likes her tea coffee etc. Never willing to part with any memories he has had with her the library is the only room in his mind palace that is designated to one person the others like Anderson and Mycroft have the kitchen one of the smallest rooms and not much space to store anything. Looking through the titles brushing his fingers across every spine of each book he passes he stops one catching his eye. Every time I have seen Bell cry. Sherlock shrugs not exactly what he was looking for but the one to the left of it. Every time Bell has said I love you, which is directed to me. Sherlock pulls out the bright red book and opens it carefully, Sherlock reads through the chapter index. Age 4, Ages 7-9, ages 12-17, ages 21-29. Sherlock decides that he should start with ages 21-29 so he opens up to the first page when Sherlock was 22 and Bell was twenty one.
"Sherlock what are you doing?" Bell asks walking beside him.
"I'm working on a case Mycroft wants me to help him on" Sherlock says.
"Can I help?" Bell asks.
"Okay but there is a condition" Sherlock says turning around to face her.
"And that Is" Bell asks.
"why do you like being around me and helping me other people think I'm a freak and leave but you are different and I can't figure out why" Sherlock says Bell smiles which makes Sherlock even more confused.
"Because I love you" Bell says seriously "I'm pretty sure I have told you this multiple times you're my charming" Bell says.
"That's another thing why do you call me Charming."
"Why do you call me Bell?"
"Because you're favorite movie when you were 14 was Beauty and the Beast. You also look like Bell from said movie but you have blue eyes instead of brown and it is sort of a shortened version of your name" Sherlock says
"Well I call you Charming because you look kind of like the prince in Cinderella but your eyes are blue and your hair is curly his just kind of there." Bell concludes.
"Why don't you call me Beast?" Sherlock asks
"Because you aren't a Beast contrary to what other people's beliefs I know you're a good person deep down even if you don't think so. But you are also quite Charming the name suits you." Bell smiles and kisses his cheek "now what has Mycroft have for us today.
It's still not what Sherlock is looking for so he turns to the page where Bell is 27 and Sherlock is 28. He doesn't remember much from being half conscience at the time. Sherlock had a drug overdose and Bell was sitting next to him, he remembers squinting for a second and seeing Bells eyes red and tears where running down her face.
"I'm a bloody idiot" Bell mutters "I should have never left the flat I should have never left his side; I wish that I could take it all back the fight me saying I would never come back. Of course I would have come back I love him, he is my life I couldn't stand a day without him." Bell grabs Sherlock's hand. "If I ever lose you I wouldn't be able to live that's why I hope I die before you I know that you can just delete me from your mind palace and never have to speak of me again. But I can't do that for one I don't have a mind palace and for two I would rather die than ever forget about you." Bell squeezes his hand tighter. "Thank god you can't hear me your would say that I was being sentiment which is always found on the losing side. Which might be true but sometimes sentiment isn't such a bad thing maybe sentiment might save your life one day." Bell leans up and kisses Sherlock's temple "please don't ever do this to me again." Bell whispers.
Sherlock found his answer. He sits down on the floor of the grand library.
"She was saving me" Sherlock mutters
"What was that?" John asks stepping into the living room with his tea and sitting down his chair. Sherlock gets up from the couch he was on all night apparently.
"She was saving me of course it all makes sense now" Sherlock says loudly.
"Who was saving you?" John asks clearly confused.
"Bell was saving me, he used me against her which is why she went with him willingly" Sherlock says.
"Oh you mean that girl from the pool" John says
"Yes the girl from the pool john do keep up" Sherlock starts pacing
"Ok so Bell went with Moriarty to save you" John says
"Yes exactly"
"Why would she do that?" John asks
"Sentiment" Sherlock responds.