Taeyeon walks to an empty table, she slams the book on to the table.
"ugh" she grumbles in annoyance as she pulls the chair out to sit.
She has her right elbow place on the table as she leans her head on her palm sideways.
Looking around one last time before she flips open the book.
The first page written:
Are you in love?
How the hell do you expect me to know? I never have a love relationship before..
She rolls her eyes at the stupid question and flips to the next page.
Do you think you are in love?
What the helllllllllllllllllllllllllllll~! What kind of author is this! who the heck is this author!
Taeyeon looks at the back cover of the book.
Peter Gretchen. A guy. Great, hello, Gretchen, what the heck with the beginning? What's with all the brain teaser questions. If I knew the answer to it, do you think your book will be published?
Taeyeon return back to the page where she was there before, she flips to the next page.
Are you having trouble?
Uh-huh.
She flips to the fourth page.
Are you thinking of that person now?
Now that you asked, Gretchen, yes. I am thinking of Tippany…
Do you, think of that person every day?
Taeyeon eyes look around the moment she starts thinking, she frowns a little.
Yes, I guess.
Do you think of the person all the time?
Taeyeon shakes her head to this question.
Not when I have things to do, but, whenever I have the time to think, she does…well, pop up in my mind.
You find yourself wanting to know a lot more about this person that you start doing something like a stalker.
"shhhh!" Taeyeon place her left hand index finger over her mouth as though the question is ask out loud, embarrassed at the situation, Taeyeon quickly resume back to her normal position.
NO! Im not a stalker! I am not stalking her!
And now you find yourself, screaming mentally at me because I got you.
Taeyeon's eyes widen.
Damn this Peter fella guy!
She flips the next page, her jaw drop opens immediately.
If it's not love, if it's not lust, it's a crush for sure.
"what are you reading?"
A voice asked from behind that shock Taeyeon, she immediately flip close the book and turn it around so the front page is facing down on the table.
Sooyoung pulls the empty chair beside her and sit it, "what is that you are reading?" she eyed the book under Taeyeon's hand. Taeyeon shakes her head.
"a book"
"I know it's a book, duh, obviously. But I asked, what book is that"
"nothing that you will be interested" Taeyeon who didn't want Sooyoung to know.
Sooyoung tries to grab the book, but Taeyeon quickly hid it behind her back, not giving any chances for Sooyoung.
"yah! It must be something!"
"is nothing!"
"is not nothing when you reacted that way!"
Yeah yeah yeah, if I tell you I might turns out to be a homo or something, liking the same sex, will you still be my best friend =.=
"shut up, let me be"
"come on Taeng! What are you hiding away from me?"
"nothing…is just a stupid book"
"just. .book."
Taeyeon nods her head when Sooyoung repeats her words.
"if this is how you treat a friend, fine…" Sooyoung cross her arms, looking away from taeyeon.
"yahhhh, choi soo young" Taeyeon looks at her slightly annoyed friend.
But Sooyoung totally ignore her call.
Damn! Blame this heart for being so soft like a marshmallow.
Taeyeon puts the book back on the table and slowly slid it right in front of Sooyoung.
Sooyoung looks at her, raising one side of her eyebrow.
"go on" Taeyeon answers shortly.
Sooyoung smiled and grab the book, but the smile soon replace by a shocking expression instead, "boya!? You're in love!?"
Taeyeon raise her hand up and looks around, some student looking in their way.
"wow, thank you! just what I needed! The whole school to know, thanks choi soo young" Taeyeon says in full of sarcasm.
"mian…but who?"
"no one"
Sooyoung looks at Taeyeon one kind, "no one? Ayyy, no way it's no one"
"it's the truth believe it or not is up to you"
"then why are you reading it?"
"uh! Who even talks about me reading it? I just so happens to grab it off the shelves"
I have got to lie, please understand my situation, I cant come clean when I am not even sure of it.
"serious?"
"yes, sooyoung, if I was ever in love… I'll let you know"
"deal" Sooyoung offers a hand shake.
"deal" Taeyeon took the hand that was being offer and shook it.
Sooyoung smiles cheekily.
"I'll see you tomorrow" Taeyeon wave goodbye to her best friend as she gets on her bike and starts cycling back. On her way home, she sees Tiffany not far away in front to where she is heading to, leaning her back against the street light pole, with the raincoat hanging around her arms.
Tippany.
Tiffany happens to look up and to Taeyeon's direction, she smiled and bow a little once again.
I cant ignore her this time.
Taeyeon cycles up to her and gets off the bike, walking to Tiffany with the bike, pulling along beside her.
"annyeonghaseyo" Tiffany greets with a small smile.
"annyeong" Taeyeon greets back awkwardly.
"here" Tiffany hands back the raincoat to Taeyeon, "gomawo"
Ahhhhhhhh! Why am I even melting at those simple words that she speaks! You're failure kim tae yeon!
"you're welcome"
"I haven't get to know your name" Tiffany smiles when she says so.
"m-my name?"
Yes, your name you idiot! You don't even know you're a human now aren't you!?
Taeyeon mentally slapping herself when she sees Tiffany giggles a little and nod her head.
That giggle…that's like Christmas bell ringing in my ears!
"ah dae! Taeyeon, Kim TaeYeon" Taeyeon nervously answers.
"ahhh.. Taeyeon-sshi"
OMG! Did she just say my name! TAKE ME ALREADY GOD!
"d-dae" Taeyeon looks on the ground, "euh?"
Taeyeon looks at the plastic bag that Tiffany is holding, inside, there's a sculpturing model.
"is that a model house?" Taeyeon ask in curiosity.
"dae. How did you know? Your school learn about it already?" Tiffany ask in delight.
But Taeyeon slowly shakes her head, "our school cant afford to do it for each student…"
"owh…then how did you…know about it?" Tiffany felt sorry.
"I love doing model house! Is fun creating it! Just imagine, is nothing in the beginning, but with your own ideas from your mind, creative ways to build it, you can create something! How cool is that!" Taeyeon who loves to do interior designing, cant seems to control her excitement.
Great, you have just embarrassed yourself once again in front of her for the second time you meet her.
"Taeyeon-sshi"
Wow, 2 years of just looking at her through the window, looking at how she walks pass.
"taeyeon?" Tiffany tilt her head aside as she tries to study the space out Taeyeon.
She's finally here, right in front of me, and me, standing so close to her… this is so unreal…
"taeyeon?" Tiffany wave her hand right in front of Taeyeon's face.
And it felt like she's calling after my name….what the heck! She's really calling for me.
"d-dae!?" Taeyeon quickly answers.
"Are you alright?" Tiffany ask.
Taeyeon nods her head.
"I have an idea, I don't know if you are cool with it" Tiffany says.
"go on"
"since you're into modeling house, you think…you can help me with it?" Tiffany ask.
Taeyeon jaw drop open immediately.
Did I hear that wrongly? Is she asking for my help? Is she asking me to meet her up to do the project together!? Thank you Goddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!
Taeyeon literally did a victory cheer mentally, smiling happily.
"you're alright with that?" Tiffany ask, still waiting for an answer.
"sure thing!" Taeyeon answers quickly, "I mean, sure, you know, I love…love…"
Love you? Ayyyy! Andwae! Is just lust Taeyeon ah!
"what do you love?" Tiffany ask.
"I love doing modeling house, always wished to do one"
Tiffany smiles.
Stop killing me already, tippany…jebal…
But truthfully, Taeyeon indeed always love to design on things, especially modeling house.
But the things to prepared, is just too much and quite pricey too, if you want a good quality.
"so, I'll meet you here tomorrow after class, then we can head to the park" Tiffany suggest.
"sounds good" Taeyeon who is already getting excited for tomorrow's plan already.
"cool, see you later then, Taeyeon-sshi" Tiffany bow one last time and leaves.
Taeyeon can only stand there, looking at Tiffany's back, day dreaming about tomorrow.
.
Things were getting more and more excited as Taeyeon was hoping for the time to pass faster.
She jumps onto her bike and pedal as fast as she could.
Pany~ im gonna meet pany~!
Sweats were actually forming around her forehead, dripping it off her cheeks by the side.
Taeyeon tighten the muscles around her jaw as she cycles even faster.
She even jumps off the bike when she is about to reach the park.
Taeyeon leans the bicycle at a street lamp, securing it in safety with a chain around it.
Taeyeon bite her lips nervously as she tugs the handle of her school bag, taking a deep breath.
Stepping into the park, her eyes begin to search around, for Tiffany.
Every single time Taeyeon look around, she felt her heart beats even faster than a normal pace, as if she's about to have a heart attack anytime soon, she clench her hands into fist and felt how sticky her palms were with the sweat. She gulp nervously as she continues to search around.
Where is she….
Taeyeon frowns after she has been searching around and still do not see Tiffany anywhere.
"Taeyeon-sshi"
Taeyeon freeze the moment she heard that familiar one and only husky voice calling out for her, she stayed frozen in her place, staying still before she slowly turns around. Tiffany waves her hand up high in the air, smiling.
This is a dream for sure….im going to wake up anytime soon…
Taeyeon has an awkward smile played across her face, she waves back.
Taking the first step towards where Tiffany is, is sort of the hardest thing for her to do now.
Don't look like it, but it is, as for Taeyeon.
Stop sweating, taeyeon….just relax, act normal…that's all you ever need to do…. Stop overreacting..you might scare her off with your weird reactions.
Taeyeon slowly walks to the shelter where a table and four chairs where under it.
"am I late?" Taeyeon ask as she nervously, trying her best to control her hands from shaking too much.
Tiffany shakes her head, "no…" she smiles.
Taeyeon nods her head, looking around, trying not to have a direct eye contact with Tiffany, she place her bag on the side of the table.
Tiffany looks at Taeyeon, puzzled, wondering why she is still standing, looking around.
"taeyeon-sshi"
"ah? Dae?"
"don't you….want to sit?"
"oh yeah" Taeyeon scratch the back of her head, feeling stupid.
She then sits next to Tiffany.
"shall we start?"
"y-yeah" Taeyeon unzip the collar of her jacket, feeling that it's suffocating her all of a sudden.
Things are beginning to warm up in between the awkwardness that they felt in the beginning.
Taeyeon can even look at Tiffany right in the eye without turning into a bright tomato immediately, although she still feels her cheeks burning later on, but she enjoyed how Tiffany is being all funny and joking about things, she thought Tiffany would've been a cold type of a person. But it's definitely is different, Tiffany is a whole lot nicer.
After 5 hours of working out on Tiffany's project, they are done at last.
"oh my goshhhh~" Tiffany lazily place her chin on the table, she puff airs out.
Taeyeon smiles as she starts packing.
"thank you" Tiffany look up at Taeyeon, "if it wasn't for you, I don't know how long it would've take me to finish it up"
"you're welcome… I had fun doing so"
"you're really good taeyeon-aaa" Tiffany said, now putting her chin on her palm, looking straight at Taeyeon.
"gomawo" Taeyeon smiles away shyly.
Just then, they hear thunder grumbling around in the sky above them.
" dang! I think it's going to rain" Tiffany looks at the sky, turning dark.
"come on" Taeyeon quickly stands up and packs their belonging even faster.
Tiffany follows Taeyeon behind, as they ran across the park, running to where Taeyeon have left her bicycle, Taeyeon gets onto her bike, "come on" she looks at Tiffany who just stands there helplessly.
Tiffany shakes her head.
"wae?" Taeyeon ask.
"I'll walk-"
"walk!?" Taeyeon points the sky, "it's going to rain anytime"
"gwenchana"
"pany ah, wae? Pali ahhh~"
"im afraid of bicycle taeyeon, I don't know how to ride them" Tiffany admits her fear.
"aigoo, get on it, im cycling… if you're scare, just grab my shirt" Taeyeon smiles assuredly.
Tiffany gulps, looking back and forth from the bicycle then to Taeyeon, hesitating.
Just then, another thunder is heard again, this time Tiffany decide is time to shake off the doubts in her mind as she climbs onto the back seat of the bicycle, grabbing each side of the shirt with her hands of Taeyeon's shirt around the waist area.
Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~ this is a dream come true indeed!
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Small drizzle starts pouring from their head, it made Taeyeon cycles even faster.
Shit! I don't even know where she stays~~~~all I know is she comes from somewhere, that will pass by my place.
Taeyeon take a swift corner into her house, "you get off first Tippany"
Tiffany shriek cutely a little as she leaps off from the bicycle, she runs safely under the shed, as the rain already starts pouring heavily now. Taeyeon joins her a second later, wiping the wet drops on her shirt off, "did the rain get to the house model?" Taeyeon ask concerned.
Tiffany opens the plastic bag, checking it out, she shakes her head, Taeyeon smile in relief.
They both look out at the pouring rain, it's like cats and dogs, thunder rolling at times, raining even harder each minute pass.
"ppany ah~ this is my house… you want to get in first? Maybe make a call to your parents, let them know and ask them to pick you up?" Taeyeon suggest.
"sure is okay? Your parents will be alright with me going in?"
Taeyeon nods her head, "you need to get yourself dry right?"
Taeyeon unlock the door and walks in, letting Tiffany following behind her again.
"ommmmmmmaaaaaaaaa" Taeyeon calls out.
Tiffany drops her head a little when she giggles out, Taeyeon look at her, "boya"
Tiffany shakes her head, they walk into the living room.
Lying on the couch lazily is Taeyeon's brother, Jiwoong quickly sits up when he sees his sister brought home some company, "annyeonghaseyo" he greets to Tiffany.
Tiffany bows in a mannerly way.
"never seen your friend before" Jiwoong smirks, he stood up and offers a handshake towards Tiffany.
"oh?" Tiffany says in surprise.
Taeyeon smack his brother's hand away, "stop it, where's omma?"
A lady walk out from the kitchen, with a frying stick in her hand, she wipes her hand with the apron, "taeyeon"
"omma, this is my….." Taeyeon gotten stuck.
Like what should I introduce her as? Friend? But we barely know each other….
"hello, I'm Tiffany, Taeyeon's friend" Tiffany bows, smiling.
"aigoooooo, jinja yeoppooo" Mrs. Kim praises as she touches Tiffany by the cheek.
Just when you want to impress someone and your mum embarrass you in front of that person…
"why not stay for dinner?" offers.
Wow, omma is much faster than me! XD way to go omma!
Tiffany bows, only showing an apologetic face, "maybe next time, aunty, because I have a dinner with a friend of mine tonight as a promise.."
"ahh, okay… next time it is then" Mrs. Kim smile, still admiring how sweet Tiffany is.
Friend? :/ is it that guy who keeps standing by her side? Is he, her boyfriend? I bet it is… she's so pretty and he looks good with her anyway…. Yeah, why do I feel like going away now? …..what the heck am I feeling now….?
"Taeyeon, don't be rude, bring her to your room" Mrs. Kim says.
My room? Omma! How is that being un-rude? My room? We barely know each other… oh yeah, mummy didn't know so.
Taeyeon scratch her face, "wae…"
"your brother is here, she's a girl, it wont be nice" Mrs. Kim answers.
Seeing how Taeyeon hesitated, Tiffany thought Taeyeon didn't like what Mrs. Kim suggested.
"…gwenchana-"
"hmmm, you don't mind right Tiff?" Taeyeon ask.
"dae"
Taeyeon nods her head towards the stairs, "my room is upstairs"
"huh?"
"er…my room?" Taeyeon repeats her words.
"ah, araseo"
Taeyeon footsteps becomes heavier each time she thinks about Tiffany going out on a dinner with her so called friend, she keeps wondering who it is.
I know, I know, she's not mine….and why the hell am I thinking the way as if she's mine isnt it?
I just cant help but to think about it, to keep on wondering…
Tiffany who is following behind, realizes Taeyeon is suddenly all quiet, rather than just now in the park, being all silly, making her laugh.
They walk pass two doors and end up walking to the end of the corridor, Taeyeon opens the door, "my room" she introduce in a slightly boring voice.
Tiffany steps in after her, "wahhhhh" she looks around, very impressed with the cleanliness.
Tiffany sits on the bed, Taeyeon's eyes widen.
Holy….oh my god! Is this for real? She's actually there, sitting on my bed, the place where I sleep! How am I to sleep on the bed every night without thinking that she has sat there before?
"wae?" Tiffany asked.
"anniya, wae?"
Tiffany laughs, "im asking you, taeyeon… how can you ask me the same question again?"
Taeyeon shrug her shoulders, "nothing…"
"taeyeon"
"dae?"
"you're really nicer, compare to what my mind thinks you are"
"….you don't think im nice? I mean, there, in your mind…." Taeyeon tries her best not to frown.
Tiffany shakes her head, "anniyah, I thought you hated me the day after, you know, the incident?"
"ahhh" Taeyeon nods her head, acknowledging that she does remember.
"tippany~ mianhae" Taeyeon apologize very sincerely this time.
"it's alright, Taeyeon… you didn't do it on purpose isnt it…." Tiffany smiles.
"of course not" Taeyeon keeps shaking her head.
It made Tiffany laugh.
"taeyeon….my name is Tiffany"
"dae, I know, tippany"
"no, not tippany…" Tiffany sits up closer towards Taeyeon.
Ugh….not so close, please.
"it's Ti-Ffa-Ny" Tiffany says to Taeyeon in a slow mo.
"d-dd-ddd-dae…tippany" Taeyeon gulps.
"anniya" Tiffany leans up close towards Taeyeon, "watch my lips"
Taeyeon's eyes widen, staring directly at the perfectly shaped lips.
Tippany…..please….not so close…I am about to erupt and kiss you…please! Don't!
"TI" her teeth were clutching closely together in reveal, making her look all so adorable.
"…t-ttti"
Damn!
"FAH" when she say so, her lips were apart, Taeyeon can see the pink tongue in there.
"fffffffffffff-fffffffah?"
Tiffany has her eye smile on, smiling brightly, "Ny!"
"ny!" Taeyeon quickly said, looking away, her head slightly turn to the side.
Tiffany claps her hand in joy, she then leans away.
Taeyeon breathe out in relief, tapping her heart a few times.
"now you know" Tiffany winks.
She….did she just….wink at me?! KILL ME!
"dae….why don't you make the call, to your…urm, friend, to pick you up…"
"ah! Dae! I almost forget! Thanks!" Tiffany reaches into her pocket, pulling a fancy pink colored phone out, she dial a number on the screen, before putting the speaker at her ear.
Tiffany jumps off from the bed and proceeds into making a call with her phone.
That person sure is lucky to have a dinner with her, lucky enough to receive calls from Tiffany… really lucky….
Taeyeon looks at Tiffany as she ends the call and slips the phone back into her skirt pocket.
"done" Tiffany smiles, Taeyeon smiles back.
Tiffany return sitting on the bed, in front of Taeyeon, making Taeyeon slightly bouncing up.
"look at where I am" Tiffany suddenly said, making Taeyeon looking around her room.
"I just knew you not more than 2 days, but here I am in your room" Tiffany says.
Taeyeon only nods her head, as she didn't know how to answer Tiffany.
"weird isn't it?" Tiffany returns her gaze back at Taeyeon, "is like we're close friends"
Taeyeon let out a small laugh, shrugging her shoulders.
"weird. I find it comfortable being around you" Tiffany speaks.
"jinja?"
"dae, felt like… I don't know, the feeling you gave me, comfy"
Taeyeon laughs, "good then"
"good?" Tiffany looks at Taeyeon.
"er..i mean…good as in…well, you are feeling comfortable, rather than the other way, isnt it?"
"is great! Means I have another friend!" Tiffany cheers.
Okay, I feel happy and sad at the same time, this is odd…
"dae" Taeyeon answers shortly.
"you're a nice person, Taeyeon" Tiffany pats Taeyeon on the shoulder.
"you too, tiffany"
Just then, a car honk is heard, Tiffany jolts up right away, "he's here"
Taeyeon sadly follows along, standing up.
"ah, gwenchana Taeng… I can go out myself"
"anniyah, let me send you to the door at least?" Taeyeon offers.
Tiffany slowly skips down the stairs, following behind is an upset Taeyeon.
"heomonim" Tiffany calls out, out came from the kitchen, Mrs. Kim, "im leaving, thank you" she bows nicely in respect.
"ah…ok ok…but do come back for a dinner some time when you are free, alright?" Mrs. Kim touches Tiffany's cheek.
Tiffany nods her head, flashing her eye smile again, "kamzahamida"
Taeyeon walk Tiffany to the door, no smile was able to play on her face at all, she rubs the skin of the back of her neck, she opens the door. Before Tiffany leaves, she turn around to look at Taeyeon, "thank you for the help, taeyeon~"
"is okay, small matter"
"tiffany~~~"
A guy dress up smartly walks to them under the umbrella.
And indeed it was right, it was the guy who was standing closely around Tiffany during incident.
He looks at Taeyeon unkindly, but Taeyeon didn't have any interest on looking at him anyway.
"see you next time, Taeyeon… Let's go wooyoung oppa" Tiffany gets under the umbrella with Wooyoung, she turns around and waves goodbye to Taeyeon.
After closing the door, all Taeyeon wanted to do was to be in her room, alone.
"Taeyeon!"
Taeyeon stops at halfway of the stairs, "dae omma?"
"where are you going? Dinner is about to be ready~"
"omma, im rather tired, so.. I'll be in my room"
"don't you want to eat?"
"maybe later" Taeyeon answers in a low tone as she continues climbing on the stairs and into her room.
Shutting the door close, Taeyeon felt her steps become heavy, she slams her hold body, face facing towards the bed. Directly her face, slams right into the pillow in front of her.
She groans, muffling the groans with her pillow.
That's it kim tae yeon! It's over! Get over it…. Life goes on… is just not right for you to be sad for losing a…..girl~ dae… that Tiffany is pretty! Smart! Intelligent! almost everything a person is looking for…. Guys would go gaga for her….not only guys….girls too….well, maybe just me…ugh! Enough already! I am lucky enough when she said she is comfortable with me. Lucky enough that she said we are friends….friends….friend….hmmmmm….i….i don't want to be just friends…I don't….is not that I want to take the advantage, but is hard enough….for me….i don't even know if I can accept her as…just friends…and then what? See her being somebody else lover? See her holding other people's hand, see her hugging someone else, or being hug!? Ugh! No no no no no no! stay away, yes, that's right!
Taeyeon flip herself around, now she stares on the ceiling, laying her head on her folded arms behind her head. She sighs several times, thinking what Tiffany said. Taeyeon shakes her head hard, trying to shake those feelings off.
Boya, taeyeon ah? Trying hard to forget this girl? What you gonna do huh? Pretended that she didn't exist? Ah! Like its ever possible =.= 2years off crush…well, I should've known…it's just a crush, just a lust, who knows, I will meet someone I love even more, in the future. Whatever, life moves on….that's right…life moves on….but that guy…she and him? they don't even look like a couple, I mean sure he is sort of cute, but he….he is short for a guy….he don't have the couple look with her… couple look? Are you kidding me, taeyeon? Couple look?
Taeyeon laughs at her own thoughts, self pathetic laugh.
Then what? Tiffany and you have the couple look? What the heck… this is stupid… I should stop thinking about it… stop talking to myself, yeah, stop like now…yeah…don't talk..ayyy!
Taeyeon starts grumbling in anger as she turns side to side, faster and faster pace.
That's right! No more….no more over thinking, that's all, you and tiffany? One word…
IMPOSSIBLE.
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The alarm set off, ringing loudly by the side, Taeyeon reach out and smacks the alarm clock on her side table away, letting it drops on the floor, it stop ringing immediately, believe that it's spoiled. Taeyeon yawn lazily, rubbing her eyes, seems like she has accidentally slept through the night and didn't have her dinner, Taeyeon push her fringe backwards and she sighs.
Another day has passed….
Taeyeon open and close her eyes slowly, about to fall back to sleep anytime, she shakes her head and sit up, avoiding any chances of accidentally falling back asleep. What happened yesterday seems like a dream. Taeyeon lazily sits up, her leg at the edge of the side of her bed.
She picks up the alarm clock from the ground, looking at it. She shakes it a few times.
I need to get another new alarm clock…
Taeyeon sighs, she touches her own forehead, feeling her temperature.
Why am I acting as though I have broken up with Tiffany? Funny.
After taking a bath, Taeyeon look at the time on her phone, it shows the time that Tiffany and Jessica is about to walk pass her house. She makes her way, excitedly towards the window, but only to stop herself halfway there, she shakes her head.
Don't do it anymore, Taeyeon…. Be strong… time to make a change.
Taeyeon felt her hand clench into a fist form, she flex her jaw.. fighting what her mind and heart tells her to do.
What the heck you two! I thought the heart and mind will make a great pact but why are they acting like they were sworn enemies! My mind is telling me stay put in the track, don't make any more moves but heart is telling me likewise, asking me to go and have a look… like I always do…
Taeyeon sighs as her organs aren't working together.
If I keep on doing this, the only person who will get hurt is me… life moves on Tae…life moves on…
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It's passed two weeks already and good news, she moves on, she did. Although till now, she has got to admit, she still thinks about Tiffany, at times… but she manages to control herself from actually going gaga over her. She has her life, Tiffany has her own, and that's it. She even goes to school earlier in order not to bump into Tiffany along the way.
"hey, shortie" Sooyoung calls out, ruffling Taeyeon's hair.
Taeyeon dodge away, looking at her best friend one kind, "what"
"it seems like the pass week, you seems to be a little bit sadder, than you usual are~"
"huh?" Taeyeon runs her fingers through her own hair.
"am I right? Or just thinking too much?"
"thinking too much" Taeyeon rolls her eyes, "im just fine"
"wanna go to the library?"
Taeyeon shakes her head, just then, her eyes widen when she sees someone in front of her not far away, it's Jessica and Tiffany, and the rest of the bunch of the guys, Wooyoung included.
The group was laughing loudly, even Tiffany's voice is heard.
"opppaaaa~~~~~"
Tiffany's aegyo is literally spoken out loud, somehow, something, somewhat, Tiffany breaks the laugh and turns around, their eyes met, Taeyeon and Tiffany. After two long weeks.
Taeyeon sees how Tiffany's body language is reacting, Tiffany is decided to walk to Taeyeon actually. Quickly Taeyeon grabs Sooyoung by the arm and yank her back, walking back into their school compound.
"yahhhh, where are we going?" Sooyoung ask, trying to keep her balance from falling.
"library" Taeyeon said as she walks in the fastest pace ever, "didn't you say you wanted to?"
"yeah, but you didn't want to…" Sooyoung looks at Taeyeon, wondering.
"come on then"
Stupid you, taeng! Why did you walk and leave just like that just now? When she saw you and about to walk to you, you left abruptly, that's stupid you know! She'll thought something happened! Or will she even care?
Taeyeon mentally smacking herself after and after again, as she cycles home.
Thinking back what happened not long ago.
Gwenchana….taeng…you did it at least, at least you didn't stunned and becomes gaga over her.
Taeyeon nodded, she pouted a little.
She did another swift corner, cycling right away into her house like she always does.
But shock to see Tiffany standing at her porch, not able to control the bike properly,
Taeyeon falls sideways, landing on her elbow, getting cuts from the ground.
"ah! Taeyeon!"
That voice….that voice…I thought I'll never hear them ever again….
Tiffany rushes to Taeyeon's side, giving a help to get Taeyeon up, Taeyeon sits up as Tiffany pushes the bicycle aside that was trapping one of Taeyeon's leg under it.
"gwenchanayo?" Tiffany ask, her eyes plays worrisome.
Taeyeon find herself accidentally drowning into those eyes, those eyes that were worriedly looking at her.
Tiffany please….i was trying hard myself…to get far away from you…if possible, forget you…
Tiffany's hand leans out, almost touching the injured arm, but Taeyeon already had her injured arm yank away before she can reaches to her. The reaction from Taeyeon only made Tiffany stares at her in surprise, wondering why or what made Taeyeon react that way.
Oh shit….. now she'll totally take me as a weirdo….
Only quiet stares in between them now, Tiffany slowly, embarrassingly retreats her hands back to her side, but she remain in her position, bending down on her knees right next to Taeyeon.
"it-it's okay… I got myself…." Taeyeon stutters.
Tiffany nods her head quietly, only watching Taeyeon, who sweeps the dirty stains off her elbow.
Taeyeon gritted her teeth when she accidentally brushes against her newly deep cuts.
Tiffany move aside when Taeyeon gets up, they look at each other awkwardly.
Taeyeon opens her mouth, her lips were moving, but she cant seem to find the right words to say, Tiffany's always brighten up eyes, are now seems to be forming into a sad one.
Why does she look like she's about to cry…..?
"taeyeon"
At last, the first word that breaks the awful silences treatment.
Taeyeon only manage to look at Tiffany, letting the latter to continue speaking.
"don't you want to ask, why am I here?"
Taeyeon is surprise with Tiffany's bravery, instead, she herself is nothing like but a coward. Seeing there is no response from Taeyeon, Tiffany continues, "what happened, Taeyeon?"
"n-nothing…I fall all the time..is-"
"no, us…" Tiffany corrected Taeyeon before she goes into any further details about her falling off the bicycle, Taeyeon form an O with her mouth before she looks at the ground.
"nothing"
"nothing?" Tiffany repeats the short word that Taeyeon just replied.
Taeyeon nods her head, once again, avoiding looking at Tiffany right in the eyes.
"you're different, from the last time we did my school project….after that, I no longer sees you, even in the morning" Tiffany answers.
O_o she…what? She realizes I wasn't around in the morning anymore too? Wow! That means she does pay some attention to me! *victory cheer* no no! =.= what is that to be happy about, stupid!
"you seems to be….." Tiffany continues, "avoiding me"
The last word seems to be the hardest for Tiffany to say it out, cos it took her some time to say it and when she did, her voice becomes so much softer. It made Taeyeon gulp.
Taeyeon let out a fake chuckle, "a-avoiding?"
Tiffany nod her head firmly, "like this afternoon, I was about to walk to you, to greet you, you left abruptly~~"
"I didn't see you" Taeyeon lies.
"you liar, you saw me"
Taeyeon look at Tiffany who seems to be sounded angrier this time, when she calls Taeyeon a liar.
Shit! now she thinks im a liar! Why are you making yourself so badly in front of her taeyeon! Even if you two cant be together, this is not the way to make her hate you, at least let her respect you for some point, now….she's hating me! That's the least I want =(
"if I did or said something wrong, tell me, or your mum dislike me as a friend of yours, tell me"
Tiffany's voice getting angrier at this point, Taeyeon shakes her head, no, her mum didn't dislike her, instead, her mum adores her!
"we're friends Taeyeon and friends weren't suppose to treat each other this way!" Tiffany's voice crack up, as if she was about to cry.
Taeyeon hung her head low, didn't know what to do, or what to say.
"I will not bother you anymore, Taeyeon" Tiffany walks over to the porch to pick up her school bag which were laying on the ground, she looks at Taeyeon one last time, as she decide to leave.
Stop her taeyeon! Stop her! You're going to lose her! It's enough that you lose her love! Now, don't you dare lose the friendship you both had for each other! Please do something you coward!
"tiffany! Jakgemma~~" Taeyeon calls out, relief that Tiffany did stop in her tracks, as she was about to walk out from Taeyeon's garden. Taeyeon lets out a sigh, it made Tiffany turns around.
An upset face was display on Tiffany's face.
"yes…..?"
Taeyeon slowly lick her lips, her very dry lips, "there is nothing wrong…"
"then why? Why did you avoid me…." Tiffany continues to ask.
Because im trying to forget you! if I don't do it, I'll be suffering, tiffany….
"sorry" that's all Taeyeon can say after all that had happened.
"sorry?"
Taeyeon nods her head, "if I made you felt like I have been avoiding you"
"you surely did and I wonder why and because I need to know, I have the urge to know, that is why I came, taeyeon" Tiffany answers.
"but why- you have so many others-"
"you are you, taeyeon, and they are they, don't mix it up, don't compare, is different" Tiffany's eyebrow arched close together, as her eyes concentrated on looking upon Taeyeon.
Did you know, when you say so, you're making me think of the other way, fany? Is so hard! Why is it so hard to let you go? And now, you're only making it even harder than ever….!
"Taeyeon, I want to know you…." Tiffany says, "to know…who you really are"
"…..why?" Taeyeon really wonders why this time.
Tiffany shrugs her shoulders, "I don't know… but if you keep avoiding me, I will never find out"
Taeyeon sighs as she didn't receive a proper answer from Tiffany.
"there is a part of me, really wonders, how you eventually turns out to be" Tiffany suddenly said.
You're making it so hard for me, tiffany!
"you're….special, Taeyeon"
Special? Like how you are so very special to me? Tiffany…. What is this conversation leading to?
Your words, are making me thinking differently….wae….
"special?" Taeyeon ask, to confirm what Tiffany said.
"I want a special friend like you" Tiffany added.
The last sentence that Tiffany said, actually made Taeyeon's heart shatters.
Taeyeon quietly brush her fringe up, a slight frown is played on her face and Tiffany caught it before it fades away quickly.
"wae?" Tiffany ask, "you don't want to?"
"of course not…." Taeyeon sighs, she paused for a moment, to breathe.
Even when you break my heart, I wont want to ever break yours, tiff…
"who doesn't wants a friend like you, eh, fany" Taeyeon faked a smile.
But Tiffany didn't know it was a fake one, so she returns one happy smile to Taeyeon, "good!"
"then….promise me that you wont avoid me anymore after this"
Tiffany held out her pinkie finger right in front of Taeyeon.
"dae?" Tiffany ask, her eyes glowing hopefully, waiting for Taeyeon's answer.
Taeyeon hook her pinkie finger with Tiffany's, "dae"
And I have just made the stupidest promise ever, a promise that will lead me to a deeper heart break. But, does it really matters, when I am looking at the beautiful face in front of me now?
Doesn't matter, cos they say, if you love a person, for what matter most, all you want is for them to be happy and you'll be happy, those are just words aren't they? Easy said than done.. I am happy when I sees her smile again, but will I ever be happy, if I saw that smile was shown to another person? The person who loves her…..who isnt me…