I am always by your side
Captain Swan fanfiction
Killian was on his boat, his more modern boat he can sail with but what also is houseboat he shared with Emma. He got the boat from her as his christmas present and he was so suprised that she gave him this modern boat, he loved to be on the water again, to set sail with his love by his side, and growing old together but sadly that didn't happen. She was gone and it gave him so much pain and he was lost without her.
She was the reason that he had changed in the first place, because he wanted to change for him, but above all he wanted to change for her so he could be there for her, to love her, to protect her, cherish her. Her parents sat to him he didn't failed, that it wasn't his fault and it may is true, but feeling lost without her is reasonable and understandable. But what he doesn't know is that he is not entirely alone.
He feels a present by his side, he just has the feelinh that there is something near him, something he can not see but feel. Maybe he feels Emma there, but it is just a believe, it may is not true or maybe it is, but believe is never wrong, and he things if someone has passed that person is not entirely gone. Maybe she is with him, he likes to think that she is with him.
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She watch him walk on his boat. The boat they both shared together before she passed away. Seeing him torn in grief is hard for her, but she can not do anything about it anymore. She is gone, not present in her body anymore. Seeing him struggle is something she wishes she can stop, so the only thing what she can do is whisper to him in his sleep, touch his arm, letting him know with one little energy spark that he is not alone.
It is late in the evening and she watched him sleep now, she goes to lay down next to him, to cuddle him and to talk to him in his sleep. "I saw you today, you looked handsome. Also you're a real captain again, a nice heroic captain." She speaks to him all night long, speaking to him in his sleep.
"It is really beautiful here, I don't have to safe the day every day, kinda enjoy that…" But I miss you and Henry, my parents and everything here on the earth. It is different to watch you guys from a distance, to be standing with you, seeing you, but you don't see me and I know… one day you guys will go to me."
"Yes my love…. I will." Does he say in his sleep, she knowing that he hears her now, putting her arms around him once more.
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The next morning Killian woke up and he had a weird sensation, he knows he is not alone. He get's dressed to to go to the library to help Belle out, he kinda likes books now, it can help him pass the time and to get rid of the negative and sad emotions he has. Books are his escape for the reality.
He walks over to the mirror and he looks at himself and closes his eyes, thinking about her, the accident she had with her car. When he opens his eyes, hazel greeneyes and a woman with blonde hair is standing there, Emma. He blinks for just a split second and she is has disappeared already.
"I knew that you were with me, love." He smiles a bit and get's to the library, walking on the docks towards the centre of the town.
And just like that days pass by, months towards years, years into decades and decades into internity.
He walks the gade of heaven or whatever this place is… waiting at the gate. Looking at himself, his hands. Wait… hands? He has two hands now. The gate finally opens and she is standing there, smiling at him with pure happiness in her hazel green eyes. "Emma." "Killian."
He walks through the gate and they start to run towards each other, hugging each other, not letting go. "I missed you." He strokes her face with his hand. "And I missed you."
He takes her hand in his, her lovely, warm hand, both walking into the light that lays behind the gate, together, soulmates, together towards internity.