I looked out of the window and sippped the tea from the cup I was holding in my hands. It was raining again. I even began thinking it was the most popular weather of this damn wizard war. It´s not like I hated rain. There were times adored it, especially in summer.
Especially with…Especially with special people. I looked out of the window once more, I wished he would suddenly appear in the street from nowhere, but it was never about to happen. I have been waiting for him for long, and somewhere deep in my heart there was still some hope hidden, that´s why I was checking the street all the time. Sometimes I even heard the ring ringing, but it was just my wish, not reality.
He promised me to return. He said he needed to explain it at home, he´s married and has a son, I get it. I promised him to give him the time he needed but now I feel, maybe I offered him more I could stand. Because being without him…hurts too bad.
"Auch! " I grabbed my belly at the place from which I suddenly felt sharp pain. I needed to sit, as I began feeling dizzy. "What the hell!" That was one from the reason I really hoped he would appear, as it was not only about missing him anymore.
I needed his help, as his little girl was no easy job. I was seven months pregnant and…it was complicated. I knew I should have visited St. Mungo´s a long time ago, but I was too scared. I love my baby so much and it´s not even borned yet, I may have lost Charlie, but I cannot handle loosing my little girl.
St. Mungo´s is the same like Ministry of Magic, of course there might be some good people willing to help, but how to recognize them from the ba ones. It was even worse as I was poorblood. Going to any public place could put both of us in so much danger.
But if Charlie doesn´t appear soon, I´ll need to do something on my own, as I don´t think everything is all right with my baby. It just can´t be when I´m feeling this way. "Oh God!" The pain became stronger, I brang my legs up to the chest hoping it would stop, but it didn´t.
In the end I decided to send a patronum to my old friend Hermione. I knew she was probably busy, but I needed someone to help me, and I didn´t know about anyone else to ask. I lied my head down on my stomach and whispered soft words to my belly. I probably try to calm down myself than anyone else, but it was working, as I fell a sleep in a few minutes.
When I woke up, I wasn´t in my little living room anymore. I was lying in a bed a dull bed room, but it was probably only because there were curtains on the no idea what the time was. I looked at my left hand but there was no watch anymore. I looked around a found the watch lying on the night table. It was two p.m. "How long have I been sleeping?"
"Not enough to rest proparly if I may say." I turned my head to the door and saw Mrs. Weasley looking at me worried. "Mrs. Weasley! What are you doing here? " "Well right now, I came to see whether everything is fine with you." She smiled and came closer to me.
"Where am I? How that...My belly…it doesn´t hurt anymore…Is…is everything fine with her? Is she all right? Didn´t she?" In the end I was almost yelling and then I burst in tears. "Oh darling! Don´t worry! Everything is fine."
She sat at the corner of the bad and hugged me. Her arms were so warm and soothing I almost fell like a little girl comming to my mommy asking for comfort. It´s been while since my mum has left, but it was marvelous feeling to feel that way again, although I was supposed to be in the comforting position for my baby very soon.
"Hermione has found you lying on the floor in your apartment and took you here. We called the healer and he did all he could to save your baby and he was succesful. But I must say, it wasn´t very responsible from you not to visit any healer. This healer said you hadn´t made one single appointment with healers since you became pregnant. "
After these words I began crying again. "Oh honey, come on. Everything is fine now." "I knew something was wrong with my little girl, I did. You must think I´m a horrible mother. I knew I needed to see the healer, but it just…" "Why didn´t you see the healer?
"I was too scared to go to St. Mungo´s as I´m a poorblood. They try to catch all and if they got me, they wouldn´t only took me to Azkaban. They would also kill my baby. I was just to scared. " With each word I was crying a little bit more.
"Honey, why didn´t you tell us? We would help you! YOu think I would mind because you aren´t with my son anymore? Or why didn´t you come? Oh no, no more tears, you can tell me later. I only want you to rest. It has been a bit too much stress for both of you, and that´s not good." "You´re so kind to me."
"Oh don´t say. It´s the least I can do for you. Now listen to me, get some more rest and when you wake up, I´ll prepare you something to eat, just come down afterwards." She gave me an encouraging looked and kissed me on the forhead. Then she left the room and I fell asleep again. I had a lot of dreams, all the pictures were comming up and leaving again.
When I woke up, it was already darl outside even without the curtains. I took my shoes and when to see Molly. I wasn´t really sure where I was, but what knew was it wasn´t house of The Weasley´s. I have visited that house once before and it was filled with light, which couldn´t be said about this house.
"Isabelle! You are awake! " Hermione ran to me and gave me a big hug. I was so worried. Why haven´t you told me? I have no idea you were about to become a mommy!" "I´m sorry, I just thought you have all been busy with fighting the deatheaters, I didn´t want to bother you with my unimportant personal issues…"
"Unimportant personal issues? Oh Isabelle, what were you thinkging? We have all been worried about you for a while already, you just disappeared. I understand after you broke up with Charlie you prefered not to see his family, but still. We care about you so much. You have no idea how much!" "Thank you Hermione."
"For saving my child. I owe you all my life." "You owe me nothing but a forgivness that I haven´t visited you earlier. If I knew it would be all much easier!" "No Mione, I owe you everything. Truly. You have no idea how much grateful I am." "Ok, but stop now, let´s have some snack." She winked at me and showed met he way to kitchen.
"Oh! So you are awake! That´s grwat! You must be starving! I prepared you some light snack, here you are." She took me to the table which was full of everything but light snacks. Mrs. Weasley probalby had to think I haven´t been eating for past seven months. "Thank you very much, but I can´t eat so much."
"Oh don´t worry, just eat. You must be very hungry. Hermione, sweetheart, when is Ron comming?" "I´m not really sure. He promised to be here by ten but you know what he´s like." "Sure I do!" Mrs. Weasley just shook her head and sat at the table with me. "So, where exactly am I right now? " "You don´t know? It´s the house of the Order of Phoenix. You´ll meet the others soon, I´m sure, but don´t worry, you´ll have enough time and silence to rest.
At least boys won´t be fighting as long as I tell them you need quiet to rest." She smiled at me and went to the window. And owl has just flown in. "So what do you bring me? " Mrs. Weasley asked the owl, took the letters and and gave the owl some crisps.
"Charlie is writting." I thought my heart skipped a beat. "Is he? And what does he write?" "He says he´s sorry he can´t help the Order right now and that he hasn´t stopped by for such a long time. His wife wants him to stay at home as she is scared. " "Oh, she´s such a slut! " Hermione said. "Mione! What kind of rude words are they?"
"Oh, Mrs. Weasley, you know very well as well as I do that she is just using Charlie when it´s useful for her. It´s a war! Who isn´t scared?" "Yes, but it´s Charlie´s decision, if he is happy this way, then we need to accept it." "I know, and I´m sorry, it just drives me crazy. We have to write him Isabelle is with us now, I´m sure he´ll stop by then! "
"NO!"I cried. Both Mrs. Weasley and Hermione looked at me. "Isabelle, darling, why not? " "Please, he can´t know I´m pregnant. Promise me not to tell him!" "Why not? He won´t be angry! He´s married and he decided to stay with his wife after all she has done, he can´t be angry about you for moving on." "I know, but please, do this for me. I mustn´t know."
"How long has it been you two have seen for the last time?" Hermione asked me. I looked at her and then at Mrs. Weasley. And then one single tear rolled down my cheek. "Seven months." I said.