Title: Princess of Regret

Disclaimer: All recognizable characters, settings, and plots of Mermaid Melody do not belong to me.

Guest: I do still have the original. Here it is! It's extremely different from the re-written one and it's not very good. Nonetheless, I hope you still like it!

These are the things I no longer wish to understand.

I no longer wish to understand the pain of losing those who are dear to me. I no longer wish to understand the feeling of seeing lifeless bodies in front of me, broken and bloody, mouths frozen in a cry for help.

I no longer wish to understand what it feels like to be a disappointment. Everyone who believed in me, who thought I was their hope, look down on me, their eyes filled with regret and fear as they leave me.

My one true love stared at me in shock and disgust as he said he hated me and abandoned me. I no longer wish to understand it.

I no longer wish to understand and appreciate the beauty of his eyes. The treasured memories that I thought I would never forget. Those eyes that I had admired, the eyes that would show me love and care. Never had he showed his true eyes to others. His bright orange eyes were my lifeline, the only thing I wanted to see.

I no longer wish to understand his laugh, his smile, the importance of it. How I longed to always hear that sound, his happiness.

I was the most important to him.

Not anymore.

What have I done?

I no longer wish to understand the sight of blood darkening the water around me, seeping into my blonde hair.

I no longer wish to understand the terrible memories I have of aqua and green eyes staring at me in disbelief and... hate.

I no longer wish to understand the burden of royalty. They used to stare at me in awe, used to believe that I was so lucky, that I had everything they could have ever wanted.

They call me a Princess. I call myself a fool.

How easily did I forget everything, fall to the despair of evil, and destroy my loyalty? I no longer wish to understand the answer.

I no longer wish to understand the feeling of being lonely. The feeling claws at me until I scream, and I have no other choice to hurt myself.

I no longer wish to understand the feeling of unstoppable tears. They fall, a steady trickle, and my body shakes violently until I fear that it will not stop.

I never thought that I would ever use a weapon besides my voice.

I no longer wish to understand the feeling of stabbing a sword into a helpless body, having a terrible smile on my face, and hearing the victim's scream as they fall to the ground, looking at me with deathly pale skin and wide, cold eyes.

I no longer want to feel.

I no longer wish to understand the feeling of succumbing to the depths of darkness.

I no longer wish to understand what it is like to have a weight in my chest, to have my heart wrenched out violently.

I no longer wish to understand the horror of hearing my own laugh. I do not laugh as if I am laughing at a joke or even in maniacal glee. My laugh is blank, humorless, and soulless.

I no longer wish to understand what it is like to have nothing to lose, to have everything taken away from me. The worst part is that it is my fault.

There is no one to blame.

I no longer wish to understand the pain of a calm and cold anger taking over me, making me a monster, bringing out my worst self.

I no longer wish to understand myself.

My state of being abandoned is swallowing my sanity, dawn by dusk, I feel my reason slipping away.

What have I done?

I snapped. That's all. I completely lost it.

I, Lucia, Mermaid Princess of the North Pacific, keeper of the Pink Pearl, heir to Aqua Regina, killed numerous mermaids... and became darkness.

I do not wish to understand the feeling of regret. This was granted to me.

I regret it no longer.

Hate veils my dark eyes, I run a hand through my dark hair, a terrible laugh escapes my throat as I swing my sword, the smell of blood the only thing that matters.

I am Lucia, the Shadowed Light.

Dun-dun-duuuuun!

-ShadowOfDarkness2004