I really hadn't intended on writing another chapter for this story, but people seem to like it, so I decided to give it a go.
Nobody had even the faintest clue that I had feelings for her. Sometimes it felt like House did, but the lack of attention he has been giving my personal life seems to point otherwise. He just dropped hints when she was around sometimes that made me a little paranoid. At least I can suffer through this misery in peace. Well almost in peace. It would help if she wasn't always in my face helping on cases. I'm sure she meant no harm, but it wasn't helping my emotional stability to have her around all the time.
I think Cameron still has feelings for House. Why else would she hang around all the time? I overheard Chase telling her to get over him once. Seems to be what everyone thinks of Cameron hanging around all the time. What I wouldn't give to be in House's place just this once. If Cameron only reciprocated half of what I felt for her I would be completely happy. That could never happen though. Not only did she clearly still have feelings for House, she was dating Chase, and how are you supposed to compete with that. Especially considering that Cameron was straight. None of this changed the fact that Cameron was the most most amazingly beautiful person Thirteen had ever laid eyes on. She looked perfect in every way to her. Of course if you looked close enough there were flaws, but none of that mattered. The flaws just made her more perfect in Thirteen's eyes.
I noticed that she is incredibly clumsy though. She is always running into things, dropping stuff and tripping. Weird trait for a doctor to have, but I thought it was cute. She always looked so embarrassed when she fumbled with something, it was adorable.
After the whole fiasco with Spencer and all my co-workers finding out that I sleep around with girls, is when House started dropping comments about myself and Cameron. I hope it is just some perverted fantasy of his, and that he doesn't realize that its true. Work would be unbearable if he knew I had feelings for Cameron. It was almost unbearable now.
I don't know House does it. Being miserable is absolutely the worst feeling ever. Every since I realized I had feelings for Cameron I have been borderline depressed. This misery is driving away whatever I sanity I do have. I hope the feelings pass soon, and if they don't, I might just find myself hanging around the ER more often.