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I woke up to find my self alone on the bed. I had been dreaming of the night at the cabin with Dimitri. It had been so real that I could almost feel the warmth of his body pressed against mine.

But then my sweet dream with my Dimitri changed.

Strigoi was taking him away from me.

The Strigoi bit him in front of me and blood started to pour from his wound. I started screaming at the top of my lungs to Dimitri to get away from him but he didn't, he was just standing there without fighting.

I was certain that Strigoi was using compulsion and then the Strigoi left and Dimitri fell to the floor unconscious.

I started crying like a little girl and didn't stop till I ran out of tears. I wanted to go back to my dream with Dimitri not, forget about Strigoi and stay there and just sleep but I knew I had to go check on Dimitri.

Right now he needed me.

I got up and took a shower. The hot water relaxed me little and some of the tension left my body. I got out of the shower and put on some jeans and a tee.

I dried my hair and let it down. Dimitri loves my hair like this and if he wakes up than I want to look my best for him.

When I was ready I walked to the clinic.

The air outside was cold and I wasn't wearing a jacket. I almost expected to hear Dimitri's voice behind me asking me what I was doing here and offering me his duster. I tried to ignore the cold by putting my arms around me.

If Dimitri were here he probably wouldn't want me to be walking this early alone after what happened. He'd tell me one of his Zen lessons.

Didn't matter I was going to go to the clinic no mater what.

I walked in and sat next to Dimitri's bed. He was still unconscious of course but just being beside and close to him was enough for me. Nothing was going to make me leave his side now that I had him with me. I'll even tell everyone about us my self; I couldn't care less about what other people thought at this moment. My Russian God Dimitri was on this bed fighting for his life and I needed to be by his side.

I took his had in mine and held it tight. I touched his arm and noticed goose bumps on his arms. He must be cold. So I began to stroke his arm up and down to give him some heat.

He wasn't going to leave me after what happened. He survived the Strigoi attack and now he was going to survive this. He's strong and I know that he'll make it.

I love him too much to lose him right now. I am his Roza and he's my Comrade. We complement each other; we're perfect for each other. God I love him so much that I'm pretty sure that not even this could keep us apart.

I leaned in and kissed his soft and warm lip. The kiss made me remember the night at the cabin and I had to fight back tears.

DPOV

The darkness around me didn't let me move at all. I could feel my body but couldn't even move one finger, much less talk to say that I was fine or as fine as I could be with my body all broken from the fight with the Strigoi.

Strigoi.

Last thing I remember was to be surrounded by Strigoi and when they outnumbered me I tried to safe Rose. They attacked me but thank God she got out. As I saw her being taken away by Guardian alto all I could think of was that I might die but my heart and love for Rose would always be with her.

I fought with all my strength and anger that I managed to take down as many Strigoi as I could. I don't know how long it was till one of them managed to pin me to the cave's wall with such strength that it knocked the air out of my lungs leaving me gasping for air and hopeless for a couple of seconds.

He drank from me and then it wasn't just him, many other approached and they all wanted to drink from me. Some were so eager that they actually broke some bones but I was drugged by the bites that I couldn't have cared less. After a while when I think they thought I was already dead they left me there lying on the ground while they went after the Guardians.

I never was religious or actually thought of God but at that moment the only thing that mattered was Rosa so prayed the whole time for Roza's safety. God must have heard me because she got here safe.

That's the last thing I could remember. After that the darkness swallowed me and the next thing I recall was being carried away and then I heard voices.

I didn't recognize them at first but then they got clearer and I understood them. I recognized Kirova, Alberta and Guardian Hathaway's voices. Some other people were also talking but I didn't know who they were.

My whole buddy was throbbing with excruciating pain and my head felt as if it were going to explode.

They said something about not surviving; I imagined that they were talking about me.

Then Kirova told them to do whatever they could because I was one of the best Guardians and that she needed me. Well I never thought that she actually thought that vastly of me.

I wanted to say something but I couldn't move any part of my body, just feel he pain and try to endure it.

Everything sounded far away and my thought had been fussy and clouded with pain.

Every thought in my mind was about Roza but with all the noise and pain I kept tuning in and out of the conversation so I didn't really heard much that could tell me about the most important person in my mind right now.

They didn't mention Roza, they just kept talking and a while after they left I felt someone shoving something down my throat. I wanted to protest and tell them to stop but I couldn't. Though, my breathing problems ceased after that.

I could feel everything that they were doing to me but couldn't say anything. Later on someone grabbed my hand and I knew that I had to be dead to be able to feel her touch again.

I would have responded to that touch even dead.

Roza's hand closed around mine and the warmth of her hand made me feel better. She didn't let go of me in a long time and I felt grateful for it but I wanted to get up and kiss her passionately.

I felt exasperation when I tried just to be held back by darkness.

Someone else came and talked to Roza, I assumed that it was a nurse or something because Roza asked her about me.

She only provided information that I already knew but weren't entirely true.

She said that I was unconscious. Something that Roza figured out the moment she saw me, and that it was hard to tell how long I'd be like this.

I wanted to sigh in vexation and tell her to say something that might actually help me to wake up but, of course, I couldn't.

Then the nurse asked Roza the question that anybody else might have thought if they saw her crying like this for me.

She asked if Roza was my sister.

I didn't need to be awake to see her get mad, then without another word the nurse left the room. She must have glared at her and the poor nurse must have gotten away thinking the worst of my Roza.

I shook my head mentally.

Too son after that I heard Roza get up, she was going to leave. But before that I felt her lean close to me.

"I love you Comrade" She whispered in my ear and then kissed me, a soft kiss.

I wanted to say to her how much I loved her and pull her close to me but that wasn't possible. I screamed in my head and yelled obscenities in Russian but of course I was the only one that heard them because Roza left.

I drifted off to sleep shortly after that and when my senses came back nobody seemed to be in here with me so I tried to practice how to move my limbs again. It wasn't easy at all. I was paralyzed and it was so hard. But I tried, I don't know how long I tried because I stopped when I heard someone approaching.

Whoever came in sat next to me on the bed and held my hand.

Roza came back.

She started to stroke my arm and I felt much better with her by my side. I tried to squeeze her hand back but couldn't. I'll have to practice more.

She didn't say anything and after a while she leaned closer and kissed me again. I felt one of her tears on my cheek. She was crying because of me, I was causing her this pain. I wanted to tell her that at this moment she shouldn't be worrying about me at all, that I was going to eventually wake up, but that it might take some time.

This was the Doctor's fault. They told her that I might die and now she was feeling bad.

With great effort I managed to squeeze her hand a little bit. She quickly stopped kissing me and I could almost see her looking at my hand to know whether she imagined it or not.

I was so frustrated because I couldn't do anything else to reassure her that I was fine.

"Dimitri" She said astonished with a hint of optimism. "Dimitri are you awake? Can you hear me?" She took my hand in both of hers and I wanted to clutch her hand again but I felt so weak that I went back to sleep.

RPOV

He has squeezed my hand.

I was so excited and at the same time disappointed because he didn't do anything else after that. He kept motionless. I didn't got any closer after that afraid of hurting him, maybe that had been why he managed to squeeze my hand, because I hurt him.

But I wanted to think that he had done it because of the kiss I gave him. At this moment the only thing I could do was hope for him to get better and wait. I'm not the most patient person in the world but for Dimitri I could even do anything, right now he was my priority.

I tried to get my self out if this awful depression by going through my memories of those days when we first met. Dimitri, always fighting for control, a control that he seemed to lose whenever he was around me. I smiled to my self. He finally gave up a couple of days ago and just when we were planning to keep going with our relationship those stupid Strigoi attack and everything goes to hell.

I pushed the Strigoi out of my mind and focused only on Dimitri and me.

The night at the cabin's the best memory I have of him and me. Another one that I won't be able to forget was our first kiss when we were under the lust spell that Victor put on the necklace he gave me. Despite of all the hatred that I felt towards him there was a part of me that was grateful for it. He made Dimitri give in and finally kiss me with such a passion.

I sighed and then caressed Dimitri's cheek. He, however, didn't move at all.

So I kept telling him about us.