The Last Hide And Seek Game
By: Razux
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Disclaimer : Gakuen Alice belong to Higuchi Tachibana
Ruka POV
We always played hide and seek when we were kid. I, you and him. He was always be the sought one, and i, you and the rest of our friends were always be the hide one.
Did you know? After he found me, i always sought for you without anyone knew. But didn't care how hard i sought you, i was always be second to found you. He was always found you before me.
In that game , had one unwritten ruler than i can't broken. That ruler was "I always the second person find you, he is the first."
Did you know how jelous i was when i saw you smile that bright and beauty while he smile and huged you from behind if he found you? Why he? Can i be the one who hug you? Can i be the one who got your smiles? I was a kid that time, i never understood the mean of that feelings.
Time pass, we grew up, and everyone around our age stoped to played that game. That game was over, no hide and seek anymore. But, for me, you and he, for us, that game was not over yet.
Did you remember when we were twelve? When you lost in the forest while we were camping. I saw the calm, cold and unemotion him panic. I saw him running searching for you didn't care how much person tried to stoped him.
I didn't want to lose to him anymore, i was running searching for you too. I raced him to found you without anyone knew again. I thought, i must able to broken that ruler now, i can be the first one to found you, i can be the one who would huged you from behind, i can be the one who got your smile.
But, everything stil same when we were kid. I can't found you first. Still him, stil him found you first.
I saw he smile and huged you from behind. I saw you smile that bright and beauty with tears on your eye huged him tightly. My hearts was so hurt saw that, so hurt. And for the first time, i realized…
I love you.
But, at the same time, i realized too, my love was one side love, you would never love me back like i loved you, cause when i saw the smile of your and him, i knew, you love him, and he love you, your love each other.
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Did you know how beauty you was? I gues you never knew, you to dense to knew that. You was soo beauty, not just for me, but for anyone saw you. Every male would fell in love with you when they saw your smile.
But , no one were dare to near you, cause he was always at your side, glared and ready to beat everyone who were dare to near you.
He was a very egoist, arrogant and selfish person, cause he was always on your side and acted like you was his. And he was..
He was the most perfect person I ever met in this world.
He was a very handsome person with genius brains, a very atletic person with amazing charismas, a very strong person and can be depended, my best friend. I knew, compared to him, i was nothings.
And suddenly, the hide and seek game began again. Just this time , the game was played by your two, you and him, without me. I was been kicked out from that game. I tried to in that game, i tried to found you. But like before, still he found you first.
I was a selfish person too. I knew the reasons why you hid from him, but i was never told him. Cause i knew, you two would end up together if he knew the reasons why you hid from him, i would lost the hope to had you if he knew your feelings.
I hate myself that time, i traped in a very complecated situation and feelings. I love you, but i love him too. I traped between the girl i love and and my best friend.
If i thought about that, that time was really funny. In this world, between anyone, i was the one who most understood. Between you and him, that had a bond that can't be broken, between you two that had a world than can't be in by anyone. No hole in your relations.
Then, that day came. The day when we were sixteen year olds. The day when i saw he found you before me while you hid from him under sakura tree beside our school buildings. The day when i saw him huged you from behind confessed his feeling and you accepted him. The day when you two finally together.
I was broken hearts, my love had been rejected before i confessed. But, i can't not gave up when i saw the happy smile and laugh on your face. You and he really fited, you two really so perfect when together, you two really had been fated to together.
I tried to forgot you. Even hard i kept on tried and at least, little by little, i gues i was success.
I prayed for your happiness from the bottom of my hearts, i prayed the happiness for the girl most i love and best friend i love.
But, god never heard my prays.
You was sick. Brain tumor. You suffered the brain tumor and you just had a two months to lifed in this worlds.
I saw you sad, i saw you suffered, i saw you pale and thin from day to day, i saw your hair began to fells.
I was scare. I was scare to saw you dying cause i stil loved you that time. i started rare visited you, cause i didn't want to saw the pain face of your, i wanted to saw the healthy and full of smile you.
But, he different, he different with me. He stil stayed on your side, company you with his unemotion face, supported you and said everything would okay, you would lifed.
Then, that day came. That day when i visited you after this long time, i can't found you. They told me, you and he went picnic to the hill. With your best friend, i went searching for you two.
I and your best friend were so happy, we thought you finally started to got well now, you finally healthy and able to out from hospital. But what i saw in that hill was not what i wanted to saw.
I saw him sat and huged the deceyed you under the sakura tree. I saw you wiped his tears than fell down from his eyes. And he, he touched your hand softly while smile to you.
You knew? That tears was the first and the last tears of him than i ever saw in this lifed. His mask already broken, that cold and can't be broken mask he wore for this long time already been destroyed with that easy by you.
I saw he closesed his eyes an started to counted softly "One…"
"Two…"
"Three.."
"Four.."
"Five.."
I saw you smile "Find me again, when your time's up… I love you, Natsume…"
Your hand in his cheek fell down. You went from this world. He stoped his count and huged you tightly. But, you knew what the most coufused me? You was smile that bright and beauty like sleeping, he too, he was smile even tears keep on falling from his eye, the soft and peace smile of him.
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Did you knew? On your funeral, i and everyone cried. But, he was not. He just stood in silent looked at you with his red eyes and smile.
You who suddenly gone gave me and everyone a very deep scar. we, who you left fell down to the sadness. But he, a day after your funeral, he was back like what he used to be, no sadness and pains. He was back to be the greats him.
I was very mad that time. Didn't he feel the sadness of your leaving? Didn't he feel lost you? Was your existen in his hearts just like that?
Walking forward.
I knew that. But, didn't he think this to fast? Didn't he think he too unfeeling? I can't forbided he to walking forward, but to honest, I hate him that time. Why you choiced a person like him? Why you choiced a selfish him instead of me? Why you not choiced me who love you more than him when you still lifed?
Our friendship become little worse. But, i still on his side, in his side with a little hateness to him in my deepen hearts.
You shall knew one thing. Your bestfriend cried. Your stoic bestfriend cried, she same with me, can't let you go. I comforted her and she comforted me. we comforted each other.
You knew? after that time i realized, i started to saw you friend in a diferrent views. I did not see her as a cold and unemotion person again. For the real, she was a very kind girl, just she got problem to said what she wanted to said and express her feeling.
With her in my side and i in her side, little by little, we succeds walking forward, little by little we finnaly able to let you go. And when i realized, i already fell in love with her.
I confessed to her, i asked her to be my girlfriend and she accepted me.
Did you knew what she said when accept me? she said "I knew you always love that idiot from we were kids. I always looked at you raced with Hyuga to found her even you never win from him. You don't need to seek me like you seek that idiot, cause i will be the one seek and find you."
I was happy. I was really happy. I can't describe the happiness i felt that time. I was wrong this whole time, this whole time, we not played this game with three player, but four. I, you, he and she, the girl i most love now.
I didn't need to sought anymore. I didn't need to seek in that hide and seek game anymore cause i was wrong this whole time. My position from the beginning was not the seek one, but a hide one. And she, your bestfriend, a woman than i loved was the seek one, sought and found me.
You happy for us to, right? I knew you must be happy for us. My hide and seek game was over. Cause i already be found and i didn't want to hide anymore, i didn't want to let the woman i love sought me again, I wanted stayed in her side forever, I love her.
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Time goes by, finally everyone able to let you go. That was what i thought till i realized how wrong i was this whole time.
I said nothing changed with him right? I said he already back to the great his a day after your funeral right? That right, he was back be the great him, but as time goes by, i realized, he change.
He always alone and looked so lonely. He become so loved to watched the sky more than manga which he always readed this whole times. That make me scare, cause didn't know why, i kinda felt he wanted to went after you. I always stayed in his side, but i was wrong again. He never think to went after you even a bit, he countinue his lifed without you so well, without sadness even a bit.
Did you know? He never date anyone after you gone. No, not like that, he never love anywoman again after you gone. He was a very perfect person, you must knew that, right? How many womans wanted to be his girl friend. But, he always rejected them. I didn't know why that time, i thought he wanted to focus with his job.
Time keep on pass, we become adult and everyone around him started to told him to searching a girl friend cause he always lonely, his parent, his family, his friends included me.
But, did you know what he said every time we told him to searching a girldfriend? He would smirk and said "The hide and seek game is not over yet."
I didn't understand, no one ever understood what his answer means.
Than, i meried. I finally meried with your best friend, i would made she happy, i vow i would made her happy for the rest of her life.
On the day i meried, he be my bestman. I smile and i saw he smile to. I was happy, really happy. I finally meried the woman i love.
On the night, in my reception, i found him stood alone in balcon looked up the dark sky. I walked to him and had a chat with him. Didn't know why i said to him "I meried now. The rest of our friends already meried too, just you the one who not meried yet. You not young anymore, Natsume, quickly, search a woman who will be your wife."
And like this whole time, he smirked and said "The hide and seek game not over yet."
"I don't understand what you means Natsume? But, as your best friend, i want to said, find the woman you love and happy."
Never i imaged even a bit if he would answered my question with confident and clear "I already so happy."
I become more counfussed, and when i asked him again, he explained to me, the explaination which made me so embarrassed and guilty to him. Embarressed cause as his best friend, i never understood him even a bit and guilty cause this whole time, I was wrong.
Did you know what he said? He lift his face to looked at me and said "I already so happy, Ruka. I know, when we were kids till she gone, you love her. You for the real so hate me when you looked me already walking forward a day after her… her funeral, right? You always by my side cause you thought, i would go after her right?"
I really suprisess, cause i never thought he knew all of that.
"I would never do that, cause i know, if i end my life, that means i more love myself than her. A world without her really so hard and painfull. Death maybe is a very good choices. But, she want me to life, he ask me to seek her again when my time is up dan end our hide and seek game. I want prove to her, i will able to pass the life without her in this world like her last requests."
I just watched him in silent and suprisess cause this was the first time he told me what he truly felt, took out the mask he always wore after you gone.
He lift his face to the dark sky again "I already so happy, Ruka. Sure, She already gone from this world, but she will always in my hearts. With the memorys of her in my hearts, i already happy. I was happy in this world cause i know i love her and her love me back till her last breaths."
Did you know? Heard his answer, I realized for the first time. You not wrong, you not wrong to choiced him in your lifed. In this world and a world after your died, compare to anyone, he was the person who most loved you.
We already walking forward and the memories of you become more fade from day to day, but him, even always looked like walking forward, the true was he never walking forward again. He already stoped walking forward after you left him. And the memories of you in his hearts would never fade, the memories of you in his hearts would always shine like the sun on the summer morning.
His love for you really amazing. I really felt shame to myself cause i ever thought i loved you more than him. How small my love for you compared to his love for you.
Can i love my wife like he love you? That's my question now. Can i life like him if I lost my wife? I never knew, maybe i can, and maybe i can not.
He smirked, he kinda able to readed my mind that time and he said to me "You don't need to counfussed, Ruka. You will get the answer one day."
That night, he teached something than i would always remembered for the rest of my life
"If you love someone, never choice death if that person leave you, cause if you choice death, that means you more love youself cause you don't want to suffer in a world without him or her. If you love someone, you must life even that person leave you, life in this cruel and painfull worlds with the memories of him or her. Life to prove your love for he or her."
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Sixty years had pass, i already old, my hair was gray, my skin had winkled. I already had a childs and grands. My life was so happy and I knew, he too.
Did you know? He really not meried for the rest of his lifed, he still single till he laid weakly in his bed now. He was old, his handsome face already fade cause aging. But, his eye stil the eyes of him when he was young, the eye of the greats Natsume Hyuga.
Now, i, my wife, his sister, his brother in law, they childs and grandchilds standing beside his bed and looked at him with worry. His time was about to up, we knew that and i gues he knew too.
He looked at us for a while and then he closed his eye. Than, i heards him counted, he countinue the counted which stoped when you left him alone in this world sixty years agos. With his weak, slow but confident voices, he kept on counting.
"Six.."
"Seven…"
"Eight…"
Heard his counted, i realize for the first time, what his means "The hide and seek game not over yet." You must be hiding in heaven right now, right? You was hiding and waiting for him to found you right? This hide and seek game your played for sixty years on two diferrent worlds was a proof of your love right? I didn't need anyone to answered that questions cause i knew, the answered was "Yes."
"Nine…"
"Ten.."
Ten was the last counted, a smile painted in his face. He already left me and us forever. His nephews and their child cried. But, i was not, i smile for him, i happy for him, cause i knew, he finally able to sought for you like what he always desire this whole time. And i very sure he would found you. The hide and seek game he always said would over soon. He would found you, the hide and seek game your two played for sixty years finally over now.
Mikan...
can you help me? can you told him i'm sorry for my misunderstanding long time agos? And can you tell him thanks cause already teach me how to love the woman who happy me this whole time? Tell him "Even soo late, i very sure and confident said to you now. I already got the answer of my question on that night. I'm able to life like you too if i lost Hotaru like you lost Mikan, cause i too love her. I will tell Hotaru before i or she leave this world. Thank you, Natsume, my dearest friend, really thank you. Till we meet again…"
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Author's note :Thank you for anyone who read this fic. i know this fic have a awful grammatical errors. i already try my best, but still.. haih, i need a beta reader. This fic still have one chapter, so hope you like it and do you mind to review^^
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