A/N
Well here's the next chapter!
Also, to just include, I have been typing on my iPod again because I'm grounded -_- so um yeah there will be some spelling error stuff i can't control :/ sorry.
Oh and sorry I forgot to mention that this story is the sequel to AFTER ALL THE PAIN I STILL LOVE YOU. And it will be in first person point of view for now because I'm so used to first person POV sorry :/
Hope ya enjoy it!
(this chapter starts nearly a month later...)
Kendalls POV
When I woke up, I groaned and flopped my arm next to me. When I felt the empty space, I frowned and sat up. Logan wasn't next to me. I sighed and stood, grabbing my discarded jeans from last night off the floor and slipping them on.
I walked past our bedroom, checking for the shower running. I didn't hear anything, which mean Logan wasn't in the shower. I frowned and wondered where he was for a moment, but the yummy smell coming from the kitchen distracted me, and I followed my nose. I softly padded out of our shared room and into the kitchen, where I found Logan standing at the stove, in nothing but sweats, making French toast for us.
I smiled and made my way over to him quielty, wrapping my arms around his bare torso. He jumped a little when I did and I chuckled, pressing my mouth to his ear.
"did I scare you baby?"
He monaed as I bit his lobe, sucking and licking on the shell of his ear.
"y-yes of course y-you d-did but you snuck up on me- dammit kendall I'm going to burn our breakfast!"
I chuckled and let go, waiting until he took our food out and set it on the counter. He turned around and huffed at me.
"god you are always so fucking horny in the morning."
I lowered my eyelids and gave a small growl at him, watching him tense as I jumped at him. I grabbed him and yanked him down to the floor, pressing my hard cock to his ass. He groaned as I dry humped him, and then I attached my lips to his neck and wouldn't let go.
"f-f-fuck k-Kenny-" he gave a low groan and gripped my hair.
"god our foods gonna get cold." I stood suddenly, chuckling to myself when I saw Logans face turn to shock, then to anger as he grabbed me and yanked me back down. I laughed at his flushed face.
"what's wrong, Logie?"
"don't you dare think you're gonna give me a huge boner then not fuck me into the kitchen floor." he grabbed me and yanked me down, rubbing our erections together. I gave a low moan and laughed, running my hands up his legs.
"I thought you hated me being horny in the morning."
"fuck you, Knight." he growled.
"well, thank god we have microwaves for the food."
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After fucking my precious angel into the kitchen floor, we ate breakfast and then Logan limped back to bed. It was only seven in the morning when we both woke up and not to mention his ass probably hurt like fuck, so I couldn't blame him. I was just glad my mom and sister were in Minnesota visiting family for the week, because Logan is LOUD.
I now sat on the couch, though, suddenly regretting the sex. The bottom of my stomach hurt like fuck, and my penis ached a little. I noticed it actually started hurting during the sex. It took me a while to come,and when it did it burned a bit.
During the last month, it was getting harder to use the restroom and have sex with Logan. My pubic area sometimes throbbed with pain, and sometimes my penis did too. I was getting up in the middle of the night frequently to pee, and then sometimes it hurt or was nearly impossible to go!
I groaned and put my face in my hands. Did I probably catch an infection? An STD? God, if I gave Logan something I would hate myself forever. But...I'm clean.
What if-
No! He wouldn't cheat on me! I shook the thought out of my head and remembered that Logan was clean,too. It couldn't be him. We'd both got tested, just because we hated using condoms. I hated buying them, they were expensive for the good kind and while at it I felt embarrassed whenever I bought them.
So we ditched them. Besides,Logan's smart. If he WAS cheating he would have used a condom. But I trusted my gut and knew he wasn't.
A sudden wracking pain made me double over, grabbing my crotch. It hurt like hell but as soon as it came it went. I sighed and stood, looking for the remote. I grabbed it and flipped through the channels, only finding cartoons to watch.
I sighed and flopped down on the couch, sinking into it as I tried to focus on Spongebob. After a while the pain subsided and I suddenly felt sleepy. I yawned, and then next thing I know, my eyelids were getting heavy...
And then the door slammed. I sat up, immediatley checking my watch to see I was asleep for an hour. I groaned and rubbed my head, turning to see a very angry Logan marching out of our bedroom, car keys in hand. He glanced at me before doing a double take, walking over to me and gently cupping my cheek.
"Kendall? You okay?"
I nodded. No, techincally I felt like shit, but he doesn't need to know that. Logan pressed his hand to my forehead.
"you feel warm."
"I was sleeping."
"maybe you should eat something."
"not hungry."
"Kendall-"
"Logan-"
Logan rolled his eyes at me and chuckled.
"look I know you hate being sick but you don't look too good. Really, to tell you the truth,you look like shit."
I groaned.
"Im not sick."
"whatever, up to you." he leaned over and kissed my cheek.
"I gotta go babe."
I sat up and started after Logan, the pain in the bottom of my stomach making those early thoughts pop up again.
"where you going?"
Logan looked at me, not noticing I was right behind him.
"Gustavo and Kelly need some help sorting paperwork and fixing a few things."
"can't they call a techinician?"
"nah, said it'd be cheaper if I did it." he rolled his eyes at the thought of our boss spending money on actual needed things. Logan turned and planted a kiss on my lips, making the question of him cheating on me race from my mind.
"see you later."
"bye." I said as the door closed. I sighed and was about to turn and take a nap when the door reopened and a short Carlos I missed a lot stepped in, followed by a very tall, and gorgeous James Diamond.
"Hey guys!"
"hey Ken, long time no see." James gave me a bear hug, and then Carlos followed his example. I chuckled when I saw Veronica clinging to her daddy's leg, and Carlos had Nathaniel balanced on his hip. I leaned forward and gave Nate a raspberry on his cheek, making the baby giggle in hysterics.
"how's my little man?" Nate just continued giggling and hid his face in his mommy's shoulder. Carlos chuckled, gently petting his baby's head.
"Ken-doll!" Veronica cried from her spot behind James's leg. I leaned down and grabbed her, scooping her up in my arms. She laughed and patted my cheek.
"aw, she missed you!" Carlos said, walking over and sitting down on the couch. He pulled out a small jar, which I could clearly see was baby food, and a small spoon. He tied a bib around Nate's neck and began feeding him.
"so anything new guys?" I looked at James, watching him shake his head. Carlos did the same.
"wow our lives have become boring." James chuckled, flopping down on the couch next to Carlos. Carlos finished feeding Nate and bounced the lethargic baby in his lap. I chuckled and looked down at Veronica. I swear the little girl was so cute, with her black hair braided into pigtails and her large hazel eyes
wide open.
"do you think I'm boring,Ronny?"
"No, my Ken-doll is fun-nee!" I laughed at that and set her down.
"whatcha wanna do today?" I watched her jump up and down, giving me that cute little smile filled with baby pearly whites.
"swirly! Swirly!" Carlos laughed and James patted his husbands shoulder.
"like mother like daughter."
Carlos gave James a playful glare and smacked his shoulder, making James laugh a little till his face was red. I grabbed Ronny and climbed us up to the top, setting her in my lap and leaning back so we could both fit down the slide. We slid down and she immediately stood, clapping her hands excitedly.
"fun! My Ken-doll is fun!"
"no! My Ronny is fun-nee!" I said, imitating her baby talk. She quieted a little, her tan cheeks turning rosey, and she put her arms behind her back and swiveled herself back and forth, moving her torso. She looked embarrassed and flattered.
"does Ken-doll really tink I'm fun-nee?" she giggled and I looked at James for help with the child's sudden behavior. He shrugged. I tapped her little nose and smiled.
"yes, I think Ronny is the funniest person ever!" I started laughing hard, making it sound true. She threw her arms into the air.
"Yay!" XXXXXXXX
Twenty exciting minutes later, I was flopped on the couch and Veronica was laying on my lap, her head against my shoulder. Carlos chuckled, walking in from the back bedroom and seeing us.
"Is Nate asleep?" Carlos nodded and sat down beside me.
"looks like you got an admirer." he gently stroked his daughter's cheek and smiled. I "aw-ed" at the thought of the little girl admiring me.
"yea, but I'm sad to say i might have to break a heart or two every now and then." carlos chuckled.
"yeah, I hope she doesn't think of you that way later on in life. Because if you seriously break her heart, I might just have to kick your ass."
I laughed quietly, being careful not to disturb the slumbering child on my chest.
"wow, 'Los, I didn't know you were capable of such words." Carlos smacked my arm and turned to look at the door as it opened. James stepped in, obviously just getting off his phone call. He groaned and walked over to plant a kiss on Carlos's cheek.
"sorry, Gustavo wants me to come in. I guess Logan was fixing something and it was messing with the computer system and stuff and it deleted some of my backgrounds and vocals in a song." Carlos gave a sad look.
"which means you're gonna be there for a while." James leaned down and kissed Carlos's lips hard.
"I'll be home before dinner." he hugged his husband and turned and left the apartment. Carlos sighed as the door shut behind his lover and he turned to me.
"well I'm kinda glad he's gone."
My eyebrows shot up and I turned and looked at Carlos. Carlos was biting his lip, and his fingers were digging into his knee.
"Carlos you okay?"
"please, promise not to tell James what I'm about to tell you."
If it was serious enough that Carlos couldn't tell James, I figured it was pretty bad.
"yeah, sure Carlitos. I'm here for you." I reached over and squeezed his shoulder. He shuddered and took a deep breath before looking at me.
"I think...I think I might be pregnant again."
I felt a little light-headed. The pain throbbed my heart and I looked down at Ronny as Carlos took her from me.
For the past three weeks, it was all I could think about. Kids, babies, teenagers. Toddlers. I wanted a baby. No, I needed a baby. Logan and I were together now, closer than ever before. I was actually planning to propose soon, hoping my partner said yes.
But I desperately wanted a baby. And I was jealous. Carlos could bear children and I couldn't. I grabbed my thigh, springing from my thoughts, as pain erupted through my lower torso. I turned back to Carlos, trying to focus on him and not the pain, emotional or physical.
"why do you think you are?"
Carlos sighed and stood, laying down Veronica on the place he was just sitting. He reached into the diaper bag and yanked out a soft pink blanket I knew was given to the twin when she was born. Drake had a blue one just like it. Carlos draped it over her, leaning down to kiss her forehead before he motioned for us to move to the bar, letting the toddler sleep.
Once resettled, Carlos returned to gripping his knee and biting his lip.
"so why-"
"well..." he interrupted," me and James have started using condoms, but yesterday I threw up three times after breakfast and I puked in the middle of walmart after lunch. And I..." his voice trailed off.," to check and make sure I was right...I looked through our trashcan."
His eyes were big and scared looking.
"and what, Carlos?"
"I found three broken condoms." my jaw dropped a little.
"james doesn't know?"
He shook his head.
"he was in the shower when I threw up and i was in the bathroom at walmart when I puked again."
"have you tried a pregnacy test?" Carlos shook his head again.
"I'm scared, too!" I watched a few tears roll down Carlos's face and I leaned over and hugged him.
"shh it's okay, Carlos."
"n-n-no I-it's not! J-James w-will hate me an-a-and I'm not ready for another kid! T-three kids is already hard!" he sobbed into my chest. I hugged him tighter and sighed.
"I'm sorry Carlos. Look don't tell James until you really do know if it's true or not."
He slowly sat up and sniffed.
"o-okay."
I patted my friends head and gave him a smile.
"and if it is true, James won't hate you, I promise. He loves you with all his heart." Carlos gave me a small smile and nodded. He glanced over at Veronica and smiled again.
"thanks, Kendall."
"are you ready to take the test?" his smile faded a little and he shook his head.
"no. Not yet. Maybe tomorrow." he stood and walked over to scoop up Veronica. He slung the diaper bag over his shoulder, and walked into the bedroom and grab his other kid. He carried them both to the door and sighed.
"thank you Kendall." I nodded and held the door open until he left. My heart hurt a little now that they kids were gone, but I guess i had to get over it.
The sudden urge to pee made me run to the bathroom, but I stopped and doubled over in pain. I shook visibly as my privates and the areas around them hurt, and suddenly the warm wetness in my jeans made me realize I wet myself.
Again.
I groaned and stood, immediately stripping my pants off and walking legs naked to the bathroom in the kitchen. I dropped all my clothes, not wanting to risk the urine smell, into the tub and I turned the water on. That was the third time it's happened to me, and at this point I'm actually a little scared.
No! I was strong, I was the leader, I couldn't be worried about something as stupid as...well...urine problems...
I shook my head and scrubbed my clothes, before I picked up the soggy clothes and took them to the laundry room. I tossed them in with the other wet clothes and turned the machine on, before I sighed and suddenly felt sleepy.
I grabbed a pair of clean sweatpants and tugged them on, deciding to take a nap for a little while. I flopped down on the king sized bed Logan and I had traded our twins for. I put an arm behind my head and pulled one leg up, bending it so it touched the side of my knee. It was comfortable and soon enough I was sleeping.
The pain subsided and before I knew it, I was sleeping peacefully. XXXXXXXXXXXX
I gasped and sat up, discovering Logan, sitting on the bed, his head between my legs, his mouth around my cock. I moaned and grabbed his hair, tugging on it. I made him look up at me, his brown eyes wide open and lust-filled, his pink lips reddening and swelling a bit from sucking me off.
Okay I was good at fucking, I admt, but Logan was AMAZING at giving head. He could do things with his tongue that would make my eyes roll back when I came inside his hot little mouth.
I chuckled and pulled him up, sliding my tongue inside his mouth.
"and you say IM horny." I said in the middle of our makeout.
"you did have a boner that needed to be attended too." I groaned as he rubbed his Jean covered ass over my exposed cock. I squeezed his hips.
"fuck Kenny..." he groaned. I wasted no time, tugging his shirt off and throwing it down. I grabbed his jeans, kissing his stomach and licking my way down his happy trail. I was met with brown curls, and then that gorgeous cock of his I loved so much.
It truth, he was an inch or two smaller than my nine inch cock, but I loved it. He was thick and I loved feeling the weight of his dick in my hand. He was always shy about it, thinking he wasn't perfect enough for me, but god wihout him I would die. I licked a line over his cock, ready to please him with a good blow, too, except he grabbed my hair and yanked my head to look at him.
The lusty look in his eyes made my cock throb painfully.
"I wanna ride you."
I watched him grab our bottle of lotion and drizzle it all over my cock, using his hand to slick it up and down. I smiled and laid back, keeping my hands on his beautiful thighs. I gave them a tight squeeze,making Logan squeak. He pressed his entrance to my tip, but before he did anything else I stopped him.
"wait! Baby do you need to be s-"
"Kendall I swear to god unless you let me fuck my tight ass on your big cock I will take myself in the bathroom and finish in there instead." he growled and I could see he meant it.
I leaned back and watched him slid down, pushing himself onto my cock. He stretched around me, grimacing a little in pain. But, once he was filled to the brim with my cock, he groaned and placed his hands on my chest. I grabbed his hips, helping him as he lifted himself up slowly and then pushed him self back down. He groaned and tried tilting himself, angling himself as he continued bouncing up and down slowly. Finally he leaned forward a bit more and shoved himself back down.
He moaned and shuddered, making me shudder. He was moving up and down kind if slowly, making me sweat. I wanted to come so badly it hurt. Logan's tightness and warm heat was amazing. He was so tight, squeezing me hard. I wanted to pound into him. I want to make him scream, I want to make him cry my name, I don't want him to walk for a week.
Logan fucked himself down once more, making us both moan loud.
"yes!" he screamed and started bouncing hard, sliding in and out hard and fast, thrusting deep against his prostrate. Logan leaned back, throwing his head back as he rammed himself down.
The tightness, the heat, it all made me wanna cum...but I couldn't. The pain flared up again and I realized it was extremley hard to cum. Eventually it started to hurt and I squeezed my eyes shut. I guess Logan thought it was something different because he leaned over, biting my neck and sucking on it. I had already given Logan enough hickeys last night,so I guess he got back at me.
But then he pressed his lips to my ear and chuckled.
"don't hold back."
I guess that did it, because I squeezed his thighs extremley hard enough to bruise and thrusted up, releasing deep inside of his beautiful body. Logan cried out when I squeezed his thighs, but screamed my name as he came, splattering my chest with his cum.
We both groaned and Logan fell on me. We both panted and waited until our breathing returned to normal before Logan sat up and pulled my soft dick out of him. Logan groaned when I was out, and I laid back to sleep.
I cried out as a sudden pain hit my lower torso, including my penis and I came without warning. It splattered the bed and in between Logan's already stained legs.
"o-ow." I groaned. I heard Logan gasp and I looked up to see his thighs had sperm and...my eyes widened as I saw the red lines mixed in with my sperm.
"oh god Logan did I rip you? I'm so sorry! I'll make up for this I swear-"
"Kendall! It's not me!" Logan's eyes were wide and I looked at him.
"w-what?"
"Kendall, that's not my blood it-it's yours. Look." he pointed at cum on the bed, from my surprise release and it, too, had blood.
"dammit."
Logan stood and immeidately starts cleansing himself. He hurries and pulls on clothes, but all I can do is sit still and stare in shock at the blood.
"Kendall come on, I'm taking you to the hospital."
A/N
DUN DUN DUN! what's wrong with Kendall?
TO BE CONTINUED!