Tamaki had known that he was different for years. He'd known that liking other boys was not the norm, but in France his mother had accepted him for who he was, and that was enough. He'd even had a boyfriend or two. But when he moved to Japan, he realized that his grandmother was not going to be willing to accept a gay heir to the Suoh name. This was really only due to the fact that it would be frowned upon by outside society-not to mention that if he couldn't have children, then there was no one to pass along the Suoh name to.
So the only person that knew about him in Japan was his father. He didn't really have many close friends in Japan-no one knew about his illegitimacy, except for Kyouya. In reality, Tamaki could say that Kyouya was his only real friend. Which was probably why Tamaki was so afraid to lose him. He'd fallen for him the day they'd met, and he knew that this time it was something special. Kyouya meant more to him than any other boy had before, and he could not afford to lose him. Because if Tamaki Suoh lost another person he loved, he might be broken beyond repair.
Tamaki knew the precise moment that he had become completely head over heels for Kyouya. It had been in Kyoto. Their trip had simply been so light and carefree, unlike both the boys' troublesome lives. They'd returned from the beach one night, and Kyouya had passed out from exhaustion as soon as he'd set foot in the hotel room, fully clothed and wearing shoes. Tamaki remembered thinking that Kyouya was just so wonderfully at ease when he wasn't worried for appearances. He'd carefully removed Kyouya's shoes, and unbuttoned his shirt, just so the raven-haired boy would be comfortable. There were no ulterior motives, right? He and Kyouya were just two friends on a vacation. But Tamaki couldn't help but feel just a little bit turned on by Kyouya's peaceful expression combined with his lean, muscular body. It was that precise moment of self-denial and passion that led Tamaki to the conclusion that he was, in fact, in love with Kyouya Ootori.
I know, short. Please don't kill me! I just...have issues with writing in Tamaki's mind. He's a difficult character to fully capture, yaknow?
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The next chapter will be very juicy and yaoi, major plot point, etc.
Upcoming chapters...will contain one good old-fashioned lemon ;). But...(yes, there is a but) I will only upload if I get 2 reviews! That's not much, is it? xx