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Why is this so hard! Teddy mentally screamed. It was supposed to be easy, break whatever this is off with James and be a loyal boyfriend to Victore. It wasn't supposed to be this difficult!

Teddy closed his eyes, clearing his mind of everything else and trying to give himself the courage to say what he had been wanting to for months. He took a deep breath and blurted out "I love you"

Wait what!

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Teddy's eyes shot open in panic, that was not what he had been planning to say! Before he could say anything to amend his mistake James had to go and open his big, sexy, mouth.

"I-I love you too," James stammered which made Teddy give his lover a closer look. James didn't stutter, he was never nervous, he was always the one who was sure of himself and on top of the world. Right now though James had a soft pink tinge to his cheeks, his eyes were soft and he was smiling, a real smile, not his usual confident smirk. Teddy had never seen a more beautiful sight…

Wait! No brain! Stop it! You want to be with Victore, you're going to marry Victore just like everyone wants you too! This is not right! Teddy begged his brain to stop this but he realized that he couldn't stop himself from leaning forward and capturing James in a kiss.

They had kissed and done more plenty of times before but this just seemed so different…much different. It wasn't hurried or rough or even lustful it was soft and full of more love then Teddy ever thought possible. He had never kissed anybody like this, not even Victore…this was heaven on earth. He put a hand on the back of James' neck, pulling him closer and stroking the little frill of hair at the same time then began to nibble on his lip. James let out a small mewl of pleasure that just made Teddy melt and it was then he realized that maybe 'I love you' was what had been in his heart the whole time.

Teddy broke their kiss only to wrap both his arms around James "I love you Jamie, merlin I love you." He whispered.

"Don't sound so surprised." James laughed, resting his head in the crook of Teddy's neck.

For a long moment Teddy just sat there silently, holding James close, letting the feeling of love fill him up to the brim. They had known each other their entire lives, always been there for each other no matter what and now this just seemed so natural, so perfect and Teddy knew he would stay like this forever if he could but he couldn't…

"I cant" Teddy pulled back only to see a confused expression fill James' face.

"Cant what?"

"Love you."

"And why not?" James frowned, giving Teddy that petulant look he always used to give his parents when they wouldn't buy him the newest broom model or Honeydukes candy.

"I'm with Victore"

"That hasn't stopped you these past few months!"

"I was stupid these past few months!"

"So that's what this is? That's what I am to you? Stupid!"

"That's not what I meant!"

"Then what did you mean Teddy! That even though you lo-"

"Keep your voice down, your dads just downstairs!" Teddy hissed and luckily James lowered his voice.

"So you're saying that even though you love me you're going to stay with her?" the raw pain in James' voice made Teddy look away guiltily.

"Yeah…"

"Then you lied to me." James said, using an icy tone to cover up for the hurt "If you really loved me then you wouldn't be doing this. You wouldn't have said I love you just to rip out my heart two seconds later."

"I didn't mean to say that." Teddy answered but then immediately knew that that was the wrong thing to say.

"Thanks a lot Teddy. I never thought you were the kind of person to do this sort of thing, especially not to me. I thought you cared about me at least enough not to hurt me like this." James stood up.

"Dammit James please just let me expla-" Teddy stood as well and tried to reach out to James but he slapped his hand away.

"Explain what? I think you've said everything that needed to be said and more. Just leave me alone and go on living a happy life with Victore. Buy a nice little house on the beach, with a nice little picket fence and have nice little happy babies. Forget what we were, if you even ever considered us something. Just forget everything." James said and left. The last thing Teddy saw was James' perfect eyes being mauled by tears that he was to stubborn to let fall.

Teddy stared at the spot where James had last been for what seemed like an eternity before slowly sitting back down on the bed and burying his face in his hands. Why is this so hard? This is what I wanted right? It shouldn't feel this way. I should feel relieved, not…devastated…Teddy thought jumped when the door creaked open Maybe its James, maybe he came back to let me explain maybe-wait I don't want it to be James! Dammit brain! Stop thinking about him!

"Hey I've got the M&M's" Albus walked in with a ridiculously huge bag of those chocolate candies. "Where'd James go?" he asked looking around confused.

"Uh I don't know" Teddy sighed, standing up again. "Its getting sort of late, I better go. Ill see you guys later okay?"

"You're coming to the dinner next week right?"

"What dinner?" He stopped midstep

"The one next week. Moms celebrating something or other, everyone's coming, didn't Victore mention it to you?"

"Uh…she might have…" Teddy vaguely remembered a conversation about a dinner a few weeks back.

"Well are you coming or not?" Albus laughed.

"I guess. I mean yeah, of corse." Dread filled his stomach but he knew there'd be to many questions if he skipped out on the dinner and besides, he couldn't avoid James forever. And he wasn't quite sure if he wanted to…

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I felt so bad for James while writing this!

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