Disclaimer: As usual I don't own any of these charters, and as usual I wish I did.
Authors Note: I know some of you questions the validity of either Booth or Bones singing to each other. Believe me it is something some couples do. My husband and I often share lyrics that remind us of the other or a poignant time. So relax a little and enjoy the fact he loved her enough to share even the things he does not do well.
Chapter II Absence of Fear
She woke up with a feeling she was not alone, keeping her eyes closed she could feel someone's breath on her face. Closing her eyes she quickly pulled back her arms and knees to her body and gave a giant shove pushing the man off the bed onto the floor. "What the hell" he looked up in confusion. Recognizing the voice she guilty looked over the edge of the bed and looked down at Booths face, then let her eyes roam further. In a hurt voice Booth said: what the fuck was that for? If you don't want us to fucking sleep together just say so. You don't have to kick me out of bed."
With a red face she said "Booth I'm so sorry, I was confused when I woke up and didn't recognize it was you. I went into panic mode and just threw you off the bed as a protection mode. I have told you many times I can protect myself."
"Yeah, well I guess I will have to believe you from now on. Standing up he pulled her to him so their nude bodies were pressed together. He told her to call Cam and tell her she was not coming into work today. Looking into his liquid brown eyes she readily agreed, telling him to call Cullen as well. They both instantly picked up their phones and made the calls. Looking at each other they reached out and began where they had left off.
As they fell apart both of them looked at each other. "That was just…"
Booth continued with "the most mind blowing orgasm I have ever had. Woman last night and this morning you have worn me out."
His smile made her stomach clench and she was instantly wet and ready for him again. Smiling at him "since I never got around to eating," she said "and had some extreme exercise this morning, let's get something to eat. It will fill my stomach and recharge your battery's." As she tried to get up he made a grab for her. Laughingly she scooted out of his arms and ran to the kitchen grabbing her robe on the way. He grabbed his boxers, he didn't have anything else and his slacks were a little to formal for this situation.
After starting the coffee she grabbed some eggs and cheese from the refrigerator. She knew he loved meat and probably would have liked something with his eggs other than cheese but she was a vegetarian and didn't have anything else.
He leaned on the edge of her counter watching her. She moved with an ease of grace around the kitchen. For some reason he thought she had been unable to cook so this seemed a surprise. But then most of the things she had done since him came last night had been a surprise. Thinking about what he thought of as her gift to him, he was very grateful. She finished so they both sat down at the table and began to eat in silence.
After they had finished their food he asked her "Bones, are you ok with this? I mean you have seemed so far away, so untouchable, for so long then all of a sudden here you are. Don't get me wrong I love all of this. Making love to you is incredible, but are you really sure."
She looked at him for a moment and began "Booth, I know I am taking a big chance, but I have to take it. You know when you started singing to me, by the way your voice is sill off key but I love it, I suddenly saw so much, with such clarity." Right now all I can think of is inside my skin there is this space. Inside my heart there's an empty room. They are waiting for lightning, they waiting for you."
She sat there very quietly looking at her hands waiting for his next comment. She realized, at this moment, this was the man she had loved from the very moment she had met him. She had counted herself a very intelligent woman. How she had not been able to see it before. Why had she tried with all the others she had met since him? Of course there were the other women he had dated, oh and that silly line (ok that might not have been silly then), then there was their work environment. How would all this change that? She realized he had reached over a taken her chin in his hand and was raising it up to look in his eyes, those deep pools. At that very moment all she could think of was the words to one of her hidden favorites. Before she even realized it she was singing to him: this vessel is haunted, it creaks and moans. My bones call to you, I'll make myself translucent to let you in. You're my gravity. My hands will adore you through all darkness, and they will lay you out in moonlight and reinvent your name."
They looked into each others eyes and smiled. This was there first step. Their first tie to each other. Each knew from then on they could never go back.
Brennan was first to speak "so where does this leave us? I mean we really know each other very well. After all we have been living in each others pockets as partners for the last four years. I do know you quite well at least that which you want me to know"
Where had she learned the term living in some ones pocket, and how did she even know what it meant, oh well. "I really don't know. I guess we have two choices we can tell everyone we are a couple or we can keep it a secrete. I don't really want to push you, so I want you to decide. Bones, I have always put your needs first and that won't change. This change in our personal relationship won't change our working relationship, I won't let it. Besides we have the highest case solving rate in all of the FBI so I don't think they will want to rock that particular boat seeing as neither one of us will or want to work with other partners."
"About our working relationship that's fine Booth, but most of my thinking has been about our personal relationship. Tell me Booth how would you really feel about marriage between you and me?"
He choked so violently on his coffee he had to run over to the sink to have some place to spit it out. How could she say something so important so calmly and so directly? He was defiantly treading on thin ice here. One wrong word and every thing he had gained might just blow up in smoke. Of Yeah, there were land mines a plenty and land mines made him very nervous, very damn nervous indeed.
"Well I guess it would really mean how you felt about it. I mean I know what you have said in the past. I guess I would really have to know what has made you change your mind now."
"Booth stop rambling. I guess since I asked the question first it is only fair I answer yours. I talked to both my Father and Angela about it" At his shocked look she gave that soft laugh of hers and said "don't worry Booth I did not mentioned your name. They both had some very convincing arguments. First of all Angela said marriage shows a commitment that is difficult to dissolve. For example her former marriage interrupted her marriage to Jack. Even though she was and is a free sprit, she still wanted that marriage to Jack and I think she still does. My father talked about him and my mother. They had a relationship that he gave up his way of life for. He tried very hard to protect her after they left Russ and me. He was devastated when she died. His devotion to her has remained in that he still has not remarried and has no plans to do so. He also told me that his marriage to my mother was a gift to him from her. She had the same feelings about marriage that I have, but my father really wanted children and to him that meant marriage. So she told him that as a gift she would marry him to show others her commitment. After thinking about it all these years, I want to make that kind of commitment to you and show everyone outwardly that I have made that commitment. However, don't think this as a symptom of weakness. I will still not give up my equality, change my name from Brennan to Booth, nor stop bickering with you when I think you are wrong or taking advantage of me. By the way I still want that gun you promised me."
"Well that was quite a mouth full. So I guess it's my turn." Carefully he began hoping for the best. "Bones marriage to you would be the icing on the cake. But I am enough of an alpha male, as you so delicately put it, to want to show others you are committed to me. But I also want to show others I am committed to you. Marriage is a partnership. It is no different than the partnership we have now it's just partners with benefits. Don't understand that one? I'll explain it in a bit just let me finish. All of the good things I have been taught about marriage I learned from Pops. He taught me to treat a woman as I would treat my own body. Bones I respect my body, how could I do any less to yours? Marriage is not about dominance or who is right, it's not about property, it's about two people working together to make a life for themselves. There will be times we will disagree and fight, but we do that now and seem to get over it. In a marriage the other thing would be the makeup sex. Don't understand that one either hugh? I'll explain it later too. So I guess the only thing I have to say is... taking a gigantic breath and getting down on one knee "Temperance Brennan will you marry me?"
"Yes, even though I didn't understand every thing you said, Seeley Booth I believe I will."
Picking her up, and kissing her all the way to her bedroom he began to show her just what makeup sex and partners with benefits meant.
And their songs began to run again.
"Absence of Fear Song" – Performed by - Jewel Kilcher Lyrics by - - Jewel Kilcher
Hope you are liking this so far.
This was a short chapter for 2 reasons. One I am trying to beat a storm and get it posted before the power leaves me, and two it is a good place to stop.