AN: Yaaay! Another chapter. I didn't work hard on this one, but I like how everything is going. If something doesn't make sense, let me know. I didn't really look it over. Bahaha .

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Chapter 2
Fake Replacement

In a brief moment Tanya swiftly walked in and closed the door behind her. I began paying close attention to her thoughts: "Should I throw myself on him? No. That will just give him a reason to push me away. What I want is to be held close." Tanya's thoughts were very graphic. I tried to ignore her thoughts, but it was like she was screaming them at me. I couldn't tune them out, so I gave in and listened again. "I'll just talk to him. The hell I will! Then maybe he'll let me be someone special to him." Maybe I should just talk to her. It would be rude to just ask her to leave me to myself.

"How are you feeling Edward?" Tanya looked at me. I could feel her eyes on my face but I didn't bother meeting her gaze.

"I've had better days," I didn't want to give myself away. I couldn't just tell her everything. Sure I've been around her for a while, but not enough for me to want to open up to her. I knew exactly how I felt today. I felt horrible. I wanted to be by my love, but I know why that couldn't happen it would just go against what i think is right for her. I couldn't bear being alive without her with me. But I know if I did go to the Volturi and got myself killed, that if she did find out, she'd kill herself thinking it was her own fault, so I disposed that idea. Being away from her was unbearable, and never in my life have I felt so alone even when I was around a bunch of people who love me. "Thanks for asking, Tanya."

"Edward... I don't like seeing you this way. Is there anything I could do to help you be yourself again?"

At that last part I instantly knew my answer "Yes, bring me to my Bella," butI couldn't say that to Tanya, it would hurt her. "You shouldn't worry about me. I'll be fine." I lied. I was about positive she wouldn't see through my lie.

"You don't look fine...but i'll take your word for it. I'm just worried about you."

"There's just something on my mind 'is all... A little troubling, but it's nothing to worry about."

"Then let me take it off your mind," Tanya replied trying to sound seductive. With that Tanya grabbed onto the collar of my shirt and pulled herself on me. In a blink of an eye her lips came crashing down onto mine. I was stunned. I knew she thought these things, but I must've gotten caught up in my thoughts to not see this coming. I gasped because of the force she put into the kiss. It had a desperate feel to it. She took advantage of my gasp and forced her tongue into my mouth. I pulled away. As I caught a short glance of her, I saw pain in her eyes and I could tell she could see the pain in mine. "Edward. Here put this on," she pulled a long piece of cloth from her pocket and used it as a blindfold. With my eyes covered, I just sat there, I didn't feel anything. I didn't want to. Because she kissed me, and Ithe fact that I didn't pull away instantly, I felt like I betrayed my Bella. Something I absolutely didn't want to do.

"I don't want to do this. I'm sorry, but I can't do this with you." I was honest. I didn't want those lips to belong to her. I wanted my Bella's. Tanya's were cold and rough in comparison. They were most likely soft and gentle, but no lips compared to those of my love's. I put my hand on the blindfold about ready to pull it off when Tanya grabbed a hold of my hand, and didn't let go. I would've crushed 

her if I pulled my hand away now. We sat like this for a few minutes before she tried to kiss me again. I pushed her away not wanting to do anything with her.

"Edward, don't push me away. It'll be as if you were with your precious Bella, again."

She said 'Bella.' I didn't want to do anything, but the way she put it was so convincing. I truly believed that I was holding Bella's hand, and that I was in the same room with my love. I wanted her to be. Her lips brushed against mine and she whispered meaningless things about her love for me. At one point she sounded like Bella. I didn't realize it, but it was my mind that made me believe it was Bella. I wanted it to be my love so bad, that I gave in to all the mixed emotions and kissed her. This grew passionate but I never returned the passion. Her lips molded into mine. She pulled apart and kissed my jaw line, slowly making her way back to my lips.

By the way Tanya was kissing me, it felt like she tried to mimic the way Bella had kissed me. She was nothing compared to her. I looked into her mind, curious to how she was taking this. "He hasn't pulled back. I knew that a kiss would help him realize how perfect we are for each other. His lips are so warm against mine. The way I feel, this is how it should be. Its perfect. I always imagined doing these things with him, but reality was so much better. I always known he was a great kisser, but he was way better than I had expected." I tuned out due to the impact of the kiss.

We broke apart gasping for the air we didn't need. She pecked my lips. "Bella..." was all I whispered. Knowing what I wanted.

With that, I was able to focus on her mind. "Bella?! He was supposed to forget about that human! He abandoned her so he should have moved on. After all the passion, force, love and devotion I threw into that kiss he still said HER name. I knew what I was doing was wrong, and it hurt him to think it was Bella. But I should be with him. And I should be the one he can't live without. I know what I want, and I'm going to do anything to get it."

I must've been really lonely. To kiss her, use her, just to fill the place that belonged to Bella. I didn't want to hurt Tanya because she was kind. But I felt like I really betrayed Bella this time. Have I really sunk this low? So low that I tried to replace Bella's touch with another's? How could I even think anyone could ever replace what me and Bella have- had. It hurt to change that to past tense. I couldn't escape reality, and I shuddered in disgust with myself. I pulled off the blindfold and looked at Tanya. "Tanya, I'm sorry. I just can't do this. I know you really like me, but I can't return those feelings."

"Edward, just forget about Bella! She's gone because you got rid of her. If you wanted her you would've kept her, but you left her so she's out of the picture! Open your eyes Edward, why have her when you could have me?" She spoke through her teeth. I could feel her hands tighten her grip on mine. I pulled my hand away.

"I can't just forget about the one I love! Without her, I'm nothing! Can't you see that?"

"...I just wanted you to forget." Tanya looked away and gazed out of the window. "I mean, look at me and look at her. I'm beautiful in comparison. I'm rich. I'm thoughtful. I'll do anything for your happiness. And because I'm not human, there's no way you can hurt me!" She pulled me close again "So you don't have to be careful around me."

I cringed and loosened her grip on my clothing, batting her away. "You have no right to talk about her that way! I never intended on hurting Bella! And don't say that Bella is not beautiful. In my eyes, everyone is nothing in comparison to how she looks. And she doesn't have to be rich, wealth means nothing to me. She is the most selfless person I know and yet she always claimed to be selfish for wanting to spend eternity with me when I was the selfish one, for keeping her so close to me for my happiness." Everything came out now, I couldn't stand what Tanya had said about my love.



"Edward, why can't you just forget about her? I mean you left her for a reason, and we all know you told her you didn't love her and that you moved on." I could hear the hurt in her voice, but it had no impact on me.

"How could I forget the one person who made me feel true happiness? She showed me how to love, and how to appreciate things. Every moment we spent together was amazing. From the way she looked, the way she acted when she was upset or angry, the way she blushed whenever I we embraced each other, the way she looked at me, or just how she taught me how to live. She is the reason I'm living and not regretting anything we ever did together, for once I was glad that I was even allowed to set foot on this Earth and meet my angel. You have no idea how I felt when she first told me she loved me, if it was possible I would've fainted because my happiness was overwhelming. She made me feel things I never thought was possible. No matter what happened between us, I was always happy that I was the reason for her to smile. She made me smile, and ever since the day I met her, she never left my mind, not even for a second."

"But you told her you don't love her anymore! Everyone knows you said that to her! So what you just said should mean nothing to you now!" I could tell Tanya wasn't going to give up.

"I told her that so she would be safe." I heard from outside the door that everyone was talking about why Alice left.

"If you cared about her safety then why did Alice leave yesterday to go save Bella from the Volturi?!"

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