I dreamt of the mad scientists again. How they poked me with their needles again and cut me open. The painful expirements, the fear that racked my body. My parents dieing in front of me. Me having to eat the dead fermenting bodies of people.I was running in a dark void now, screaming for help. A bloody trail was left behind me as my body began to bleed from my chest, I looked down to see a giant hole in me now, a hand was through it. I looked from behind me to see the damnded face of the man I bit the shoulder of, grinning wickedly at me. Blood splattered on his face and body. I coughed up blood and tried to run away, but to no avail. I fell to the ground dead.

I woke up screaming, gripping the blankets on my new futon and sweat running down my face. Tears also streamed down from my eyes and my breathing was heavy. I scanned the room with my eyes, nothing but the room and me. I could hear footsteps approach my room. I hid under my blankets and held my breath. Someone ran over to the side of my futon and touched my shoulders. I remebered this touch, I slowly lifted the blankets from over my head and stared into his eyes. He was panting from the running and looked at me with worry in his eyes. I could feel his arms wrap around my shoulders as he pressed me to his chest. I just leaned into him as he rubbed my back with his hand. I gripped his sleeping attire and cried into his leaned his head down a little and whispered into my ear.

"What's wrong Kesaku?"

"I remembered, I remebered that, those monsters. Mom and Dad being killed, me being killed and left to die in darkness." I chocked out before throwing a hysterical fit of sobs. He hugged me tightly and we both fell unto my futon. I fell asleep in his arms for the first time, and in my bed for that matter. But that doesn't matter, as long as I'm with him, the darkness and pain just melts away.

I've been with Toshiro for about 2 months now. He's been taking care of me since I came to the soul society, at first I knew what everything was but it still didn't make much sense to me.

***FLASHBACK***

Where are we? I thought to myself as we walked into a white void. The light hurt my eyes and gave me a headache. The air was still and very stale feeling. I watched as we neared a pair of old fashioned sliding doors. When we approached them I saw them open and bring us into moonlight. We now entered a little town that was quiet and still as the white void. Very few people shuffled across the streets but really it was very quiet. The blonde haired man continued to carry me through the town. I was cramping and felt stiff, so I decided I wanted to walk. I pulled on the man's shirt and looked up at his face. I spoke very softly and asked if I could walk.

"Mister, may I walk now? I feel very stiff." I asked politely.

He smiled at me before placing me on my feet. I felt a cool breeze hit my bare skin, so of course I shivered. The man covered up my body with a long white cloth. I put my arms through it's big sleeves and closed it's front. I looked up at the kind man and thanked him. He just smiled back at me with a warm smile. The shortie next to me didn't speak, all he did was stare into the oblivion before him. I waved my hands in front of his face before looking at his eyes as he stared at me. I cringed back for a moment before looking at him again.

"I'm sorry for interuppting your special me time but you were about to run into a pole." I said pointing to a pole a couple of inches in front of him. He just looked at me with a deadly look.

"I knew where I was going." He said as he walked with his nose in the air. Suddenly he came face first into a pole. I stifled a laugh as he removed his red face from the pole. He fumed ahead of us. I walked alongside the giggling blonde man.

"Oh that Toshiro, he can be such a stick in the mud." He giggled as he covered his mouth with his sleeve and waved a fan towards the fuming shortie. I gigled too now. It was funny how the shortie looked at us with that pissed off look. I was laughing my butt off as he glared at me. I couldn't help but laugh, I just couldn't take it seriously. The blonde man laughed again before smiling at Toshiro. We walked through the town and ended at a pair of large gates. The gates opened and we walked into the walled in area. I felt nervous for some reason, was it because we were in a place that was in a place, or was it the feeling of something lurking in the shadows. I have no clue actually of why I was so nervous. So then oneof my nervous habits popped up, I started to sing.

Hi Miss Alice
Anata wa gurasu no me de
donna yume o
mirareru no?
miirareru no?
mata atashi
kokoro ga sakete
nagarederu
tsukurotta
sukima ni sasaru
kiokutachi

(Hi Miss Alice
What kind of dream
can you see
with glass eyes?
Become entranced?
Again I,
my heart will shatter
and spill forth
All of its memories
Sticking in the gaps
that had been patched up)

I stopped when I realized two pairs of eyes were upon me and we had stopped walking. I blushed and looked down.

"I'm sorry." I apologized.

The blonde man looked at me with a surprised look.

"Why are you sorry? That was beautiful." He said in a thrilled voice. I in turn looked up at him in surprise.

"Can you finish it please? Right Mashiro-san?" The blonde man said looking over to the shortie.

He looked at me with a calm face.

"Yeah." He responded as we continued walking. I smiled and then started singing again.

Hi Miss Alice
anata kajitsu no kuchi de
dare ni ai o
nageteiru no?
nageite iru no?
mou atashi
kotoba o tsumugu
shita no netsu
samekitte
mederu outa mo
utaenai

(Hi Miss Alice
Who are you
Throwing love out to
With a candied mouth?
Are you greiving?
Already I,
the fervor of the tongue
that spun those tales
Has gone cold
And I can't sing even the songs
Which I so adore)

The blonde man looked at me and smiled.

"You have a beautiful voice. Who taught you that song?" He said in a careless voice before realizing his mistake.

" I made it up, it was for my mother and father. Because, because," I couldn't finish it, I felt the sadness well up into my chest. The pain from it hurt and it overflowed through my eyes.

The blonde man held me in his chest as some tears poured unto my face. I cried hard realizing that I would never feel my mother's embrace, never hear my father's words of encouragement, never hear their words of love. Never, never again. The blonde man picked me up and they continued down the path and towards a large building. I was crying silently into the man's chest. We entered a japanese hallway and the blonde man placed me down unto a comfy chair outside of a large pair of doors that read 'Captain'. The blonde man wiped away my tears and looked me in the eyes.

"You sit here for a moment okay? I'll be right back after I'm done talking." He said as he smiled at me. He kissed my forehead and walked into the large pair of doors along with the shortie. He looked back at me before continuing on further.

I sat in the chair and waited patiently for the man to come and get me. As I waited a man with black spiky hair with bells on the tips of them walked past me. A little pink haired girl followed after him. She stopped and looked at me. I smiled and waved at her. She smiled and waved to me as she walked by. I waited and waited, then I started to feel sleepy. My head swayed and my whole body soon fell unto the big chair. I curled into a ball and fell asleep. I found out later that night that I was carried into a room and placed unto a futon and into a white kimono. It was much too tight on my breasts, but I didn't complain. I was warm and comfortable, I even had a heat source in my bed. it was soft and furry, like an animal. I looked and saw a little puppy sleeping next to me. I gasped when I saw that it was my puppy I lost when I was little. I nearly cried again from the happiness and the sadness. the sadness was because i knew that he was dead and now a spirit. But the happiness came from being able to sleep with him again. I nestled him close to my chest and fell asleep. Drifting off and forgetting my stressful day.

The next day was the start of my training, to become a shinigami.