hey y'all! It's me again! So here is Fabian's to Nina. Please submit requests for the next one!
Dear Nina,
Hi. If this were a normal letter, this would be where I would ask you a stupid question and then answer one you gave me. I would write some pointless crap about my life an ask meaningless questions along the way only to end it with a short hope to see you soon or looking forward to your reply. But this isn't any old letter.
Before we start, I only have one question. Nothing to do with why or how or did you realise. No , I won't be stereotypical. While those questions are on my mind a more meaningful one presses me. How could you think we ever forgot you? I would never forget you. You can't blame everyone else for your problems. And yet you still laid that burden on us like a steel blanket, one so heavy none of us can escape. We love you Nina. All of us, even if we don't always show it we still love and care for you. Every single person cried. Even joy , Jerome, and Eddie. Mick cried when we talked to him.
What were you thinking? I know you knew how this would affect us. You're smart enough to figure that out. Or at least you were smart enough before. This was just plain stupid. Do you even care? You might know but do you honest to god care? Because from where I'm standing this is not caring. This is not how a girl who solved ancient Egyptian mysteries for fun while maintaining a scholarship and relationships would act. This is not how an intelligent girl would respond to life's challenges. And over something so stupid. It would have made more sense had you do it during any of the mysteries but now over some jealousy.
There is no sense denying it, it was jealousy. Everything doesn't have to be all Nina all the time. People matter. You pushed aside the help we gave you. Alfie tried to be your friend. He told us. But you kept pushing him back. Poor innocent sweet Alfie. What did he ever do? He was trying to help. Was he so discardable that it didn't matter?
I tried to feel bad. I know you wanted me to feel bad. But I can honestly say that I don't. Not one little but. In fact you should feel bad. You should feel absolutely horrible.
But I guess you did. That's why you did it after all. I never abandoned you Nina. I loved you. I still love you, even after all of this. You should be smarter than this. But I guess what's done is done. Just know, I still love you.
XOXO
- Fabian