D.U.I.

Mello's POV

My boots clicked on the cement ground as I made my way to my motorcycle, the sound sort of soothing, it was a good distraction to pay attention to, so I didn't have to listen to all the voices running through my head at the moment. I made it across the empty parking lot, where my sleek black bike awaited in all it's glory. It resembled me in more ways than one, dark and elegant, yet dangerous, not something that just about anyone can handle. I straddled it, letting out a long sigh, one I've been keeping in this whole time. I ran a gloved hand through my hair, finally pressing on my temples, but it was no good, I was having one hell of a migraine. Letting out another sigh, I reached into my inner jacket pocket and pull out a hip flask, gulping down the liquor greedily. It burned a little as the fluid flowed down my throat, I smirked thinking of what Near would do if she saw me drinking like this. Probably be pretty pissed at me, she's so easily agitated these days, her eyes are like daggers, I can almost feel them spiking me.

It's not my damn fault, she's got no right getting angry. I'm so tired at trying to fix things now, I feel like a heavy lump sinking down the Marianas Trench, a bottomless pit of nothingness, where I'd never see the light again and there was nothing me nor anyone else can do about it. It was a pretty good analogy of things, I wonder which would kill me first, the pressure of the depth, or the strange lurking creatures just waiting to take a bite out of me.

I'm so over this, I don't want to try to fix myself, I can't fix Near, and I sure as hell can't fix our situation. So what's left? I don't know what to do with myself anymore, it's like fate has already decided my life from this point out is already meaningless, I'm not lost, I'm done. And yet, I still keep coming around, so that neither of us can break out of the cycle, I know I'm hurting everyone, maybe I'm just a coward, I've lost the me that would've bet his life on a risk that only had 1% chance of succeeding.

Before I knew it, I was already half way drunk with an empty flask and it wasn't even noon yet, damn, now I'm depressed. Replacing the cap on, I started my bike, no point sitting around, bringing myself down, work isn't going to do itself. I sped off, mildly chuckling at the idea of being arrested for a D.U.I.

~L~L~

Near's POV

"Drunkard," I hissed under my breath, tugging at a tightly wound curl around my finger, feeling more annoyed and upset than I've ever felt in my life. And guess whose fault that was?

I stared at the clock across the room, for once it felt as if everything about me was falling apart, and it scared me out of my wits thinking that no one would be there to help me piece it back together. It's as though the world was drained of everything good, and what's left is just hollowness. I feel so very, very hollow.

Thank you Mello, I thought sarcastically, thank you for destroying whatever that brought me happiness, and thank you for robbing me of the chance to ever feel complete and fulfilled.

I dragged myself off the seat, carrying the worry that weighed more than what I thought I could ever bear, my breath fogged the glass a little as I went closer to look at what was going on. My eyes squinted instinctively at the brightness, everything was reflecting light, even their white coats seem to have fluorescence, the white lamps intensified it even more.

"Excuse me sir," I quickly dodged out of the way as another doctor was called to the scene. I sank to my feet, leaning on a wall for whatever support I could get, I didn't even care how embarrassing I must look right now, so out of composure.

"Don't you dare die on me," I whispered through my gritted teeth, clutching my shoulders so tight that my nails dug into my skin, letting the tears finally fall.

~L~L~

Whoa, only chapter 2 and already getting writer's block, I'm so rusty...Sorry for this awfully short chapter guys, well, still hope you enjoy it, at least I'm updating right? :P Anyways, I wanna thank those who still continue to follow this story after such a long break, you guys are wonderful, don't forget to leave a comment! Anyone able to guess where I'm going with this story yet?