I look at my growing bump in the mirror and sigh in frustration. I can no longer hide this from Rosebud and Mason anymore. They will love their new siblings but telling them will not be easy. Rosebud and Mason will react to my pregnancy with anger. Though Mason can control his temper better than his sister but when it comes to his mom he can't. So I am going to have to have a plan…

My door burst open, "Mom! I have been calling you but…". She does not finish her sentence as her eye fall to my stomach where I had forgotten to put on my sweater again.

"Holy Shit Mom your pregnant!".

I find my voice as she storms out , "Rosebud please come back! I need to explain…" and she is gone.

Fuck, I curse as I grab my sweater and car keys to go after her but the sight of my son stops me. He face falls blank and a fire burns in his eyes when I get to him, "Mason please don't do anything rash. I need to go after your sister but when I get back I will explain it all. Just stay here, please honey".

He looks up at me with the fire in his eyes and my heart hurts, "Fine, She is going to Dads".

"Thank you honey", I say and race over to Adrian's.

Panic sets in as a recent conversation he had with me. Lissa and Christian were coming to visit today. Two people I had not seen in years.

I park my car and I hear my daughter screaming obscenities to high heaven. Which on any other day I would blame Adrian for her foul mouth but today I need to get her to stop screaming.

I come into to the door to Adrian laughter and Rosebud's burning rage. I bring her in a hug and kiss her forehead, "My darling girl let's go home where we can talk. You stormed off before I had the chance...". Then I looked at Adrian who was tense but a person who didn't know him would not see that. Then I figured out why he was tense, "... and why are you taking your anger about this out on your Dad darling?".

My daughter looked up at me with guilt in her eyes, "Because… I don't know! Who else should I blame? Dad is almost always the reason when something happens but if it is not Dad then… ". My daughter's face changed as she thought then anger filled it once more, "O God its my biological father! You seen that jackass again!".

I was flabbergasted at her accusations and I didn't know how to respond to them. Though I didn't have too as Adrian did for me, "I told your mother has not seen your father in years so it is not your father and thank you for your vote of confidence."

I could tell he was trying to lighten the mood but he and I both know that sarcasm would not help now. My prediction came through as flames lite up her eyes again.

Knowing that I had to get out the mom voice to settle this I spoke, "Janine I know you are anger but please stop yelling. I will explain everything when we get home".

I plea with my eyes as she gives in and told me she was going to he car.

Thank full one problem was taken care of but realizing that

another one just took it's place. I inwardly groan as I feel the eyes and hear the gasp as they look at the ghost of Rose Hathaway.

The need for Adrian's drink was overwhelming but I knew I could not have one but my increase her rate was not for my babies either. So I give in to my body screaming for a cigarette.

As the eyes continue to stare I curse at the mess I got myself into I think of how could get out of this mess. So I speak my mind, "I have two kids who have inherited their protective nature from their father, which is fueling their anger right now. Now I have to go a conversation with those anger kids. So I am going to have a cigarette because I can't have Adrian's drink. Which is looking very good to me but got me in this mess the first place. So instead I am going to have a cigarette to calm my nerves, which are bad for my unborn children too but so is the stress. It's a lose-lose situation...".

I took another drag from my cigarette feeling myself calming down. I look at Adrian to support, "Adrian tell them everything or very little I don't care but give them any information they want and if they want to come see me I will see them tomorrow morning".

I walk out and feel his eyes boring into me but I don't look up. I just walking to my car where my child has left me a note stating that she was going to walk the block home. I curse again wishing that my feet didn't hurt so I could too. Though they do so I drive and walk up the house where they are waiting on the couch. I drop my keys and talk first, "I am going to be blunt with you, I am sorry I didn't tell you guys sooner. I was scared and I too was in shock. So I will say it plain and clear. The twins that I am carrying are indeed your Dad's kids but Adrian and I have not worked out our relationship. I also will ask if you would not pressure us either, but I do want you to know that we do love each other. Also please don't beat the shit out of him".

As I speak my children's faces morph from I want to kill somebody to a splitting grin. There smiles make me start to cry and in moments I am in their arms.

Mason and rosebud get a worry look on their face but it's mason who speaks, "Mom don't cry please, we are not angry anymore. We were furious because we just didn't want you to have go through what you went through with us. Though we know that Dad will not do that. We know that he will stand by you because he stood by you before when we weren't even his own. He is our dad just as he will be to them".

His word make a new round of tears form and they hold me closer. Rosebud kisses me on the forehead, "Mom please stop crying. We are happy for dad and you".

I get control over myself bring my kids in closer to me, "I am just happy and hormonal that is all. How about tomorrow we talk about your new siblings but tonight I am tired."

We all say goodnight and go to my bed with welcoming arms. Thankful I don't have to hide my belly anymore but dreading having to face my past.