i am too weak to be your cure

by Morghen

"You believe that preventing someone from becoming a monster, from becoming a Death Eater in the first place is more helpful than having to destroy one later." Fifty drabbles based on Regulus/Gideon, from Gideon's pov. For the OTP Boot Camp Challenge on HPFC. M&MWP. Directly related to my other fic "we will be the last ones standing." Rated T just in case. Nonlinear timeline.

2. agitated

ii. agitated

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You sigh, but it goes unnoticed by your companion. His eyes are fixed on four figures across the grounds and his mind is too occupied to be bothered by you.

The four figures seem to be having the time of their lives, making the best of the heatwave that has fallen upon Hogwarts by swimming in the Black Lake. You watch as they push and jostle each other, their laughs ringing for the whole school to hear, no idea in their minds that someone is envying and despising their every move.

In a way, you hate all of them (even Remus) for the pain they're causing Regulus (but then again, you're not really sure if you could hate anybody). You can see the way Regulus looks at them, longing to belong, to be accepted, and maybe that's what you hate. That agitated feeling that possesses you, leaving you knowing that no matter how hard you try, he will always still wish for his brother's love, knowing that you will never be enough to fill that gaping hole Sirius left in his heart.